DARKSIDE OF THE MOON: Dark!Reed Richards x Fem!Reader x Dark!Sue Storm
Life's good, you are in the best university of NYC, you have friends, the position of TA, and a brilliant career in front of you. Things at Baxter University couldn’t get any better until it received the most prestigious professor there was, Reed Richards. HIm and his wife Sue are the hottest, smartest couple in the entire galaxy. It was a dream when they set their eyes on you for you to join them…, but everything has a darkside…
Bucky Barnes x Reader
Stories
My love, his duty: King!Bucky Barnes x Queen!Reader DISCONTINUED
A princess in your own right, you were sent by your father to marry the King when you became of age. The waiting had extended indefinitely as you waited in your castle hearing tales of the filardered you had as a betrothed
Entertaining yourself among horse riding, sword training, and all the books and advisors you can have, you wait patiently. Losing all hopes, you send him a nude painting of yourself, confident that he will never see it, nor it will interest him, oh how wrong you were.
You were called upon court, to be finally betrothed to your new King
Best deal ever: Mob!Bucky Barnes x Fem!Reader
DISCONTINUED
James Buchanan Barnes was one of the bigger mobsters in New York City, sadly for you, you must be the only person that didn’t know that, sadly enough he didn’t just gave you an incredible moment, he gave you a positive pregnancy test
Hotel California://COMPLETE Dark!Bucky Barnes x Fem!Reader
You came to this small and secluded town in search of independence and a new life, but of that you'll only get one, as the song says, “you can check out any time you like, but you can never leave”
The Bodyguard: Bodyguard!Steve Rogers x Actress!FemReader
DISCONTINUED
After a couple of death threats you had gotten, your manager, Valkyrie, thought it was imperative you get a bodyguard, so there he was, Steve Rogers. There wasn't long before you two got entangled with each other, as you tried to navigate your acting career, and this loving and very sexual relationship with him
The New Line: //COMPLETE
Bucky Barnes x FemaleReader Ft. Steve Rogers
You decided not to tell Steve you were pregnant since you didn't want to distract him in his big mission, you never thought that he would never be coming back from it. Or at least, he wasn't going to get back to you
Lucky for you, Bucky was there, and he was going to be there for you, you will draw a new line, together
Our Thing:// COMPLETE MobBoss!Steve Rogers x ItalianMobGrandaughter!FemReader x MobBoss! Bucky Barnes
Part II Part III
The one that was supposed to be the best day of your life turned into a nightmare as your new husband bosses decided you were too good for Peter
ONESHOTS
Take me out (Bucky Barnes x Fem!Reader)
The Golden girl and the Golden boy (Steve Rogers x Odinsdottir!Reader Ft Protective Brother Loki)
600 followers challenge (requests)
Winter soldier + size kink
Bucky Barnes + proposal + metal arm "acceptance"
Alpha!Beefy!Bucky + Omega!Reader
Bucky Barnes + degradation kink + Jefferson
Angel!SteveRogers + Human!Reader + Demon!Ransom
Dark!Wintersoldier + Dark!FemWinterSoldier
If not now then when? (Bucky x Reader x Nat)
"Youngblood" for Sunshinebuckybarnes' Jukebox challenge (SoftDark!Bucky Barnes x Fem!Reader)
Chapter Summary: You try to navigate having Steve back in your life, or try to kick him out anyways
Pairing: Bucky Barnes x FemaleReader (very ambiguously described) Ft. Steve Rogers
Warnings: Cursing, mentions of abandonment, fluff, angst, heavy talks, a little misogynist Steve, high risk pregnancy, mentions of complications in pregnancy
Bucky being a dream, Steve being the biggest asshole, not dark, but a total dipshit
+18 please.
Word Count: 2.8k (approx)
Notes: Thank for all the comments and follows to this story
You heard him talk, and you totally became numb, if you thought the pain you had felt when he left you was bad, it held nothing on this.
After the shock you had to sit down so now there you were, Steve was sitting there across from you, speaking to you like he didn't left you for another woman, and he came back, talking about how Bruce turn him back like it was his last mission in the jungle with the team
“Anyways... “ he said, “If you had came talk to me that day, you'll would have realise that it was always the plan” that did leaked in, and you sat there not believing his audacity
“What?”
“You just had to wait a couple of months until Bruce can change me back and everything would been like nothing had happened” You heard him talk and talk and you couldn't believe the audacity of this man
“Steve you left me”
“But only for a couple of months!” he said
“Oh so you didn´t live a full life with Peggy Carter?” you asked him, “Because I knew there wasn't any problems with you, so clearly you made a choice, and that choice was to leave me for another woman” he didn't erase that condescending smile, and you wanted to punch him in the face, your mama lion instincts kicking in
“The moment Peggy told me she didn't want have children, and that she wanted to keep working I knew I made a mistake”
“What?” you asked
“And I knew right there, it was you darling, all this time, you are the real deal”
“I have to ask” you said, dead serious, “Are you having senile dementia?” he laughed like you had cracked the joke of the century
“Of course not Honey, I'm here now!” he said, like you were the double face idiot, “And you should be thankful” he said
“Excuse me?”
“I came back for you, and to help you with my baby”
“You didn't come back to me!” you claimed, “you got old and barely survived to see us all back again, and it's NOT your baby!”
“Ah it isn´t?” he asked, he was starting to get mad, “And who's the father if it isn't me?”
“It's Bucky,” you said firmly. He laughed, deadass laughed in your face
“You are about to give birth, 8 months ago we were together, it´s my baby” he said firmly
“You might have help in the making, but you renounced every claim you had on her when you left me! You don't get to say that! you accused, “not after you left me”
“Her? A girl?” he asked, with his tone, you knew perfectly well he was disappointed, and you didn't understand why your chest clenched with sorrow again, why would you feel like that? He was the one that left you and abandoned you, you didn't have to care about his opinion. He was a misogynist, dreaming about having his male heir or whatever
“Yes, it´s a girl” you said firmly, “We are naming her Rebecca”
“We?” he asked
“Bucky and I” he chuckled, mockingly, “He is the real father of our baby”
“Cut the crap, you are telling me that you are together now?”
“Yes we are!” Bucky came into the house, almost in a rage, Sam trailing after him
“Honey, you are willing to kick away the father of your baby, your boyfriend of five years, for him?”
“Without a second thought” you said firmly. Steve got off the couch and into his feet to meet Bucky. Both faced the other, and you feared a physical confrontation
“Bucky you are pathetic” he accused
“I'm the pathetic one?” he asked
“You don't think I didn't see that sad puppy face every time someone celebrated me?, like when we came back to camp after I rescued you? or when Peggy preferred me? instead of you? or when I became the hero?”
“You are delusional” he said, not believing his best friend had become this person in front of him
“So now you plan on replacing me, taking my girl, and my baby” he finished, “Well it's not gonna happen”
“If it is your baby and your girl, I want you to tell me, what week of pregnancy is she in?” he asked, Steve just tried to kill him with his stare, “What foods made her nauseous the first months?” he asked, but there was no answer, “What was she craving?” he attacked again
“You know I have no answer for those things because she...!” he said, raising his voice and pointing directly at you, “Never told me she was pregnant!”
“I was going to tell you that night!” you defended, “I found out the day before, but you never came back!”
“I did came back”
“Or better yet” Bucky continued, “something every parent should know, what foods can she not have? and which ones are recommended in pregnancy? which vitamins?”
“Stop it!” gunted Steve, “Do you think reading some books about pregnancy makes you a father?”
“But being here does!” you said, “Being the first thing I see when I wake in the morning, and the last thing I see at night, cooking for me meals rich in vitamins for the baby, and make sure I take the supplements, and coming with me to all the appointments, consoling me when I feel so bloated and tired I just cry for hours on end because I'm uncomfortable, and cuddle with me despite of my demonic behaviour all day because I can't eat raw things” Now Steve was speechless, but mad, and when he was mad, he had the tendency of…
“I didn't know you were pregnant!” he yelled, “Because you had such a big ego you couldn't even let it slide to tell me!” you wouldn't believe what you were hearing
“What is wrong with you?” asked Bucky
“There is nothing wrong with me, I just came to claim what is mine”
“You are insane” he said, things were getting heated, luckily Sam came into the house
“Ok, I see now that this was an awful idea Steve” he accused, “You said you were going to behave”
“I didn't know she was pregnant” he said back, he said, pointing at your belly in a way you didn't like, “How could you not tell me? you all hid this from me!”
“You had no right to know!” you said, grabbing the reins of the situation again, “You left me for another woman!” You said, “You came back as a 100 year old man! after living a life with fucking Peggy”
“But I came back to you!” He repeated, “It took me all these months because Bruce and Hank Pym took his time rebuilding the portal, that's the only reason why I wasn't with you any sooner, and you refused to talk to me that day!” he was making you feel like you were the one in the wrong, and he was in the right
“Ok that's it!” you yelled, the three men stood very still, impressed. And you felt your blood boil, your mama lion insticts kicking in so fast it made your head spin, “Steve get the fuck out of our home!” you said firmly. Bucky smiling proudly, “She is mine” you continued, cradling your belly “And Bucky ́s''
“I want a paternity test” he demanded
“Get the fuck out!” you demanded, and Sam grabbed him softly by the arm, and took him out of the house.
“This isn't over!” Steve promised, leaving the house, and only when you heard the engine driving away, you drop yourself back to the sofa, feeling suddenly depleted of your energy
“Hey Doll” Bucky was on you in a second, “That's my baby momma, are you ok?” you nodded while you tried to calm your unsteady breathing
“Yes I just, got tired all of a sudden”
“Let me get your vitals” he said, “FRIDAY!” he called, and the AI was in it in a second
“Everything looks good Papa bear” she chanted
“Papa Bear?” you giggled. Bucky smiled at you and give you a little peck in the lips
“That's my code name for pregnancy things” he said
“What´s mine?” you asked, amused
“Momma bear” he responded simply
“I love that” he kissed you again softly. He grabbed you gently, like if you were a princess, and carried you to the bed, he help you get under the covers after he took off your shoes
“Are you ok?” he asked, more serious than before, leaning in to kiss your temple
“I can't believe he is back” you murmured
“Would you ever consider… taking him back?” he asked, seating beside you at the edge of the bed
“What?” you asked, scared, “No!” you grabbed his hands, suddenly terrified, “Never Bucky please…” was he going to leave you?
“Hey, it's ok, I´m here” you were becoming so upset he could sense it, “I'm just wondering”
“No Bucky, please, it's you, only you”
“I'm not going anywhere” he said, “I swear it, I was just scared” you both breathed more relaxed. But the confrontation drained you of all your energy.
“I don't want to take him back, I don't want to see him, I don't want to have him near me” a single tear escaped your eye, “I don't know what I'm going to do”
“I´m here, with you”
“I don't want to share her with him, she is ours” he smiled softly and kissed you
“I´ll talk to him, calmly” you sighed, “You need to take a nap”
“Steve was always like a Dementor” you murmured, “It drains you of your soul and energy”
“A what?” he asked, confused, “is that something the avengers fought?”
“Have you never seen Harry Potter!?” you yelled. Bucky laughed, shaking his head, “No freaking way! we need to see them!”
“Them?” Bucky asked
“There are 8 of them” you giggled
“Oh shit!”
Bucky signed one last time. He had left you with Pepper, as he decided, after that heated argument with Steve, that they needed to relax and try again to come to terms with what had happened, so he asked his old friend to a café
“We need to have a serious and calm conversation about this” he said firmly, as Steve nodded.
“Please, you go first” he said
“When you left that day, you hugged me and asked me to take care of her” he said softly, “You knew already you weren't coming back”
“Yes, I was thinking about it since before I left
“Why didn't you tell her?” he said
“I didn't have the nerve”
“So you surviving until you saw us all again was a coincidence?”
“Yes, I didn't know I would survive it, but when I did I realised I could do it all again”
“But do you think that is fair to her?” asked Bucky, even if it was a couple seconds to us, you did live another life with another woman”
“I realise that, it's been 80 years for me, but I never stopped thinking about her”
“Steve, you have to walk away” he said firmly, and Steve look became angry
“I don't want to” he said
“The best thing you could do is walk away” repeated Bucky
“I won't walk away from my woman, and my baby”
“You already did” he responded, “I'm here now” he said firmly, “And you need to understand that, unlike you, I´m not going anywhere”
“Peggy didn´t gave me any children” he said, like he was a little kid
“That's unfortunate” Bucky said, “but you made your choice, so now you stick with it”
“You think I'll walk away just like that?” he asked, almost mocking him
“I'm asking you to do it, because she doesn't want you there” he said firmly, “She won't take you back, under any circumstances, she will marry me, and the baby will have my name”
“Well, I don´t care, it´s my baby, and if you wanted it so, I want a paternity test now, so I can prove it, and if need be, to call a lawyer” Bucky frowned, desiring he could settle this in an old school way like in a duel or something, but that wasn't going to work out
“She isn't doing a DNA test”
“Is not up to you” dealing with him was like dealing with a toddler
“She can't do it now, you´ll have to wait until she is born”
“Are you suddenly an expert in pregnancy?” he mocked
“Yeah, I became one, for her” he said, “I read a lot of books, and articles” he was frustrated, Bucky could feel it, Steve leaned back into the seat and crossed his arms over his chest
“I want to hear from her that she doesn't want me back”
“She is eight months pregnant and the other day she needed a four hour nap and a trip to the doctor to get over your little visit” he said firmly, “You are not going anywhere near her”
“I want to be part of my baby's life” he said firmly, “I want to be there for the birth”
“You must know, it's a high risk pregnancy” Steve stood very still, “Doctor Cho is scared for her, even if she doesn't want to show it, we don't know how the birth is going to go, due to, the serum in the baby, and she didn't want to have any testing done because it includes a very invasive needle and the risk of miscarriage, and we're too late to do it anyways”
“So she is going in blindly” he spoke like it was a military mission
“Yes, we don't know what to expect” Bucky was terrified, “It's been a good pregnancy, she just needs a lot of more supplements, than a regular baby, it´s like she is a super baby” They both shared a look, “Which is very possibly”
“But doctor Cho, I'm certain that she can do whatever it takes”
“Yes, of course, she is beyond overqualified for this, we are confident that everything is going to be ok”
“It will take me sometime to understand she doesn't want me” he said, “But I do want to see the baby”
“I'll talk to her” said Bucky, “If you concede in letting us do what we want, I'm sure she will let you be a part of her life Steve”
“I'll wait then”
He surrendered, Steve surrendered
“Ok mama bear” Bucky had his sargeant voice on, as he marked a red cross in today´s date in the calendar “It's on, we are in the 38 week mark, everything after this point is fair game”
“Oh” you rubbed your belly, you loved your daughter with all your heart, and soul, and body, but you wanted her out, you were so uncomfortable
“Now momma, what's the plan?” he asked
“As soon as the water breaks, we jump in the car” yu said firmly
“I have it loaded with the hospital bag”
“Yes, and FRIDAY is calling Bruce and Doctor Cho immediately, they promise to be in the compound for the next 3 weeks”
“Good, now Bruce… I know he means well” he started, “I'm just saying, he is a giant! what if he doesn't measure right and crushes our baby?”
“Bruce is not going to crush anyone” you said smiling widely
“I'm not sure I want his big hands in the receiving end” you giggled
“I'm sure it will be fine” you opened your arms to him, which was a clear sign that you wanted to cuddle. And you did, getting comfortable in his arms in the couch
“What if I hurt her?” he asked suddenly, you looked at him, scared
“What do you mean?”
“What if… I hurt her while I held her?” he looked at you with those beautiful eyes so tortured you wanted to kiss him to eternity to prove him wrong
“You won´t”
“What if I pinch her little arms or legs with the gears and grooves of my metal arm?” you touched the arm in question, feeling it so soft and smooth
“The old one had those things, but not this one” you said softly, and you placed your fingers inside his metal elbow, try to pinch me
“I'm going to hurt you”
“You won't” he took his hand to his shoulder, bending his arm as he gently pressed your fingers, and you didn't feel anything, “There are no grooved or gears Mr Barnes, you are safe and qualified to hold your crying daughter to make her burp while her mother is asleep” he smiled as one single tear escaped his eye
“I love you so much”
“I fucked up Sam” Steve wished he could be drunk right now
“Yeah you did” he said, drinking his own beer
“I want them both back”
“She is with Bucky now”
“Yes I know”
“Are you going to accept that?” he said, cautionaly
“Yes, if that's what it takes to be part of my daughter's life”
"I´m with you till the end of the Line" //COMPLETED
You had a beautiful relationship with Steve, or at least, that's what you thought. After you managed to get everyone back, there was a last mission for Steve before you finally had peace for you two to settle down, a little faster than you anticipated since you just found out you were pregnant.
You decided not to tell him since you didn't want to distract him in his big mission, you never thought that he would never be coming back from it. Or at least, he wasn't going to get back to you
Lucky for you, Bucky was there, and he was going to be there for you, you will draw a new line, together
Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Avenger!FemaleReader (very ambiguously described) Ft. Dumbass!Steve Rogers
Warnings: Cursing, smut (fluffy and future), angst, fluff, like teeth rotting fluff, pregnancy, abandonment, cheating (technically), birth. flufffff
Bucky being a dream, Steve being the biggest asshole, not dark, but a total dipshit, and a misogynist
+18 please.
Word Count: TBD
Notes: A short angst-fluff story, about 4 chapters, no more, inspired by a tik tok I saw
Notes: A short angst-fluff story, about 4 chapters, no more, inspired by a tik tok I saw
“Don´t do anything stupid until I get back” he warned
“How could I? You are taking all the stupid with you” he murmured
“Take care of her” Steve whispered in Bucky´s ear, and as they separated, Bucky looked at his friend in panic
“What do you mean?” he whispered, but he didn´t got an answer
“Steve!” you took your turn to wrap your arms around him hugging him tightly, “I love you so much, please take care”
“I will be back before you know it” he said softly in your ear, kissing your cheek before you parted
“Please be careful” you murmured against his neck, “I love you”
“I love you too,” he whispered. You wanted to tell him, you needed to, but you knew that was just going to distract him, and he needed to be focused on the mission, a single mistake and everything could go wrong, he needed to have his mind clear
You felt a knot in your stomach when he got up into that platform, but you had a good feeling, everything was going to be ok, and he was going to come back in a second
The special suit deployed, and Bruce made him disappear in a flash of the machine. Those seconds felt like infinity, as you kept physical contact with Sam and Bucky, your shoulders touching
“Bringing him back in 3… 2… 1…” Bruce pushed some buttons, but Steve didn´t came back
“Bruce, bring him back!” demanded Sam, as Bruce turned and pressed more buttons
“I'm trying!” he said, scared, as you were, “He passed right by his time stamp he should be right here” You felt Bucky grabbing your hand, and you looked at him, scared
“Bruce was going on?” you asked, feeling a lump in your throat, as a crippling fear took a hold of you
“Sam, (Y/N)” called Bucky, and you followed his gaze, and…
Your world stopped spinning
“No…” you muttered, when you spotted his figure, far off, seated on the bench. It was an old man, but you knew, you totally new what this meant
“(Y/N)” whispered Bucky by your side
“He went back to her” your voice broke in a second
“He might not… maybe there was a mistake!” said Sam
“Go talk to him,” murmured Bucky. And Sam wasted no time in walking slowly towards him. You grabbed Bucky's arm as he kept his rip on you
“Please” you begged, “Please don't leave me” you murmured. The hold Bucky had on you tightened, and you leaned into him, “Please, please, please” you whispered, you saw them gesticulating, and you just knew, everything was crumbling down around you. Soon Sam was walking back towards you both
“Was it a mistake?” you asked, and Sam shook his head
“(Y/N) you need to go talk to him” said Sam, but you couldn't. Tears started falling freely
“I can´t” you refused, “I cannot do it”
“You need to hear what he has to say” he said softly
“Why?” you asked, “So he can tell me I wasn't enough and it had always been her? and that he's sorry?”
“(Y/N) please!” Sam continued, he tried to grab you, but you took a step back
“No” you hugged yourself, letting go of Bucky, and walking away. You heard them call your name but you couldn't go back, you started running, as fast as you could, only to get away from them. With each step you took your heart broke more and more
You had to stop when a crippling nausea got a hold of you. You embraced a tree and puke all the contents of your stomach into the grass
“Nooo” you cried, hugging that tree like it was a longtime friend, as you cried, feeling your chest tightening, making it difficult for you to breathe, “Why?”
“You don't have to leave,” Bucky whispered. You barely could see anything through your tears,as you furiously grabbed your clothes and stick the in a suitcase
“I need to leave Bucky, I can't stay here” you couldn't stay there where all Steve's things were, where just this morning you had breakfast together, talking about the colour you wanted to paint the walls of the guest room. You could have sworn Steve was going to say a soft white so it could match anything… Like a nursery, but now you understood why he didn't really care
Bucky was living with the two of you in a small apartment in Brooklyn since he came back, and was adjusting to his new reality. He was the coolest roommate and you really cared for him
“But where are you going to go?” he whispered
“I don´t know” you whispered, “But you can stay here as long as you want Bucky, this apartment, is all yours, take the master bedroom, burn all of his shit, I don´t care, the rent is paid 6 months ahead, please, just, do what you want”
“Please don't go” he said, grabbing your arm softly
“I can't stay here Buck, I´m sorry” you cried, “Just last night I slept with Steve in that bed, where he swore he'd love me forever” you said, “And just this morning we ate breakfast in that kitchen discussing what we were going to paint the extra room like.. and I…” a sudden nausea reached you, “I can't do it, I can't stay here”
“Let me take you wherever you need” he said, “Please, I can´t let you leave like this”
“I texted Pepper, would you take me to her house?” you asked
“Sure doll” The ride was awkward and in silence, which was weird since you always had something to talk about, but every time you tried to speak you felt this lump in your throat not letting you
“I don't want to lose contact with you” he said, as he parked the car in front of Pepper´s cabin
“You won't” you whispered, not daring to look at him, “You have my number, you can call me whenever, or text me” you knew he wasn't going to do it, he hated phones, and it took him three days to figure out how to text, but you felt good reassuring him nonetheless
“Please, come back to me” he pleaded
“I'm sorry Bucky” you murmured
“We can find another place, for us, together” he tried. You looked at your yet flat belly, and realise you could´t, you couldn't put Bucky trough that
“Bucky I can't keep being in the avengers” you muttered, “I can't go on missions anymore” you continued, “I just want some peace and quiet” and time to think how the fuck you were going to go trough a whole pregnancy and raising a kid all on your own
“Please”
“You know you can always count on me” you said, “But right now it's just too painful, give me some time” you didn't even realise you had your hands tangled with each other
“Ok,” he said, “But we could totally become roommates again, right? you giggled, and nodded
“Totally” you had such a good time with Bucky, watching movies, and teaching him all the things he needed to know about modern times. But you knew that when he saw you again, he was going to run for the hills when he realised you were pregnant
“See you later trouble” he murmured, as he leaned in and kissed your forehead
“See you later Calamity” you whispered back.
When you got off the car, Pepper was waiting for you in the deck, and little morgan ran up to hug you
“Auntie!” she yelled, and you had to drop your suitcase to receive her in your arms
“Hey nessy” you whispered in her ear
“I´m sorry to say this Bucky, but” mumbled the therapist, “There has been a setback in your social development” she observed
“Well, I told you what happened” he muttered, “I miss her, and I miss Steve”
“Have you tried to reach her?” she asked
“We text sometimes” he said, dismissively, “But I sense she had grown a distance, she could totally could have come with Sam and I to these missions, but she refused”
“Why won't you try to visit her?”
“I don't think she wants to see me” he murmured, “Maybe I remember her of him”
“You said that, him, with certain, disdain”
“Steve was my friend but he abandoned her, and me” he said, “why would he go back and leave her? she is so incredible, and nice, patient and good” he asked, “Why would he leave her for somebody else?”
“I don´t know” she said, “You seem to be attached to this person”
“It is easy to get attached to her” he said, “I feel like she is the only friend I made, and when I think about the seconds before Steve went back I… he told me to “take care of her” did he know he was abandoning her?” The therapist saw Bucky was just as heartbroken as she was, “What kind of a man does that? tell a girl he loved her and that he wanted to join their lives and then just abandoned her?”
“You seem pretty shaken up” she said, “I think the best cause of action is for you to visit her, but with one thing clear in you mind”
“And what would that be, doc?”
“What do you want with her?” she asked softly, “Do you want to be his friend?, or something else…? perhaps even, more romantic”
“You think I love her, romantically?” he asked
“You know what I think?” she said, “I think you have a good old crush on her” she said with a bright smile, “She told you to give her sometime, and it had been more than two months” she said, “Maybe she is ready”
Chapter Summary: Your heart is broken, and Bucky has the glue
Pairing: Bucky Barnes x FemaleReader (very ambiguously described) Ft. Dumbass!Steve Rogers
Warnings: Cursing, angst, fluff, like teeth rotting fluff, pregnancy
+18 please.
Word Count: 2.8 k
Notes: Pure flufff
Even if you had purged Steve out of your mind and your surroundings, avoiding him and his name and images like the plague, you still had a horrible feeling in your chest every time you remembered him
It did not help that the only thing you remembered where good things, and how much you missed him, and then comes the chest clenching when you remembered how he literally abandoned you
Having a broken heart and not being able to drown it in buzz because you were having the baby of the man that abandoned you actually sucked. You looked down and caressed your belly
“I didn't mean that” you whispered. You were barely showing, just coming out of your third trimester and well into four months. You were thankful the crippling vomiting had ceased, you had felt like shit, and still puked once in a while, but it was more bearable, it came with the pregnant territory, and honestly, you felt relieved because considering the father of the baby was a super soldier, you thought it could had been worse, way worse. But doctor Cho had promised everything looked good
But something that didn't cease was the cravings, you wanted to eat the weirdest things, right now you wanted some chicken nuggets with caramel sauce, perhaps it was barbecue sauce instead? You shook your head, naaa, syrup it's better
You walked in a sneaky way to your kitchen, even though you lived alone, sometimes you felt embarrassed of the weird concoctions you made for yourself
You had moved into a cute cabin, right next to Pepper and Morgan. It was a single floor, three bedrooms, an open kitchen to a living room and dining room, a nice deck where you could sit with a sight of a beautiful lake, it was quiet, and nice. And very modern thanks to Stark industries. You smiled as you raided your fridge because in a few weeks you were finally going to find out if you were expecting a girl or a boy, and you could finally turn one of the rooms into a nursery, and set up all the stuff Happy had been bringing you, well, Happy, and Peter, and Pepper and Thor, all of them.
But as you took the nuggets out of the oven and were preparing to bathe them in syrup, a knock on the door interrupted you. All of your friends were out of town, so you had no idea who that could be. You walked towards the door and looked through “the peeper” as you called it, and smiled widely when you saw it was Bucky at the other side of the door
“Hey calamity!” you greeting after you rushed to open the door
“Hey Trouble” he said, smiling softly, “How are you doing?” The last time you saw him was the night of that mission. But you had heard about his adventures with the new captain america, that being Sam, against that group called the Flag Smashers.
“Good!” you said simply, “Looking good white wolf” you said playfully, you hugged him tightly, as he held you as well against his chest, you had miss him
“You too roomie” he said against your neck. But you know it wasn´t true you looked like hell. You let go of him and let him into your house
“It's a nice house you got here” he said, with a shy smile
“Thanks, Pepper helped me set it up, Thor as well” you whispered, since Tony Stark's widow was one of your only neighbours, and became one of your closests friends, ”I'm sorry I haven't been there for you” since you were growing a super baby inside of you and hugging the toilet for the last two months
“It's ok” he said, with that shy smile, “Right back at you, though” he said
“You were saving the world” you reminded him
“Yeah, sort off” he gave you a weird smile as he looked around
“Do you want something to eat… drink?” Your cheeks immediately heated as you could clearly see the tray filled with nuggets and the syrup so dangerously close to it.
“I don't really don't want Nuggets with syrup,” he said with a wide smile. You giggled apologetically
“I get it” you raided your fridge and you took out a beer for Bucky, sadly you couldn't have one. You offered to him as you just had juice, “Sooo….” you started, your cheeks heated, “What brings you here?” you noticed his uneasiness and wanted it over with
“Well, I wanted to see you”
“Again, I´m sorry for leaving…” you murmured
“I understand if you don't want to keep living together” he said, with a sad tone you didn't like, the last thing you wanted to do is to make him feel bad
“That's not it” you said simply, “I love being roomies, is just… I needed some time to figure things out, and I was confused, and heartbroken”
“I understand, and that's why… I came back for you, now” he said firmly, as he looked at you with those steel blue eyes that made your legs buckle
“What do you mean?” you asked, feeling an excitement traveling through your spine
“I think we have something good going on, and I would like to… explore it” he seemed uncomfortable, but decisive in what he wanted to say
“What do you mean?” you asked, confused
“I like you, (Y/N), I think I fell for you” the world seemed to stop spinning as you heard his confession. And something that was hidden deep inside you resurfaced
“Bucky, really?” you asked him softly
“Yes I do” he drew a shy smile and you smiled back, you did like him a lot. But then you remember the very same reason why you separate yourself from him
“I really like spending time with you, but I don't think it is a good idea” you swallowed hard, trying to not look at him. Still hurt by Steve, and more of that, expecting his child, Bucky can not be drag into all this mess, he didn't deserve it
“Why not?”
“I´m still really hurt, and I don´t think I´m ready”
“I'm just saying, we should spend time together… And see from there”
“Bucky” God you wanted him around you so bad, but you couldn't.
“Why wouldn't you give me a chance?” he asked, upset, “We have a great time when we are together, we have chemistry, and I… I always liked you, since we met after the accords”
“And I do really like you Bucky, but please” you were going to start crying, “Please believe me when I tell you… I can't”
“I don´t understand, you like me, I like you…so what's the problem?”
“Bucky…”
“I know you are scared, and heartbroken, but I would never do what Steve did to you” before he kept talking, you grabbed the hem of your extra large sweater, and you uncovered your belly showing Bucky what you meant.
Time stood still and he shut his own mouth and stared at you in complete shock, your barely visible 4 month baby bump in display for him. This is the moment in which he clears his throats, says something in the lines of, “Sorry to bother you” to turn around and leave
“Is that…?” he couldn't talk, “Steve´s…”
“Is Steve´s baby” you whimpered, as you didn´t realise you had started crying
“That son of a bitch” he took one step in your direction, and softly caressed your bump, and you let him, you were so touched deprived for these three months his contact soothed you.
“He didn't know” you cried, he finally looked back at your face, “I found out the day before the mission but I didn't want to tell him, I didn't want to distract him, because it was so important for him to have a clear head and don´t mess up”
“But then...” his voice sounded strangled when your pain became his own, not saying a word he understood why you ran away two months ago, and why you needed time, and why you couldn't go with him to those missions, and specially… why you couldn't give him a chance
“He told me he loved me, we were living together, we had a future, I never thought...” you started weeping all together, feeling that tightness in your chest you had felt since Steve left you. “I never thought he would leave me like that”
Bucky couldn't hold it and wrapped his arms around you, hugging you tightly. You cried on his chest, wrapping your arms around his waist as well, feeling such a comfort. And you were as shocked as he was when his reaction was the complete opposite of what you expected, he didn't run for the hills, he didn't leave you.
“You need to tell him” he said softly in your ear
“No”
“He has to take responsibility”
“he is a hundred year old men, he left me for a dead woman, he abandoned me,” you cried, “He lied to me, he doesn't love me, he never did”
“I'm sure he loved you” he whispered
“Not enough”, you whimpered, “He left me, I'm all alone”
“You are not alone, you have me” he finally release you to look at you, to compel you to believe his words
“Bucky I can't ask you to…”
“Give me a chance” he begged
“Bucky, I´m pregnant with another man´s baby” you cried, “I can't ask you to assume this huge burden” you said
“It isn't a burden” he said, his eyes teary, and so tempestuous you wanted to get lost in them, “And you are not asking” he said, “I'm offering to be here with you”
“Do you mean it?” You asked, and you cursed yourself for sounding like a hopeful little girl
“I do” he said, “I really do, let me be here, with you, for you and the baby”
“Bucky, you should think about it” you begged, “It's a lot” And if he left you too your chest would constrict your heart
“I've been thinking about it, for this last two months” he said firmly, “and it was you the only thing I thought about”
“I don't know if I'm ready” you cried
“I had always were so jealous of Steve, not because the serum turn him into a hero and me into a villain, not because he was the chosen one, or because all the ladies preferred him, but because in top of all that, he had you” still in his arms you were left speechless, “He had you and I always saw the adoration in which you looked at him, I would have given anything for you to give me that look and I'm willing to wait and do whatever it takes”
“Bucky…” you muttered
“Give me a chance” he repeated, cradling your face with his hands, “I want to be here for you” he continued
“Are you sure?” you asked. If you tried this, it could go wrong all over again
“If you had told me that day, I wouldn't have left your side” he said, “I love you, and I´m going to love this baby, as much as I love you” he promised, “This is a dream” you hugged him again and he kissed the top of your head
“Please don't leave me” you whispered so low you didn't think you hear it, but he did, as he held you tighter
For the sake of both of you. You grabbed his hand and gave him a tour of the house, starting in the open space and then through the hallway leading to the three bedrooms and the bathroom
“I want to turn this into a nursery” you told him with an excited smile, “And I have this guestroom as well” you shared intense looks, “You can stay here, if you want to” you murmured, he smiled widely
“Oh you already say yes” he winked at you, “There is no getting rid of me, trouble”
For the first time in months, you woke up relaxed and well rested, no trace of nausea, and you felt incredibly safe. You got off the bed stretching and jump off to go directly to the kitchen to prepare some breakfast, but then, you giggled at the image you found
“Morning gorgeous” greeted Bucky, and you looked at him amused, as he was moving around in your open kitchen, cooking you breakfast. But what you liked the most, was the apron he was wearing above his pajamas. On the countertop, was a big book open “What to expect when you're expecting” a one you bought and was at a reading table in the living room
“Good morning” your eyes burned with unshed happy tears when he received you with a bowl filled with fresh cutted fruits, a glass filled with juice, and pancakes, “What's all this?” you asked with a shy smile
“You need to have a well balanced breakfast” he told you like it was a scientific fact. Smiling widely you sat at the bar stool in the kitchen. As you looked around the kitchen thinking that something was missing, and it was in fact
“Barnes” you said, with a warning in your voice, “Where is my coffee maker?” you asked him grinding your teeth
“Mmmm” he muttered, raising his shoulders, “Sorry mama, no more caffeine for you until the baby is here, and actually after, if you plan on breastfeeding”
“You bastard,” you muttered. With a wide smile he came to you and grabbed the glass from the counter and offered to you
“Fresh orange juice with a side of mango and peaches instead” he said with a smile so bright, it caught to you as well
“Mango and peaches?” you asked, with a shaky smile, feeling that tingle in your nose you knew all too well. A clear signal that you were about to cry
“Fruits rich in vitamin D, a must have in pregnancy” you couldn't hold it any longer, and tears started falling from your eyes. Embarrassed you covered your face with your hands not wanting to ruin the moment
“Hey sweety, what's going on?” he asked, softly grabbing your wrists to release them from your face. You smiled awkwardly trying to tell him everything was going to be ok
“I'm just...” you tried to explain but failed, “Thank you so much!” you cried. He laughed softly and hugged you tightly against his chest, kissing the top of your head lovingly, “Stupid pregnancy hormones I'm all over the place”
“I told you I'm all in” he said kissing the tip of your nose, “And for the little one”
“Oh, the little one” you said, cradling your belly
“When is the next appointment?” he asked, a glimmer in his eyes that it was hard to ignore
“In a week, I think we will be able to tell if it's a boy or a girl” you said, excited
“Really?” you nodded, as he was as excited as you were, “Can I come with you?” he asked softly, he swallowed a lump in his throat as his eyes were glimmery as yours
“Yes”
“It's so nice to see you again sergeant Barnes” greeted doctor Cho when you both entered, “And how are you two doing?” she asked watching your growing belly
“I'm feeling great” you giggled, “No nausea”
“That is great” she said, taking your file out of a cabinet, “I still want to take some blood samples though”
“Why?” asked Bucky, surprised, you both looked at him
“Well… “ started doctor Cho, looking at you, “Since the father is a Super Soldier, we have to be mindful of what that could mean for the baby” panic rose to Bucky's eyes as he looked at you
“Is everything ok?” he asked, you took his hand in between yours to calm him down
“It is” you said, “I feel great”
“Well, it is for now,” she warned. “We don't have any records of this ever happening, so we don't know” you lowered your head, she was being realistic, and you were being hopeful, “Let's see the little one shall we?”
Bucky helped you get on the stretcher, and he wouldn't let go of your hand, as Doctor Cho gently lifted up your shirt and poured the cold gel in your belly. she pressed the wand, and started moving it around. Immediately you saw it in the screen
“Is everything ok?” Bucky asked, you couldn´t miss his excited face, as he looked into the screen
“She is cozy and save in there” doctor Cho chanted
