#more spoons

[louis-wain2electricboogaloo]

You probably forgot about the promised spoon, I did for a while. I did finally make it tho!

One guy suggested it be “very texture”, so I decided to try a plated kinda look. It might not be the wanted amount of “very”, but I thought it would be cool.

[tschounaes]

CGI started two days ago and that’s actually a pile of specially duplicated spoons I created in Maya. Looks like something... I think.

Oh, and there’s this very important banana project I’m working on. It’s very complicated, that’s why I won’t bore you with technical details about the very sensitive dimensions of a banana.

It’s a room and there are lights and and stuff and for some reason there is a hole in the ceiling. Why would anybody but do that? – I don’t know. But the next time I will model an Emmentaler cheese from the very beginning.

[imoutofspoons]

It’s hard being sick when no one believes you’re sick.

But because I have a mental illness and it’s not visible, I’m not sick. So I’m forced to deal with doing things that I do not have enough sooons for. I just need a break. I need to vent. I need someone who understands. I need my husband to understand that I’m not being lazy. I just can’t do some things because of the lack of spoons. And I’m not doing it on purpose. But I am trying to hard and I still feel like I am a failure. As a wife, as a mother, as a person. I am failing, or at least that’s how I feel on the inside. But the outside will never show that. The outside only shows things that people want to see. The good things, as I like to call them. The smiles, happiness and neat thoughts. Better than crying, sadness and scrambled thoughts. The days where I have a higher number of spoons are few and far between. I can only hope to have more of those days.. But such is life and life doesn’t play fair.

[kryssieness]

Did an SCA event yesterday. It was fun, but it was massively overwhelming, which resulted in a lot of pain. I figured, other people with pain issues were doing things, so I should do things, too. Still recovering. ;) But it was a lot of fun.