#miryisms

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Kinda wanna go to sleep, kinda wanna make out with Fox Mulder idk

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7.27-31.19

People always told me in no uncertain terms:

Anyone that gets to know you

Will love you

For the rest of their lives.

Lucky I got to do the same

('Such stars to be born under!'

I sighed to the sliver-moon most nights

and she nodded,

'Yes, yes.')

It was like standing in sea waves under the sun

and I wanted to tell you all the time:

With a tar-filled mouth

That mired steps and envied

microphones;

With aching, shaking hands that stumbled across keys,

and fumbled everything else...

Once upon a time, some boys approached me to

Inspect my necklace and

Everyone said it would go like this when

My spirit recognized you a long time ago,

and said,

"O' I see you..."

m.g. | "the train stops at the edge of this town, and I think now's a good time to get off"

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Pass the happy! 🌻 When you receive this, list 5 things that make you happy and send this to 10 of the last people in your notifications! No pressure to so and/or pass on of course, but i hope you have a nice day!

Aw, I love this stuff; thanks for thinking of me! 🌻🥰 5 Happy Things:

5. My soon-to-be-husband 😍

4. The fact that at last, I have my own home 🏡

3. My engagement ring 💍

2. Burt’s Bees pumpkin spice chapstick 🎃

1. ✨Minecraft✨😌

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I hate moving so much. It's so unsettling. I don't know where my things are going, and I pack last second, to say goodbye to my people: the grandmothers, the friends that became family, my mom -- just gotta make her laugh one more time before I move to a new land. I hate this feeling, it's like moving through molasses while everyone else just picks up my things, not understanding the preciousness, the fear of leaving something behind, or breaking a memory on accident... hoisted away to some musty trailer while I wring my hands and

pack his clothes... I've had to do this so many times (3 times in one year; this will make my tenth move in 23 years), and every time, the anxiety and frustration causes my face to go still, and I feel hatred, heat. I have no roots, and it sucks. I'm so exhausted, I'm tired of being a nomad: staying in one place only long enough to grow weary of it and yet leaving is just as annoying as staying.

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I have decided, since I already woke up crampy and out of sorts, that I will, soon, cry

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I don't have a job as of today 🙂

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I was tagged by @josy57! Thanks, love, sorry it took so long to post! I had to copy paste the prompts individually cause the tumblr app is actual trash so hopefully I didnt miss anything 😂

(Trigger warning for mentions of phobias and death up ahead, just in case)

Do you make your bed?

Nope, I just pull the covers up so it's less chaotic to come home to!

What’s your favorite number?

23, cause that's how old I am!

If you could, would you go back to school?

No, because it's costly, and I have no time or energy for it. But the serious job opportunities (that pay enough to get by with a roommate and have some basic benefits) are slim if you only have a highschool or GED equivalent level of education... 👀

Can you parallel park?

Barely! 😂

What’s your job?

I'm a front desk agent in the hospitality industry and I want OUT!

Do you think aliens are real?

Yes, but they aren't what we think they are and they are not benevolent.

Can you drive a manual car:

Nope!

A job you’ve had that will surprise people?

I co-ran an old non-profit ministry with my (now ex-) boyfriend for 2 years and wrote devotionals for the emailing list! 😂

Tattoos?

Only if it's Inkbox, ba-bay!

Favorite color?

Soft or deep greens of the most delicate or elegant nature

Any guilty pleasures?

Pop music may be vapid at times but I fucking love it, fight me.

Any phobias?

Needles, small spaces, death by drowning, suffocation, or burning, being buried alive, etc. Basically sharp things, puncture wounds, and not being able to breathe! 😂

Favorite childhood sport?

Dance! I was a ballerina for at least 7 years (my memory is spotty as hell ((trauma is fun!))), and did jazz, tap, hip-hop, lyrical, contemporary, and pointe!

Things people do that drive you crazy?

Drive below the speed limit in thought, word, or deed, or in front of me on any road ever. Slowness drives me crazy (which is why I'm so hard on myself when I don't learn A Thing™️ fast enough).

What movie(s) do you adore?

The Dark Knight, Inception, The Prestige, The Fall, The Sound of Music, The Secret Life of Walter Mitty, and recently, The Lord of the Rings trilogy 😍

Do you like doing puzzles?

In games, yes. On tables, no.

Do you talk to yourself?

Absolutely! Inner monologues and the fact that some people don't have them has been in the zeitgeist, and I definitely have one.

Favorite kind of music?

Indie pop, alt pop, bubblegum pop, 90s pop, 80s pop, etc. Also some rock, some rap, some country, some instrumental, some dance, and some indie. My Spotify is brinleebuddy; check out my monthly playlists! 😁

Tea or coffee?

"Por que no los dos?"

First thing you remember you wanted to be when you grew up?

A cowgirl missionary 😂 as in a missionary for Jesus, on horseback, dressed like Jessie from Toy Story! I also, for as long as I can remember, have been excited to someday be a mommy! 💖

Tagging: @thatlongingtho

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wind 🌪 lavender 💜 birch 🌳

Ooh, yay, hi!

🌪 What music do I normally listen to: I'd have to say a lot of different pop genres, at least that's what my Spotify said this year. My taste is all over the place cause I'll just love a handful of songs by an artist or band here and there. I know I'll always go back to Lorde and Bastille; Pure Heroine and Bad Blood got me through highschool.

💜 What is your favorite smell: Amber or bergamot, and this organic cologne oil my boyfriend wears mixed with his aftershave. Makes me feel safe and warm and happy.

🌳 What's something you're proud of: I'm proud that after 21 years of believing a Narcissistic narrative about myself and my mom, I was able to look my narc in the face and say, "That's not what I remember," until they screamed at me to leave, releasing me of any further responsibility to maintain a relationship with them. Since then, I've maintained one of the most difficult jobs for an introvert (hospitality industry) for almost a full year, begun to allow my true self to blossom, entered the most healthy relationship I've ever been in, and rented an apartment with my mom. I always believed his lies that I wouldn't make it on my own, but look at me now. I'm making progress, in spite of the aftereffects of my childhood. 🌱

Thanks for the ask, I love talking to people here! ☺