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Worst part is, you really seem to enjoy life without me

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You are here, but it doesn’t feel the same anymore.. Is this what becomes of us?

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Things to ponder..

Sometimes I wonder, is it true love or I'm just making it seem like it is?

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Month 4, week 1

This was the happiest weekend since you've left. Knowing your fine was one thing but being able to see your face and hear your voice saying my name and saying how much I mean to you was another thing. The feeling was just like how we first started being together. Maybe that's why when the weekend ended I was emotional. But thankful that it was not as bad as when you left. I just can't wait for the time when I'll be seeing you again. Few more weeks to go.

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Month 3, day 21

Special days have turned into ordinary days.

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Month 2, Day 11

"Nananaginip ka lang" I never thought I would be this emotional after hearing your voice again. Napasulat nanaman nga ako oh. Grabe. All these weeks of getting used to the habit of emails and chats. Today, I got the chance of hearing your voice. It was so surreal. Parang kapag nananaginip ako na umiihi pero hindi pala. Ganon. It felt like we were just talking how our day went when you were still here. It was just like the old times. How you listen to me babble about anything my mind could think of. I felt home again. But just like you said, I was just dreaming. We were just dreaming. In an instant, we were miles and hours apart again. And we would have to wait again for that dream to become reality.

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Month 1, Day 8.

Sometimes I wonder, does he really miss me as much as I miss him? Does he read our old conversations as often as I do? Does he look at our pictures every time it crosses his mind as much as I do? Does he really think of me everytime he's at work? I don't know, it's selfish of me to think this way but, I wonder. Does he feel the same pain I'm feeling whenever I miss him? Or does he feel more than that. Or less? Too much thinking. No wonder my pimples are acting up terribly.

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Day 25

From my last break down up until now, I had an answered prayer. I woke up and got dressed, went to school and was surprisingly focused and doing fine. Each day was the same cycle. At the end of my class this thought came in to mind, "Ang bagal ng araw, tagal pa ng 10 months." With each day, I would constantly receive an email from him. But each passing day, the emails got shorter. Last weekend, we had a chance to have a chat which felt like he was here. And which I am thankful for. A number of weeks to go.... Endure more little one.