Man, I still can’t believe tomorrow is this blog’s three year anniversary that’s crazy bruh! This has got me wondering how much time I’ve cherished (and wasted) giving it all I got. I always believed that to be a good artist, you had to be popular by a large group of people, I assumed that’s just how the art community works.
But your comments made me realize something else i’ve been ignoring this whole time. Sometimes that’s just how it is with being an artist, and that’s okay! And I shouldn’t feel discouraged about something that’s supposed to make me happy.
Drawing is really all I know, my purpose in life was to draw and discover new things that were out of my comfort zone. My heart will always belong to digital and traditional art, no matter who tells me differently.
Canceling Microtale has hurt me a lot more than it hurts some of you, at the time it was my only escape to flee the overwhelming expectations of being a young adult and jumping into the world of imagination and creativity.
This blog helped me understand my purpose more, and has now inspired me to be more open to new ideas that don’t just revolve around the Undertale Fandom. Yet it feels like I’m sort of….stuck, you know what I mean? Like I’m just throwing it all away for something else. My growth, my characters, their stories and development, what will it mean if I just hit the delete button?
I always saw Micro as a son the more I kept drawing him, and now it feels like I just lost that son of mine despite the fact he isn’t a real person. Sometimes when you feel that special bond with a character, you develop an understanding and connection to said character. The only thing you can do behind the screen is root for them, and as the creator, you have to know them better than anyone.
It was an interesting journey watching him grow up, make new friends, marrying the love of his life and starting a family. And despite not being real, he will always and forever be real to me.
Micro my dear boy, thank you for the best three years I can ever ask for, I would never forget you for this. Your time is done now, it is time for me to move on and start anew.
-Crayon
