2:48 AM, July 14
Jul 14th, 2012 8:01am Oh to be alone in one’s thoughts.
My mind is thinking up scenarios. It’s wandering. This is bad.
Alex is asleep on the couch. Pedro’s playing on the iPad. Shayne just walked back in. Now back to our speed chess game. I’m losing.
But I just won, as surprising as that is.
My mind is still wandering though. Why oh why does it do that? Mind, would you please stop? I know you won’t. But pretty please humor me for a teensy bit?
Now it’s 3:01 AM and we’re on our way home. Don’t want to leave. But I have the zoo tomorrow with Stephanie. I have to rest up for babysitting duty with her.
And if you’re reading this, you douchebag, I AM happy for you. I love you enough to be happy when you get something that you’ve been wanting.
There it goes again. My mind is playing movies again. I see it all. Wow, I never thought seeing him with another girl would bother me so much, especially when it’s only in my own mind.
And Shayne just “effectively” spit on my arm because “he was fucking around in his mouth” and he just asked me if it was big. Fuck you, Shayne. I hate you for that.
Amazing wide roller coaster turn by the way, man. Almost choked me with the seatbelt, but I love you anyway.
Oh wow, this is bad. Both of them now? Lord, I hold that thought captive! Good, I’m free for a while - at least until my mind flits back to that place again.
AAAAND he just spit on me again.
Ugh, he’s so lucky I love him.
I’d also like to thank you, humongous moron that you are, for not being there when I needed you. I needed your help and, while I’m always there for you, you never seem to be there for me. I’m trying really hard not to keep score but it’s hard not to remember that you stay at zero.
Spit at me one more time, Shayne. I swear, I’m going to hit you one of these days, right in the balls.
So, I’m gonna end this now in favor of some social interaction.
Love you, Tumblr. See you soon, I’m sure.
Ended at 3:17 AM. Original Post @ http://musingsdelachiquita.tumblr.com/post/27182217415/2-48-am-june-14
