Trying 2 think about what I want out of life on this, the eve of my 26th year, because I do hold a funny superstition about the one that follows this (given to me by an astrologer who has been right about everything else bc ¯\_(ツ)_/¯) and how good it's meant to be, so I have a year or thereabouts to get myself to this currently unknown level. And where ordinarily I'd be like ~I just want a stable cool times experience~ I feel like this calls for more a specific plan of action/wish list but all I can think is: I'm gonna go home. I'm gonna redecorate my nest a little bit as, like, physical demarcation of a new phase. I'm gonna rededicate myself to work and try to invest myself more wherever my boss goes this season. I'm gonna overhaul the shit out of my pilot until I think once again that it is the best it can be. I'm gonna make an effort to be open in heart and in mind and I'm gonna have a fun summer with my friends. I'd like to kiss some more people. But, like, good ones. I will try to keep slipping out of my shackles and into something more comfortable. I dunno, I want to continue being me as a 26-year-old, just a more successful and self-assured and ~ascendant~ version of me. Anyway. Good night, see ya in da mornin.
