I am bad with words and expressing emotions
Idk if I should speak on, the horrors behind the scenes (iykyk) However. Thank you to both Skins and Noble for showing me that.. people still care. Not just for myself, but for some of my dear friends who were also hiding in a hole. cuz y'know.. running away and hiding and dropping everything cuz you were led to believe you were some Scary TriggerPhrase Monster for 2-3 years just like.. does something to a person There is obviously nuance to it... layers.. onion etc. But. Thank you for still! Noticing me (?) perceiving me.. following me... Still caring and wondering if I'm alright etc.. I don't like being in a hole. I miss being... a PokeAsk person and not just.. Local Guy who posts and walks away. I miss things. I miss people. I miss being part of a community in spirit. Sure I existed and was standing there but like idk.. I miss.. being connected to people and not constantly being on edge or afraid to interact because "what if this person thinks im a monster too" etc.. Even knowing now that all of that was just... lies. I'm still standing here staring at charred remains like.. haha yay.. it.. wasn't real.. so glad this happened.. so glad I ran away because of lies and misinformation yay <3 I don't think/know if I'll ever get back to how things were before The Mess started or if I could ever come close but.
Thank ya'll for caring. For sending me well wishes. For being so welcoming and worrying about me despite the fact that I've been living in a hole for several years.






