[His feelings for him] were an oil spill; he’d let them overflow and now there wasn’t a damn place in the ocean that wouldn’t catch fire if he dropped a match.
- maggie stiefvater, the raven king
this isn’t a raven cycle request, i just fucking love that quote whoops.
miko moved to town three years ago and has broken his own heart eight times since. he’s a funny thing, miko -- as cruel as he is kind, and he is exceptionally kind. he’s the sort of person who can spot a person from across a crowded room and think i want to know what it would be like to be in love with him, and without hesitating he’ll approach them. and for a while, he will love them. and then, eventually, he’ll start to realize their flaws. and it takes almost no time at all for realization to twist into obsession, and that obsession eventually sours the entire relationship for him. it can take anywhere between a few weeks to a few months -- but in the end, he leaves every man he’s ever wanted. but i mean it when i say he breaks his own heart. it’s never an easy thing for him, even though he’s always the one to break things off. he always wants it to work, but he doesn’t want to work to make it work -- he just wants it to be easy because his parents always made it seem so easy. so he’s cried himself to sleep, moped around his apartment, gone days at a time in mourning of what-could-have-been for one boy after the next. then, soon enough (too soon), he goes out looking for the next person to love.
it’s a vicious cycle, and boyd has been there for just about every round of it. boyd was the first neighbor miko met in his historic seafront apartment, and though they are wildly different people they hit it off as friends and now the two of them share a social circle of nearly a dozen thirty-somethings who adore each other, but boyd and miko have been especially close because they live next door to one another.
theirs is a strange dynamic -- they bicker and argue a lot, mostly because boyd is grounded and down-to-earth and tends to see miko as being miko’s own worst enemy in love (he’s absolutely right) while miko thinks boyd would have a lot better luck in his own love life if he weren’t so damn judgmental all the time (he’s also absolutely right). they exhaust each other. they know exactly how to push one another’s buttons. miko doesn’t try to charm boyd, and boyd sure as shit doesn’t try to make himself something he isn’t to meet miko’s bullshit standards. they are perpetually at an impasse, and somehow that’s worked for them and their friendship over the years.
so when does all of that become want? i guess that’s for us to decide. when the site opens, miko’s going to be fresh off a breakup and in the throes of his own melodrama, so i figure we’ll pick up from there. the crux of their relationship is that miko thinks grand gestures and a fairytale romance are the right way to have a “perfect” relationship while boyd doesn’t believe in a perfect relationship -- he believes in loving someone enough you want to work to make it work day after day after day, and he believes in all different types of gestures, not just big ones. when miko wants to throw in the towel and quit and leave, boyd wants to fight and make it work.
i used the name boyd here because i would love someone to use boyd holbrook for this request, but i’m open to other recommendations between the ages of 30 and 40. if you’re interested, please message me or hit me up on discord at astronemesis#1712








