#missinghavingmydaddy

[vixxenswtchbtch]

Need some advice

I'm starting to really struggle without having a Daddy. I talked to him for the first time since I broke up with him last week. It didn't help make things easier but it didn't make things harder either. The Dom I'd been seeing, I'm pretty sure that's over now. I feel like I'm just in a permanent holding pattern. I feel lonely and I'm not sure what to do. There are days when I don't have any contact with anyone. My best friend is too busy lately to spend time with me. Some days I only talk to my pupper and my hamster. Any advice?

[vixxenswtchbtch]

Just a rant

I'm starting to think that it's near impossible for me to find a Daddy that is worthy of the title. I know you don't just trip and stumble across the world's best Daddy, but damn if it doesn't feel like it's an impossible thing. I know before I can find a new Daddy I need to be 100% good myself. I know I'm not, I'm in a better place than I was a year ago but I'm no where close to 100%. I still look in the mirror and see someone who is broken and missing way too many pieces yet.

I'm not looking for pity. I just need to rant after I had the realization that I asked my Babe for more and I'm not even ready for more. I'm done. Thanks for listening or ignoring or whatever.