Life Of A Spoonie

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This just happened.. 😔

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It’s hard being sick when no one believes you’re sick.

But because I have a mental illness and it’s not visible, I’m not sick. So I’m forced to deal with doing things that I do not have enough sooons for. I just need a break. I need to vent. I need someone who understands. I need my husband to understand that I’m not being lazy. I just can’t do some things because of the lack of spoons. And I’m not doing it on purpose. But I am trying to hard and I still feel like I am a failure. As a wife, as a mother, as a person. I am failing, or at least that’s how I feel on the inside. But the outside will never show that. The outside only shows things that people want to see. The good things, as I like to call them. The smiles, happiness and neat thoughts. Better than crying, sadness and scrambled thoughts. The days where I have a higher number of spoons are few and far between. I can only hope to have more of those days.. But such is life and life doesn’t play fair.