Upside Down (part 5)
Intro: We are getting there folks - ALMOST THERE. The last part, this part, and the next part are my favourite, I think. So I hope you enjoy (mua ha ha)
Notes on this part: GET IT TOGETHER
Pairing: Scotty x reader (and best friend!Jim Kirk)
Word Count: 902
Warnings: totally 100% fake engineering everything, (I was too lazy to actually come up with proper terms so I just made up words), eventual injury, swears.
Summary: The starting point for this fic was Scotty x reader who loves engineering as much as he does. So that’s where I went with this fic. You are second-in-command engineer and Scotty one day ends up being in charge, much to your chagrin. You butt heads. Scotty gets hurt. Feelings get hurt (mostly my own). Welcome to my trashcan.
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-Enjoy!-
It had been two weeks since the crash, and Scotty hadn't come to see you, and you hadn't gone to see him since you told him about the letter. He was finally released from the medbay, but not cleared to work yet, that started tomorrow, so you thought you'd best find him before you had your first shift together.
You found him heading into his quarters.
“Hey.” You said, your hands nearly shaking from nervousness as you wrung them, “Can we talk?”
Scotty pursed his lips, his eyes meeting yours fleetingly before gesturing you to go into his quarters. When the door slid closed behind you, you almost stopped breathing, and you turned slowly to face him.
"Listen, Scotty..." You started, having practiced the speech that you would give him over and over the past two weeks.
"No, you listen." He interrupted, his eyes boring into yours, "You were never supposed to see that letter."
"I know..."
"Lassie, will ye shut up for a minute, I'm tryna tell you something important." Scotty snapped and you gulped, staying silent so he could continue.
"From day one you have been nothin’ but a pain in my hide, a misplaced cog in a sea of gears, a nuisance t’say the least. But after the first time you nearly tore my head off over the tiniest string of programming, I knew you were something special. And then I was done for, lass. I wrote that letter because I couldn't keep all my feelings inside, I needed to get them out, and maybe then I could go back to hating you, but I never stood a chance, ya see. I never stood a chance because every time you waltzed through those doors, with your big brain and... and that look of determination on your face, every time you looked at me, I fell further.”
He took a breath, you had stopped breathing.
“And then I go and get hurt and who is at my bedside? You. So you cannae blame me if I thought for a wee second that you might actually may have returned those feelings. I poured my heart into that letter and you basically told me it meant nothing t’you. What am I suppos’ to think abou' that?" Scotty's tone was a mix of frustration and desperation, and his eyes raked your face as if searching for something.
"You're supposed to think I'm an idiot." You blurted, and his mouth pressed into a tight line, his eyes falling to the floor.
"Which I'm pretty sure you do. And I'm pretty sure I am. But you have to know why I reacted the way I did because I can't stand the thought of you hating me, Scotty. I just can't." You shook your head, emotions flying through you at the speed of light, barely controllable.
"Nobody has ever said anything like that about me before. And it scared the hell out of me, Scotty. The things you wrote... I-I never thought anyone would ever write such beautiful words about me. Especially not you."
You paused, wringing your hands in front of you tightly, your eyes now falling away from him.
"I tried to force myself to hate you, tried to tell myself that you were just something in the way of me becoming chief of engineering one day. Because that would have been easier than feeling the way I do about you."
Scotty's eyes flicked up and you met his gaze, his mouth fell open, "And how's tha-"
"You almost died." You looked at him desperately now, tears perched on your lids, and you wanted to reach for him so bad, but you were still scared.
"You almost died and I thought my heart was going to grind to a halt like a C3 engine with no pipe oil. And that's when I realized how I felt. That's when I realized I wanted you looking over my shoulder and criticizing every thing I do, I wanted to hear your insane yelling when something wasn't working like we wanted it. We should be a team. We are the exact same, you and I. We should be inseparable. And I'm sorry it took me so long to figure that out, but here I am, now, all figured out."
You shrugged your shoulders, your hands tucked into your pockets, feeling like he could see each and every emotion written on your skin, like it was that easy to express all the things you wanted to. You were surprised to find a look of confusion on his face.
His brows furrowed more than you'd ever seen them furrow, and his gaze was hard, distant, "I need some time to think." The words fell out of his mouth and suddenly you were staring at his back.
"Scotty, wait..."
And he was gone.
-Thanks for reading! I hope you liked it!-
P.S. I know I’m a tease mua ha ha
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