hello! i just want to say i absolutely love your writing, especially 'to the me in your memory' 🥰 i'm on to reading your other fics :3
for the spotify wrapped writing challenge, can i request no. 23 for mydei x phainon? (no pressure ofc and hope you have fun with it!)
Thank you so much!!! 🥹 I'm especially honored to hear it for that fic in particular. And I remember your comment from that fic 💜 it was so sweet. I was extremely extremely honored to hear I was able to introduce you to their canon dynamic!!
no. 23 is Run for the Hills by Tate Mcrae. It's quite the toxic relationship song. It's a little spicy, this one. I hope it's up to par! 🥺
His back hits the bed with a hard thud, the impact leaving him breathless. Mydei looms over him, knees bracketing his hips, a hand over his chest pressing him down. His expression is cold—empty in a way that makes Phainon shrivel.
“Mydei—” He crushes their lips, biting at Phainon’s lips and prying his mouth open—kissing him like he’s trying to devour him. Phainon’s head spins, hands scrabbling against Mydei’s chest.
Mydei pulls back, eyeing him like he’s a piece of meat—and Phainon burns.
“We should talk about this—” Mydei wraps a hand around his throat, and Phainon cuts himself off immediately, heart rabbit quick in his chest, skin tingling in a terrible mix of panic and desire.
“Do you not want this?” Mydei asks, voice husky and low enough that it seems to rumble through his spine. He makes a small breathy noise, squirming in place and painfully affected. Despite Mydei’s words, there is not a single bit of emotion in his expression.
“You’re angry,” he says weakly, stupidly aware of the way Mydei trails a hand down his chest. “You’re angry at me.”
Mydei hums, hiking his shirt up. His hand tightens around Phainon’s neck in a way that makes his throat flutter and his gut twist.
“I’m not angry,” Mydei says without inflection, pinching Phainon’s nipple hard enough to make him gasp. “A quick fuck, right? That’s what you wanted?”
He shakes his head profusely, grabbing Mydei’s shoulders, panting like he can’t get enough air. A few touches and he already feels overwhelmed—done in by anything Mydei does. Mydei narrows his eyes, a scowl twisting on his lips that makes Phainon feel small and dizzy.
And then, his touch disappears completely. He moves out of Phainon’s line of sight.
Phainon stiffens, shudders, and waits—hearing Mydei slip off the bed. Confusion digs into his chest like a knife, aching and abandoned. He sits up, watching Mydei walk away.
“Mydei?” he calls out, hands gripping the blanket underneath him—unmoored. “Where are you going?”
Mydei opens the door and glances back, eyes pinning Phainon in place. His chest squeezes tight enough to suffocate.
“Our relationship is only sexual,” Mydei intones, raising his brow. “You said it yourself.”
I love your ace Alhaitham and Kaveh fics so much!! 😸
Since you also write for HSR, do you think you might ever do a ace/QPR Dr. Ratio and Aventurine fic at some point? 💖
Awww thank you so much!! 🥹 I’m extremely extremely honored to hear it!! 💜
To be honest, me writing for HSR/Mydei and Phainon is a very special case because I don’t seriously play the game. I watched all of the Amphoreus quests via a stream, and I watched a few recap videos on Penacony (and loved it!), but I just don’t know Dr. Ratio and Aventurine well enough to feel I could write something compelling for them 🥹 It takes a while for me to be compelled enough into a ship to write them, and I just haven’t seen Ratio or Aventurine interact in canon to know their general dynamic.
Also to be entirely honest, I never wrote any of my fics for Alhaitham and Kaveh with the intention of them being ace or QPR haha 💜 but maybe it’s a sign!
Anonymous Moos asked: Is there any phaidei fic you're currently reading or read recently that you would recommend right now?
Ooo hmmm…. I have most of my bookmarks public so anything I bookmark is something I liked reading and would want to reread (make sure to check the tags though!!! I am not a fixed shipper in the slightest) Recently… I’ve read Aerynn and Salmonellagogo’s “paint the sun back into your sky” which I would recommend! Currently I’m reading “Blood of life” by Purplie. Both of these fics are ongoing and Purplie’s will have Myphai top/bottom positions. In terms of finished fics I’ve read recently… hm, to be honest, I haven’t been reading fics much as of late 🥹 Usually if I’m writing something big, I’ll fixate on the writing. And I can get really picky about fics too, so honestly my bookmarks are the best bet—even if a lot of the fics I have bookmarked aren’t ones I’ve read recently. Sorry for the unsatisfactory answer! [Smile or comment on the answer here](https://alterspring.org/@Intenselyreadin/a/116967645795398942)
Anonymous Moos asked: Ehehehe the alpha/alpha fic was so cute. I'm excited for whatever you have planned next
To be honest anon…. Enough people have asked for a side story to a/a fic that I have one in the works! I don’t really do sequels but this one, I think more can be done with Audata and Phainon’s relationship, and Audata and Mydei’s relationship. I have the vague ideas of a plan, but it’ll hopeful be a lot fluffier than the initial story (hopefully. Augh.) Besides that though, I have a few canon-setting ideas. One with Anaxa and jealous Phainon. One with jealous Mydei (I miss writing in his POV and desperately want to put him through some serious blending). And… I’m sure you’ll be happy to hear this, I have a smut bug in me. I really have an urging to write smut. But that probably won’t get posted. 🙂↕️ [Smile or comment on the answer here](https://alterspring.org/@Intenselyreadin/a/116966617681288387)
I just read Shattered Glass StatuesAnd I really liked it, so I’m following you ♥️
(I don’t have an account so think of this extra kudos)
Oh my god thank you so much!! 🥹🥹 it was a very rough story to write to be honest, but I’m extremely extremely honored to hear you enjoyed it so much!! Thank you 🥹💜
sometimes I reread "to the me in your memory" solely to tell myself "if these guys can get phds I can make it through a masters degree" to motivate myself to study. thank you 🙏
Oh my god thank you so much anon 🥺🥺🥺 to be quite honest, I was in the process of preparing for Ph.D. applications while writing this story. Honestly really happy to hear that story has motivated another person in their graduate studies!! 🙌🙌
From this post! And thank you for the well-wishes 🥹🥹 my workload has died down so hopefully I can make good on some writing promises!! 💜
6. I love listening to music while writing (but I can write in silence). I have this long playlist of songs (about 300+ songs) that I loop when I work and when I write. In the past, if I got really inspired, I’d make playlists for the stories.
I have one for my Haikavetham Hanahaki story, and for the Me Before You AU. Recently, for any of my Myphaidei stories, I haven’t had the urge to. But that’s because I’m looping Epic: The Musical most of the time 💜
7. To be honest, my most proudest fic changes all the time. Usually it’s one of my more recent fics (currently, I’d say my proudest fic is “to the me in your memory”) but that’s usually because of recency bias lol. Plus, it feels odd comparing the stories I write sometimes because they end up challenging different parts of my writing so it feels like comparing apples and oranges.
So, for a more complete answer, my proudest fic plot wise is “Right where We left Us” because of how much research (hours and hours of research) it took.
My proudest fic, emotionally, is “We’ll draw the curtains (and never leave home)” because it was such a heavy fic with so many desperate emotions. It got me tearing up many many times which doesn’t often happen. And I had to take breaks between writing this.
My proudest fic, character-building wise, is probably a tie between “I want you here (I want you, Dear)” and “Honey, you’re familiar (like my mirror years ago)” both because I spent so much time thinking about both character’s progressions and emotional states. How things differed or changed from the past and how they developed into now.
And my proudest fic, technique-wise, is “to the me in your memory” because honestly, that fic is three fics into one fic. And most of my time outlining the fic was simply ensuring the pacing of all three timelines felt justified.
