The Journey Continues On...
Going into Mr. Warrior 2014, I was not sure what to expect. Of course part of me really desired to win, but more importantly, as I mentioned in the "Why do I dance?" post (http://journeyofafreestyledancer.tumblr.com/post/67828850611/why-do-i-dance), I truly desired to reach my goals of exorcising my demons that have plagued me for years. Like I said, I truly believed dancing was like my super power that I could use to fight them off.
On the night of the event, they announced the five finalists names, and I was not included and I was initially washed over in disappointment. I felt like all my hard work had gone towards nothing. Luckily that feeling did not last long.
You see, I was performing among 10 of the most amazing, talented, and ballsiest guys at Westwood high school, and I was extremely blessed and fortunate just to be able to say I participated with the future leaders of our world. As I said earlier: "the winner is will rightfully deserve the title because I’m competing with some of the school’s most talented people at one of the best schools in the nation. I’m very proud that I get to share the stage with those 9 amazing guys." If any of you guys read this, I just want to congratulate you guys on your amazing performances and a big congratulations goes out to the winner, Zach Coles.
However, I realized I failed to destroy my demons. These demons were a low amount of self confidence, my past bullying, ability to achieve things, and the biggest demon of all was my issues with my body image coming from my struggle to lose weight. Still, the demons did fade that night. Even though I didn't win, Mr Warrior provided some of the most amazing memories and something even more important, a desire to work even harder and bring even cooler and better performances for you guys. I realized, I use dance as a means to fight these demons off, and improve myself as a person. Now, I believe my demons will never die because I use dance to fight them off, and if I ever successfully got rid of them, I would not need dance anymore, and I love dance too much to quit. So, the journey continues onwards towards even better and even greater things, and I can't wait to start working towards that. Let's go.
P.S. Thanks for giving me the chance to perform in front of all you guys, it was an exhilerating, and unforgettable feeling. Look forward to a new YouTube channel with new vlogs and dances.
(https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCAhWxhHGYQGclGoNDFvBuwg)