May 20
god truly nerfed me
i've been trying to work on my self regulation but guess what when ur mentally ill and you try to calm yourself it takes !! a lot of effort !!!!! so now i've been. crashing. bad. my mecfs is tweaking the fuck out and crashing. how am i supposed to treat my mental disorders and get better when self regulation and the work needed to put into recovery literally makes me physically ill i hate this
i truly hate having mecfs so bad
it ruins my mental health even more, i can barely distract myself from both the sickness and boredom or do anything for that matter. im so isolated