#msparanoia

[jinny-and-tonic]

@msparanoia Here they are! They're aesthetically kind of plain but they are the most comfortable shoes I've ever worn. I got a black, white, and brown one and I got my mom the silver and black ones.

[youregonnamissmebymytalk]

Autumn in Seattle is absolutely wonderful. Well, really anything anywhere with msparanoia is absolutely wonderful.

[emilyampersand]

msparanoia replied to your post: Expectation vs. Reality: A List

What’s going on with your relationship?

Such a loaded question, my dear. Honestly, the quick answer is nothing. Everything is going swimmingly at the moment. As a result, my brain is creating conflict & scenarios. I'm also very impatient. I want what I want when I want it. This is mostly something that only shows itself within the relationship aspect of my life. It's very interesting for friends of mine to see glimpses of the "other side of Emily" or "the relationship side of Emily". They don't believe it's the same person. I have major relationship anxiety. It's something I'm learning to deal with. I'm trying to become  more resolute & calm in regards to my relationship. I'm trying to be clear & say how I feel without any convoluted hoops to make my partner jump through. But, it's hard for me. It doesn't come naturally. 

[youregonnamissmebymytalk]

Thanks humanraise!! I 1000% agree with you - I'm super lucky to have msparanoia in my life.

[youregonnamissmebymytalk]

Season of Change

I’ve been quiet for a while because I’ve been so distracted with my new 50+ hours a week job, but I’m up for a breath of air to check in…

I finally got the perfect roommate, and the perfect job, and perfectly transitioned into my new school schedule… but I’m so bored. I’m ready for a life makeover. I’m not complaining that my life is bad - because I feel so blessed and proud of myself and thankful to my support group for how well everything is panning out - but I’m ready for change, big-time. Everything feels stale. I mean, I did just experience huge changes (job, colleagues, work wardrobe, roommate, learning a new profession, schools), but I feel like I’m still boring me. Like everything is moving around me, but I’m still sitting on my red couch drinking iced coffee in my big sweatshirt and still making the same bad decisions regarding boys. Like I need to wake the fuck up. I’m ready to move on and change ME.

I don’t know how to do this but I’ll start with changing some more external things. It’s time for new boys (majorly!), wardrobe, girlfriends, nutritional intake, exercise routine, apartment decor, hair style, makeup(?), winding down activities (maybe I should give up tv for a while), and and and…

I’m starting Project Change right now, using inspiration from my life coach and BFF msparanoia, who said I should try going to a bar alone and watching football when I told her of my boring agenda for today.

I can use all the inspiration I can get and welcome all your guys’ support/suggestions. Please make me jealous with your huge and small life changes. :)