“I remember holding your hand, walking in sync and thinking as I looked at you- ‘this’ll never end. We’re perfect,’ how naive of me. How naive to think we were an exception to the rule. Everything ends. Even if it is at one time perfect.”
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“I remember holding your hand, walking in sync and thinking as I looked at you- ‘this’ll never end. We’re perfect,’ how naive of me. How naive to think we were an exception to the rule. Everything ends. Even if it is at one time perfect.”
heartache is the worst, my heart and positive vibes go out to u <3
Ppl on the internet have been so nice since I started using tumblr as a public diary.
Thank you so much. I took a shower and got some good sleep and today feels like a better day. One day at a time I think. Thanks for reaching out 💕
So I guess my gf and I are on a break?
I kind of flipped on her about stuff I’ve been building up and shit just all came out. I don’t know if she’s serious about building a life together because she likes living paycheck to paycheck in an abusive job where she’s been denied the opportunity to grow, all because she likes working with her friends and she’s too scared of change.
We’ve been drifting apart for some time because I don’t feel like she takes anything seriously anymore and even when we try to be intimate, she puts her friends late night gossip calls before spending time with me (we are long distance and see each other like 1 day a week) and I haven’t had an orgasm with her in a while and I feel like she’s always pushing me away when I try to initiate anything.
I deserve to be someone’s priority and I deserve a partner who wants to grow with me and reach our common goals. She’s more interested in getting her next tattoo or blowing her money on going out with her friends who take advantage of her.
I’m really upset because I love her so much but idk if I see a future with her. I got really close to some of her family and friends and if I lose her, I’ll have to give them up as well.
I don’t wanna break up but I can’t keep going on this way with her either. I want more than she wants to give me when I’ve given her 100% of me. I’m so frustrated and sad 😞
7.27-31.19
People always told me in no uncertain terms:
Anyone that gets to know you
Will love you
For the rest of their lives.
Lucky I got to do the same
('Such stars to be born under!'
I sighed to the sliver-moon most nights
and she nodded,
'Yes, yes.')
It was like standing in sea waves under the sun
and I wanted to tell you all the time:
With a tar-filled mouth
That mired steps and envied
microphones;
With aching, shaking hands that stumbled across keys,
and fumbled everything else...
Once upon a time, some boys approached me to
Inspect my necklace and
Everyone said it would go like this when
My spirit recognized you a long time ago,
and said,
"O' I see you..."
m.g. | "the train stops at the edge of this town, and I think now's a good time to get off"
After I talked to my therapist the other day I realized something about my ex that I probably should have realized a couple months ago. Back then I realized that her getting angry and jealous over a Harvest Moon spouse was super weird and a red flag. The thing is, I'll get crushes on fictional characters, especially the weird gnarly monster ones, and if I have a partner then I like to talk about it. My ex probably hated it but kept it to herself. Maybe she thought that this was something that I should have realized was wrong, because in her view it's not actually OK to have fictional crushes if you're in a relationship, I guess. I know that this wasn't the only thing she broke up with me for but it must have been a significant part of it.
Anyway: having fictional crushes is OK and normal and your partner isn't gonna leave you for them. They're fictional. And if you get uncomfortable when your partner talks about their fictional crushes? Tell them.
I was blind to the anchor tied to my ankles as I sunk into your oceans.
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If words were flowers I’d have written you a thousand bouquets. Tender stems in every colour Blooms that bruised and crushed each other, Big ideas in simple posies Love and lilac, loss and roses, All the things I couldn’t say out loud That you threw out. They’re rotting now.
It's! Just! The way I was reacting to literally everything! At the beginning of the year! Was the way that emotional abuse victims respond to things! And literally nobody! Saw that! Or like, not literally, but, I can only think of one to two people who maybe did! Right! And for some people that's just bc they Don't Know what that looks like! Right! But that still kind of sucks bc there was just, so much that will go unexplained, always, right, and I Want to be able to explain it, so bad, but, But for some people I feel like! They should have! They just Did Not Want To! Right! Because of what that would have meant abt their friend,