#mun whining

[redheartedtramp]

More Tramp Thoughts

It's crazy just how tilted this post makes me, lol. It's not a big deal, it's really not, and yet there's a fire in my belly and my anxiety is spiking.

I think I'm just going to block this guy and move on. It's not like he did anything wrong or intentionally hurt me or something so extreme. I just don't want to be reminded of his post and I don't wanna see any interactions with it.

I mean, what do I even say to this guy? "Hi, I don't like this ship you're injecting into my AU, even though I can just ignore you and your post, please don't do this again". This whole thing just goes against why I started this blog, but I'm at this weird crossroad where I feel I have to do something and feel bad or do nothing and feel bad.

Damn, now I don't know if I wanna go back and try to polish up this Age Swap AU, cause now I'm not gonna stop thinking about this one guy. Which is a shame, cause I was hoping to flesh it out a bit and maybe compose some kind of AU Bible, maybe a whole fanfic, when I found the time. But now I feel I'm just gonna be reminded of something that makes me hysterical when it really shouldn't. I have, like, seven drafts of either direct messages and reblogs, but I feel that they're all bad and demanding. I am literally making a mountain out of a molehill all because I just don't like Jaune and don't want Lancaster.

Ugh, I need to sleep.

[nicholas-wolfwood]

I am in so much pain right now. I mean the shaking, crying, dizzy, cold sweat, nausea, biting-a-towel-to-muffle-your-screaming type pain.

Been over a half hour so far. Kill me now.

[askbloatedbellyblog]

*finds out that the Gintama dub started finally.* *finds out they started with season 3 (the revival so it does make sense) thereby skipping the stuffing belly episode* *drowns in a pool of tears from not being able to see bloated Gintoki again* God dammit.

[omalahsocs]

I feel like I should take before and after pictures of my kitchen when I clean so I can actually feel good about it. My roommate makes such huge messes and its so damned discouraging...

I honestly end up eating out nine times out of ten cause I get so tired of cleaning up -just- so I can have proper space to cook. Its not even four o'clock and im exhausted, not wanting to make dinner cause of all the crap I've slogged through. And I dont have paper towels to help clean the crap off the stove top T_T

The first picture is of an area that ive partially gotten clean. The second ive barely touched and im ready to just lay down and cry.

[temporalbystander]

Yep okay. Add writing to the list of things I'm never doing while sick. Only reason I didn't scrap the post in its entirety is because I had already spent way to much time on it not to hit post. Had it been a document I would have given up the moment shit went south but nope. I had to write it straight on Tumblr. Should have just edited the beginning to say "please don't read this garbage, I made much better garbage when I was 12. So I know garbage."

[thewonderingsorceress]

//Guess who finished their final and failed?

[weirdnightsisters-blog]

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[anotherxpath-blog]

I’m super paranoid about this blog, not gonna lie. 

Anyone who knows me, knows that I love shipping and I genuinely like to write smut. That is part of the reason I chose to write Sabrina as 18-19, rather than the canon age of her character. Plus, her actress is 19, so it’s not unreasonable to portray her as that age. But I know that some people don’t like that, or feel uncomfortable when muns do that, so I’m super paranoid about talking to anyone about possibly shipping or even rping half the time because I don’t know how they’d feel about it, and I’m just so worried about upsetting people or people getting angry with me, or thinking I’m gross or anything like that. 

I’m just... really anxious about this blog a lot.