@more-than-a-princess
Though Shinobu's suspension had been lifted after a week, her father had kept her confined to the estate even in the days that followed, alternating between training and domestic work. In truth, the bruises on her face were likely some sort of blessing - without them, Shinobu imagined it would be even longer before she'd be allowed to return to school. The black ring around her eye and the still-healing cut at her forehead from where Sakakura's knuckles had broken skin provided plausible defenses for her split lip and the bruise at her chin. Meanwhile, the other marks more recently left - the blooming color at her shoulder and the faint bruises at her back - were easily covered by her clothing.
She'd finally be able to return to school the following Monday, which was a welcome development, even if she found the prospect of facing her classmates daunting. Surely even those who had not been in attendance had heard of what happened, and thus, Shinobu wasn't sure what would be more difficult to take - the mocking scorn, or the well-meaning attempts at empathy. Still, it would be nice to be able to see Anzu again. As for Sonia...
Though there had been a few moments during their suspension where Shinobu had considered texting her, they'd elected not to in the end. It was embarrassing, altogether too embarrassing. Undeniably, Shinobu had a temper, and she knew that her violent urges demanded some outlet sooner or later, but was it really not enough to throw some foolish boy looking for a fight against a wall a few times? If she'd have been smarter, she could have followed after Masaru, off-campus, and killed him then. It would likely have been easier, in truth, if she'd just have been able to throw him in front of a train, or push him from a rooftop. Well, that would have been lacking in satisfaction, wouldn't it?
Either way, it was paralyzingly embarrassing to have lose her composure in front of Sonia. Shinobu wanted to see her, of course - wanted to see her even more than she wanted to see Anzu - but the thought of hearing from her lips a measured disapproval made the archer wish to bury herself in a deep dark hole until the flesh rotted off her bones. Even merely looking at Sonia's name in her contact list quickened her heart and echoed her heartbeat between her ears. It was so rare that she had any desire to be around other people. Was it always so painful and anxious, the thought of being disliked or rejected for something?
If she tried to deny that it was a Sonia-specific thought (futile, she knew), Shinobu could try to pretend that it was simply the anxious weakness and failure of social skills that came from nearly two weeks with only her father for company. Surely being out in the world, particularly were she to do something she liked, would present some sort of balm. Though they were merely a husk, not a person in any appreciable sense of the word, it was a normal enough desire to wish to feel human-adjacent before returning to school, so surely there was nothing wrong with taking a day for themselves. Yes, surely a bit of personal indulgence would balance her out - more able to handle it if Sonia, or anyone for that matter, were to treat her in a manner she wished not to be treated upon her return.
And so, on the Sunday before her intended return to school, Shinobu stood on a corner of Jinbocho Book Town, leafing through the shelves on the outside of the unfortunately-named Yaguchi Bookstore. There was a small bag in her hand already, from a brief trip to Komiyama earlier in the afternoon - she'd picked up a signed copy of Satomi Nihongi's photobook documenting gay clubs and trans women in the 1970. After that, she'd stopped into Kitazawa, but been unable to justify spending so much on old, rare books for herself.
Besides, she thought, she'd end the afternoon at Glitch Coffee, and while those exorbitant prices were worth it, she couldn't easily justify expensive books knowing that expensive coffee awaited her. Still, lingering at the shelves outside of Yaguchi Bookstore, Shinobu couldn't help but run her fingers along the spines of a number of books, even going so far as to gently pluck a paperback copy of the 1994 collected release of The Luminous Fairies and Mothra and turn it over in her hands. "Ah... this one is a bit expensive as well," she murmured with a small frown.











