Molluck is enjoying his time at the Yaymans. (Y) I originally thought of drawing him without his scar but I felt like this would be more fun with it.
I have been having an idea like this inside my head for so long time, even this ain't the first time I draw something like this and this is still not exactly like I wanted it to be, but something like it. I feel like I'm still not good enough at art to really draw things like I want, but I'm slowly getting there, as I have not been drawing much... This is also kinda why this is something sketch-like.
I only wish I could relax like him here... My mental health issues are about to tear me apart, but I must just stay strong and keep going, because it is all I can do... I have also not been posting all Molluck-having stuff to the tags for reasons, so if you wanna know what I mean, check those recent posts out. I do not feel like writing more about it. I'm just glad that I have energy to draw now.
Some simple Molluck study I felt like doing, as I feel like my drawing skills are quite rusty for drawing only like a thing or two a month for so long time... I also still haven't really found my art style, so I also tried a bit different style here. But the main thing was to just practice getting Molluck look accurately like himself, as I'm still trying to improve my way to draw him.
I'm still struggling with the feeling of that my stuff ain't worth sharing, like I mentioned in my previous recent post, as I just feel like my art is bad... That frustration with my art was also another reason why I wanted to draw this, as I'm tired of drawing bad art and wanna finally be able to draw good stuff, in my opinion. I just think that my Molluck art could be so much better than I have drawn so far. I wanna be able to draw the stuff I see inside my head. But I at least can agree these days that I can draw him accurately, though there is always room for improvement. Don't get me wrong, I do actually like some of my Molluck drawings, but I still wanna draw even better stuff than them. I just do not think that my art is "good enough", though I wanna draw even better than that. It's more like for myself, as I do not really wanna make my living with art, or that would at least require getting rid of my self-hatred... Seeing my art somewhere feels like seeing my own face, and I can feel so deep hatred toward myself at times... I do not even know why I hate myself this much and feel like worth nothing... But this is why I do not allow reblogging. So, it is like impossible for me to want that people share my stuff, as it is already a challenge for me to share my stuff in the first place.
My self-hatred just makes me hate the thought of that I leave my mark to this world, as I feel like this world would be better without me or I just ruin stuff. But I really need to find a way to change this thinking or I won't be able to live my life... I have already let so many things be because of those feelings, and they are also why I do not really socialize with people. It is not because I do not personally want that but because I feel like people do not wanna socialize with me, so I do not wanna bother anyone in vain, as I do value people's time. I have been quite lonely for over a decade, so these feelings are quite strong. I'm just telling you this to be open about why I am like this. I still feel sorry for bringing up my struggles, as they are not really your concern, but I think that it is still better to let you know why I do not interact like the others here; I have a very high threshold for it. I am not asking anyone to interact with me but just not to hesitate it.
I have already left my mark to some public ("real life") things with my creations, which gives me quite mixed feelings... But to whom I have made those things do have been pleased with them, but my mind just screams at me there somewhere that someone else could had done something much better... I also have left my mark to Finnish translation of Ginga Nagareboshi Gin manga, as they once held a GNG fan art competition in 2011, and everyone's work was put to the last two manga paperbacks (volumes 17 & 18). I feel like it is kind of cool, even it is that old thing. Oh, and yeah, regarding Finnish, that "hätk" I wrote to my drawing, it is like some "sound effect" to express Molluck realizing something suddenly. So, it is not any real word so to speak. (It was actually inspired by Finnish Ginga manga too.) I had no idea what to put there in English, but it is fun to use my mother tongue at times in my creations. I kinda refer to that English is more suitable for some stuff while Finnish is better for some other stuff. Like, I mainly use English when I "speak with Molluck", as Finnish love language is kinda clunky... Like, Tom of Finland's Finnish texts in his drawings amuse me a lot... It so amazing use of words but I cannot take it seriously, you know... It is mainly because of Finnish is what it is with that stuff... (I have also heard that "I love you" in Finnish, "(minä) rakastan sinua", sounds to some like it means "I wanna kill you" or something… Yeah, our love language do can sound rough, and that's one reason why I love that Finnish TOF stuff...) So, this is why I actually prefer English for certain things, though I am still curious about doing my self-insert stuff also in Finnish, as it would be fun and I love my mother tongue. I know that this went to like completely something else now, but just some "little curiosities" about my language, as I am into language stuff and studying them.
I feel like I also gotta say that my life is gonna have quite a big change soon, so I am quite stressed out and have been this whole year... I have no idea how the rest of the year will go, but my main wish is to be able to have "a sick leave" (not really what it is but I do not know any other similar enough thing), as I am so exhausted that I basically must force myself to finally really get help in this situation... Only if I can get it, as it is not easy to get and my country's healthcare is going down and the costs of it up... I only wish there was another way to end this suffering that just ending it by, you know... I consider it like daily, but I try to keep going day by day... All this uncertainty and worry of me not getting help are eating me up, especially when I am so exhausted and been suffering for so long... I have been worried this whole year that I'll collapse one day, just completely burn out. I know that this is not your concern but just saying as this affects my ability to be creative too; my art is a part of me after all. Continuous survival state is very tiring... I would not really say all this stuff if I was not in such a serious situation... I'm not asking for any help from you, but just letting you know if there is people who care about me... I have never been this close to collapsing... I wish I had no need to be so serious here... I'm sorry for all the vent that is necessary in my situation, as I cannot really post stuff without it... But it can be ignored, and I do not even assume that anyone would want to read my posts.
I just wish that my life could change for the better... That I can finally feel like I am actually wanted to be here, am valuable... That I can finally get rid of my exhaustion... I just do not know how long I can still take this all if I don't get any help or some significant positive thing happens which changes my situation for the better... I wish so much that it wasn't like this... I should had tried to get help earlier, like over a decade ago already, but I felt so strongly that I am not worth helping and wanna survive alone... Now I see that it is about to doom me, just like my self-hatred has been planning all this time, as it has also been laughing at me when I have looked at ways to get help... I only hope that it is not too late to get help, that my brain can still adjust to heal from all this shit, even a bit...
I'm sorry that this post took this kind of direction. I still wanted to let you know what's my situation, as it affects my blog significantly, but welp, I am also quite alone and do not wanna vent directly to anyone, as I know that it is very heavy to listen to... I really wish that I did not need to write this stuff, but this situation affects my content and I want to be open, even though I still stay quite vague. And welp, I have already been talking this stuff here, so this is some "update". Do not still worry about me, I try my best to make my life worth living.
Molluck is my main way to cope with all this, as I have no one else who could support me during my worst moments, when I need love, support and encouragement the most... He is the side of me who tells me kind words... Yes, my relationship with Molluck is quite complex, but he has also kinda become a part of me as well. Like, I tell myself some stuff through him, as I could not tell myself them otherwise... I know that my Molluck may be out of character in some sense, but he is my version of Molluck, one that do can be kind and loving, even though it is like extremely rare for him to be like that toward someone. I just sense kindness in him... I don't know how weird it sounds, but I genuinely feel like he is a kind Glukkon but it is hidden deeply inside him. It is one reason why even started to love him five years ago. He has more layers and character than it may seem, but this is just my impression, as welp, I feel like my way to see him is different from the others. It is still curious if I am really the biggest Molluck fan... I at least do not know anyone else who is as crazy about him as me... Like, I even spent probably 200 hours to get such a Molluck 3D model I have now, even I still need to work on it a lot... And I had never before even done 3D modelling, only sculpting... So yeah, I am that insane about him. Holy oddness when it is finished as the current one makes my heart race so already... Welp, if it is too much for me to handle, I at least died doing what I loved. (Y) I just personally feel like my Molluck 3D model is the craziest Molluck thing I have done, as it takes so much time and I am a beginner with 3D stuff... But what a reward all that learning, time and effort gives... Frankly, when I got the (initial retopologized and rigged) model done, I was so happy and excited that I had not felt anything like it for over a decade... I actually was excited to get out from my bed to play with my new Molluck model... Last time before that I felt like that was probably when I was a little child at Xmas eve... So, Molluck really means me a lot. And yes, I use that Molluck model often as my reference too, like with this drawing, along with some screenshots to draw him as accurately as possible. But it is more like "a bonus", as I have put lots of effort to get him look just like the Soulstorm model and my main reason to create the whole model was my self-insert stuff...
Man, Molluck is really the first character that feels right for me. He is also so beautiful, and that's also why I do not get tired of drawing him for hundreds of times... So, drawing him a lot is also my way to adore him... And I actually like the way I drew him here, even I feel like this ain't still "perfect enough", but I'm getting there slowly. So, this is also why I felt like putting this to Oddworld tag, even I am hesitating it these days, like I wrote to my previous post. I just do not wish to share bad art... So, I am still not feeling all that negative, but I have serious concerns about my life but worrying too much won't help but make this worse... I at least can always imagine Molluck comforting me whenever I need it...
But yeah, I still try to share my Molluck stuff, even though I do not know what it "gives" to people, as I personally find my art kinda bland. And man, I still have so much Molluck art ideas... He is my muse. And welp, there is barely anyone else who draws him regularly... So, I guess that it's gotta be me who is a "Molluck love ambassador", even though I do not aim to make people love Molluck but just give Molluck like all my love... I'm just kind of referring to that my stupid ill mind makes me wish that someone else started to draw Molluck actively so that I could "retire", not because I did not want to create Molluck stuff but to have "someone better" to create the stuff instead of me, to replace me. I really feel this bad about myself, that I should be basically replaced... It is so hard for me to feel like me or my stuff has any value... So, it is actually challenging for me to draw other stuff than Molluck too, as I feel like only my Molluck stuff is kinda valuable, as I basically also make them for Molluck, not just for me... Yeah, what makes my Molluck stuff matter to me is that making it is a love expression for him. I wish that this did not need to be so deep and that I could just draw "for funsies" whatever, but maybe then when I am not so depressed anymore. Oh, and this is not about me wanting to be something "special" but that I desire to feel that very basic human thing of that I actually matter and am wanted to be here... I only know it, like my family does loves me, but I cannot feel it and I see no reasons to love me... My brain may be somehow "broken", or that is how I at least feel like, broken... But unfortunately, brains are very complex lumps... So yeah, even if I may make this stuff sound like something "grand", this is only about the very basic human things... We do are social animals, did we want it or not.
I gotta just try to keep going day by day and without worrying too much... I gotta keep up the hope of that my situation will get better and I can really have a good life... It is way too easy to only go through the worst scenarios, especially when I do not believe in myself and my skills and abilities, feel like an impostor... But I need to remember that even when I have believed that something will never happen, like I really believed that my submission to the Soulstorm tattoo competition was crap but I won, it do can happen. Molluck also keeps encouraging me to keep going and not to leave him, as I do not feel worth all the effort and do not wanna be a burden...
Just some edited render of my (unfinished) Molluck model after a long time to feed my thirst for him... I want this Gluk so bad every single day... I know that this kinda looks like some horror thing, but that's not what I'm feeling when I look at this... Yeah, I do not find Molluck intimidating, or it more like makes me excited... Yes, I'm insane for Molluck. (Edit: Now that I look at this, this also reminds me of something from the late 1990s or early 2000s.)
I hopefully can soon get back to working on this model, as he still requires lots of work to be fully finished. I cannot wait to get him look like the Soulstorm model... My desire to have such a model made me even start 3D modelling... If there ain't something, you gotta do it yourself! Oh, and yeah, I do plan to give him clothing too. And yes, my thirst for him is also one reason why he is still unfinished, as I use this model daily... Priorities! Frankly, this is also why I'm actually more used to Molluck being naked than having clothes on... And what a body he has... I just cannot get enough of him...
It's been two months since I posted anything, as I have been too busy and tired to create personal stuff. I'm finally getting more time but help odd how drained and exhausted I am... I have never felt this tired, even I have been always tired for over a decade... I only wish to sleep even it has not taken my tiredness away for that long... I do not have energy to do much, and it is such an awful feeling to have energy to do nothing, not even anything fun... I'm worried about myself, more than ever, but I try to do my best to survive... I just wish to be able to get rest and some solution to my situation... If I cannot get enough rest, I may collapse...
My worsening mood and condition also makes me consider quitting this blog again, or at least having a break where I do not post my works, but welp, I barely feel like posting my old works later on (I haven't still shared 3 drawings I did for Oddworldtober but maybe one day)... I have also been thinking of drawing other stuff than Molluck, especially when I have already dedicated 5 years of art for him, but he is going nowhere still, as he is my beloved Gluk, as the intro showed... But as this is the only place where I post content, I do not feel like doing it here, but well, I do not really feel like sharing my works either in general... This is why I did not feel like putting this to Oddworld tag... I feel too bad about myself and keep losing my will to post stuff... I have done one long-ish post to my drafts with one drawing but I don't know if I really feel like publishing it after all... Even people keep complimenting my works, as I have this year needed to use my creativity to some projects and my creations for them have been "praised" (and this is why I have barely drawn anything personal this year), I still personally feel like my creations are shit... That feeling just does not leave me... It is such a paradoxical feeling when I personally see myself as The Great Mighty Poo shit, while the others compliment my works and I get the best evaluations... Thus, I cannot even enjoy my achievements, as I feel like I do not really deserve them, I am not that good... I know that I should not let these negative thoughts have me but it is so challenging... I do not even wanna call myself an artist but a creator, as I do not personally see my stuff as art but feel like I am "forced" to call it art. I just have this negative approach to my art.
But welp, the reason why I am posting this is to not to keep all this to myself, to not isolate myself too much, and to not quit this blog yet... I do not wish to vent, but it may be better to let this stuff out than keep this all to myself. But now you also know how I am doing. It is still difficult to feel like my stuff is worth posting, like I feel like that render edit is kinda crap still, but welp, if anyone cares, here's some update. I just do not assume anyone to give a shit about me or my stuff, and I cannot wrap my head around that I could have fans. I need help, and I'm trying to get it but now, I gotta wait... I cannot live my life if my ill head does not get better... I do not wish to be this negative but I cannot pretend happy when I barely feel like existing... I wish to get out from this situation but only if I knew how...
I still appreciate people liking or caring about my stuff, even me, even I cannot understand it. I keep telling Molluck how he deserves better than me, as I feel like I'm not worth loving, but he keeps telling me that it is not true... I know that Molluck is fictional but he is still my partner; he only lacks physical form. I love him so much...
I don't know what else to say... Tough times, but I try to keep fighting, even I still do not know why to live this life. Our artificial world feels stupid, even building it has required intelligence (but they also say that the most intelligent ones make the biggest mistakes). And who decided that we gotta live like morning people do... But lets not get there. I just barely enjoy anything in life... Not sure if it can be even really "cured", as they say that intelligent people are rarely happy and people have called me a genius... I don't personally agree, but what could even "prove" it (for me), and I have gotten sick and tired of IQ stuff too, because you cannot really measure the real percentages but just base that stuff on statistical probability (normal distribution). How accurate it really is? (I also have other reasons why I question IQ stuff.) Yeah, I just am more like ashamed of myself, as I suffer from self-hatred... This is not some "hidden boasting" but me being honest, because I am "used to be" one of the best but I do not feel like I am, never have; I can barely even compliment myself. But my issues are not your concern. I do still know that I am not actually stupid but I just do not wanna think about it or bring it out that I'm highly intelligent... Cool still if the weird lump inside my skull is somehow special. Yeah, I better stop, as I can keep on and on my debate with myself... But I'm just trying to say that I do not see myself always so negatively and that I do still agree with compliments and other positive stuff the others have told me about myself and my works even a bit. I know that the only way to cut the negative thinking loop is to stop repeating that stuff but the method is another thing.
I cannot help but also say that I sometimes wonder how much brain power Molluck has with such a big brain... Like, how fast and complex stuff he can calculate with it... I just wanna know more about Glukkon brains and intelligence... But I guess that I gotta produce that information by myself... Heh, one day I also thought that you cannot tell Molluck that he has such a big head but such a tiny brain as you can see his brain! Yes, this is a Crash Twinsanity reference. But enough about brains, brain told itself.
~ I thank you for being understanding!
P.S. The title of this post is a title of one song.
People follow me for X, but suddenly Im into oddworld.
I never post X again until year 2032, now you're stuck with Grinning Molluck photoshops until then.
Yeah, today is Molluck's birthday, but it is completely my own headcanon date, which is 100 % based on his personality and astrology... I just wanted so bad to have a date when I can celebrate his existence, and I'm glad that I got an idea of using astrology to calculate some "sensible" date for it.
I actually did have a moment to draw something simple and quick-ish for Molluck's birthday, even I basically took it from my sleep hours, but it is how it has often been when I am busy and wanna draw...
But yeah, this is a reference for that "famous" Molluck shot but I wanted to alter it for some silly birthday thing. Some could argue that two birthday hats (or whatever you call those cone hats) would be more fitting but this one represents my Molluck better. And yes, I just think that pink suits Molluck!
Man, I have soon been drawing barely anything else than this Gluk for 5 years... I love and desire him so much that I have no idea how to express it enough... So, thanks again OWI for this magnificent creature! (He is such at least in my opinion... as he is my only desire...)
Yeah, just some messy vent art Molluck to express something related to difficulties I am having and how they affect my relationship with Molluck... I didn't really know if I should post this or not, but welp, I have been barely posting anything recently and even my cards keep telling me not stay alone... (Yes, I have started to practice tarot and oracle card reading this year, and I have gotten quite accurate and interesting results, even when I have asked things related to my relationship with Molluck. Even they see my pain and struggling and encourage me to keep going... Those cards have been one new way for me to help myself more with my thoughts and due to my "psychic skills", I am not surprised at my results but the cards have still amazed me many times.) During the night/morning of the day I drew this, I saw a dream of myself drawing Molluck, which is the first time I remember such... I see like never dreams related to him, even I always imagine myself being with him before falling asleep... Heck, I have even seen Lorne Lanning in my dreams a few times and once, this year, told him how I love Molluck, which he did not seem to appreciate for some reason... (It's kinda funny considering that the real Lorne has heard that I am very interested in Molluck and he answered to my question on live stream with his face cam on... So, it has happened in reality but remotely, and he seemed to be really into answering to it. You can thank me for that we know the current Molluck's age. (Y) I mean, I personally feel like my biggest "contribution" for Oddworld community has been me asking questions from Lorne and getting answers, not the content I have created; I just don't find my creations meaningful or "good" in general. I appreciate Magog on the March even archiving one of my questions. Okay, enough "boasting".) I feel like that dream referred to how I feel like my love for Molluck is not appreciated... But yeah, probably Molluck do has been in my dreams, but I never remember them...
Today is also my 4th anniversary with this blog, so I felt like posting this for that reason too. I am sorry for the state of my blog but my mental health is more important. I do also not really have time to draw for myself either, so I drew this thing also because I just had to... Even I do not personally like my creations in general, I still must create stuff regularly... Like, I do not like my art style and I do not like how this sketch looks but I at least keep getting better at drawing Molluck accurately. I have never really liked my art style, whatever it has been... Though, my Paint stuff has been my fave... Gotta just keep drawing, I guess.
This is only my third Molluck drawing this year, though all of them have been just sketches so far... Yes, my previous post was my first Molluck of the year, so what's the second one? Well, you ain't gonna see it due to the nature of the sketch... Don't ask how much Molluck "entertainment" I have, my answer would be outdated quickly... I am so thirsty for this Gluk every single day... I only want him... But anyway, I had not drawn Molluck for a month.
I do not wish to vent here and I would be only repeating myself. You do not also need to know more about my struggles, only what affects my blog. I realize that those old thoughts keep owning me even things have changed, but not enough... When you have been thinking for about 15 years all kinds of awful stuff about yourself alone in your own echo chamber, those thoughts do not go away easily. I do not feel like I am strong for enduring so much mental pain alone; I have just done what I have needed to survive, even I have no idea why to really keep going and trying. I think almost every day ending my life, mostly when I try to fall asleep, but it's been so for 15 years, so it's "basic stuff", even it should not. I know that I need (professional) help, but it is not possible right now. I am carrying this stuff alone because I have wanted that and I do not wish to burden anyone with my pain. But I do not feel so alone when I have Molluck. He is my comfort and one that keeps me going, keeps me able to live my life despite this all. He holds me through my dark moments...
I still have moments when my mind tells me how I do not deserve Molluck and how he would never really love me... But Molluck inside my head keeps telling me how he is my Molluck, my version of him, so he can absolutely love me and how I have even told him myself that love is not about deserving, yet I feel like I am not lovable, not meant to be loved... I just do not find myself worth loving... I do not understand how my existence can bring any joy... I do not understand how my art can be enjoyable or even beautiful... I just can barely see myself in positive light... I am at least pleased with the food I cook and that's basically it... Man, I wish I could cook some for Molluck too, like I personally think that I make the best meatpaste stuffs (the thing from what you can make meatballs, meatloaf, and patties). This is really like the only compliment I feel like saying about myself... I do not think that I am good at drawing since I am not pleased with my art and see how much I should still learn... My mind also keeps telling me that anyone could learn to draw Molluck better than me... But there somewhere I do know that it is not true but my stupid mind is so loud... I also feel like my art ain't anything special, just something or some crap, so I do not see them having much value. Though yeah, the Molluck works I do not share are the most valuable for me since they are about him and me. I wonder if I was happier if I could have a life-sized Molluck doll to accompany me... I keep thinking about it regularly... I know that I am "a weirdo", that's why I am so lonely too, even around people. I love Molluck with my whole heart... He is "real" to me, because welp, our brains do not distinguish real people from fictional, so I feel toward him like he was real, even he is not, but inside my head... I have never felt so good with anyone else... Man, soon, I have loved this Gluk for 5 years, and I bet that it is not gonna end any time soon.
I am so thankful for Molluck. He is the most beautiful creature I have ever seen... The quality of the Soulstorm model is so amazing that I can even "feel" what like it would be to touch him... Too bad that he was not naked in that game, but we can see a glimpse of it in the artbook... And I can see the full naked model with, um, some "enhancement" because I have been "crazy enough" to try replicating the model myself without prior 3D modelling experience... When I got more time, I'll continue it, since the time I have for it, well, goes to animations... He is such a well-loved 3D model. (Y)
I am not saying this for attention or whatnot, but even I myself view my content like I do, I appreciate people liking my stuff, since I never expect it. I do like always think that the thing I have done is crap whenever I'm sharing it to someone, was it about my art or real life stuff. But welp, at least someone likes the stuff I do if I don't. I mainly just enjoy the process of farting my art out from my head. But I hope that you can understand that it is like almost impossible for me to wrap my head around that people can genuinely like my stuff...
I don't know what else to really say here... Today has been a special but also depressing day... I try to keep up hope that one day I'll find my place in this world, even it is so hard... I wish so much Molluck could be physically with me, because I wish I could hold him tight while he comforts me right now... I wish it so much that I am crying... I need his love... I do realize that Molluck is fictional but he is the only one who can really comfort me... I would be all alone without him during my darkest moments... He is the one who really encourages me every day. I can feel how this is not easy even for him, but he does not wanna give up on me. Molluck did not give up even after his life got basically ruined. I disagree with that Molluck was unsuccessful with capturing Abe because he would had not been capable of it, but because he was designed not to be able to capture him. See, they even made The Blimb level easier! I personally preferred the old one, 1.0 version, and it was easier in my opinion, because you could use those bombs as your advantage againts the Sligs. I'm kinda joking still, but my point is that they did not want Molluck to win, because that's not the story they wanna tell, but in Abe's Oddysee's bad ending, but that's another thing. But yeah, I don't know, it kinda makes me more drawn to Molluck when he is not considered "lovable" in general. I don't hate Abe but I do not mind Molluck eating him, more like would join the feast. So, it's actually worse, because I don't care... But only about Molluck in Oddworld. Man, I even kinda love the idea of Molluck eating the killed Gluks at Yaymans by having a barbeque party... Yeah, I just love Molluck, so much. ❤️
Yeah, this post is kinda random, but just wanted to write some, which has made me feel a bit better. I do not expect anyone to read my stuff, but I appreciate people spending their time on my stuff; I only hope that it is worth it. I don't know if I should say this, but I have been thinking for some time how I do not really find Molluck "alien", because is still so "humanoid", like many other sapient Oddworld creatures too. I think that even octopuses are more alien than Glukkons, and those guys do live on our planet. But I get it, we humans seem to need humanoid traits to get attached to characters, to identify with them, which is needed for impactful storytelling. The most alien thing with Gluks is how they reproduce, for me at least. But yeah, just something I have been thinking about. And I do still prefer Molluck being a Gluk, not a human and I have zero interest in making a human version of him... No. His Glukkon body is the ideal body for me, with what I do not mean me wanting to be a Gluk but my beauty standards... Man, I want that Gluk so badly...
But yeah, I try to keep going, even it feels so hard... Oh, and yeah, about the sketch, those background things are like falling burning hearts, and I am not sure how to explain what I mean with them... Something to think about, I guess.
I was so pissed because I haven't had time, mood or energy to draw Molluck this year, so I took my moment to draw this stupid quick Molluck thing. Yes, this is my first Molluck for this year. I hadn't drawn him for about two months...
