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[merrickwood]

                        merrick’s journal - top secret

                                                              DATE: wednesday, september 25th

finally 16 and life is not any better than it was four days ago. 

i mean, theoretically, life is about as good as it can be. my grades are acceptable, cheer is going well, people keep telling me they’re voting for me for homecoming ( as if i could ever win over holly ) and i have not one but two amazing, incredible boyfriends who love me with all their hearts. 

except that’s

kind of the problem, i guess. 

it shouldn’t be. neither of them are upset that i’m dating the other. neither has requested that i not be with the other. they’re both okay with it. 

but then my birthday came around and logan, while he probably didn’t mean for it to be like this...he claimed me. a ring around my finger. a promise ring, which i wear on my right hand but all i can think about is how it’s supposed to be a promise for forever. and i want to give him forever, but also 

one day i’m going to want to settle down with just one person. i want to have the cheesy dumb one man one woman two kids kinda life. and right now i can’t say if it’ll be logan, or ethan, or either of them at all - but it feels like i just agreed for it to be logan without thinking it through. 

i love him. i love him so much it makes my heart ache if i even imagine not being with him. but he’s also going to go away to college soon, and while he may just go to georgia - he could go somewhere else. somewhere far. and no matter what he ends up doing - the nfl would be nice, obviously, but he could go into literally any field - he’s not going to want small town.

( and of course, what if he goes somewhere near princeton? what if, without me, he and holly come together and forget all about me? i know it would never be on purpose, but the thought of it... ) 

i know ethan’s worried about it. i can tell from the way he looks at the ring, like it offends him. like it’s defeating him. 

( ethan isn’t leaving. logan is. it’s the little thing that keeps ringing in my head despite how much i try to ignore it. ) 

i’m making a big deal out of nothing, obviously. i have enough to worry about. homecoming is coming up, we have a crazy hard routine to work through, garland’s still depressed and i’m still having nightmares about murders on a regular basis. holly’s pills are disappearing too fast and logan’s parents won’t even talk to him and lulu’s mom is still around and i am 

once again

stressed about problems that don’t even exist in my own love life. 

i remain the complete and total worst. 

[dcccxxxii]

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[merrickwood]

                         merrick’s journal - top secret

                                                               DATE: thursday, august 29th

if i just scream at the top of my lungs, do you think anyone in this house would fucking notice? 

i’m the little sister. i’m used to living in the shadows, being the second best, being compared to the etheral beauty of my amazing sister. most of the time, i don’t care. because holly’s a genius, and holly’s the most generous person i know, and she loves with her whole heart and she deserves only amazing things.

but logan saw me. he picked me. i’m the one he said he loves. 

but it doesn’t feel like it anymore. it doesn’t feel like i’m anything anymore. just wasting away. 

it’s like - it’s like i have two lives. because when i’m with lulu, and gigi, and frankie, and ethan - i’m happy. i’m seen. they know me, they love me, they put their actions where their words are. of course, they’re all the people my parents don’t want me to associate with - the ‘lessers’ because they don’t have money like we do, or they don’t have the same views as my parents, or whatever the case may be. but i’m content with them. safe. 

and then i get to the side i’m ‘supposed’ to be on and all i can think of is how holly would take logan in a second if he gave her any inclination. she’d feel terrible about it after, she’d hate herself, but she would. and logan’s supposed to be my ‘happily ever after’ but what the fuck does that even mean anymore. how am i supposed to be his trophy wife and give him kids when he won’t even tell me the real shit happening. when i can’t even tell him the real shit happening. and i watch bradley and amelia stare at him like he put the stars in the sky and i just. i want to laugh. 

they love him unconditionally, because he’s a martyr who blames himself for everything when things aren’t even his faul. 

but they don’t know him like i do. they don’t see him like i do. 

maybe he deserves to be with them. maybe i am the problem. maybe i am the one who’s fucking everything up. maybe it’d hurt less if we just...

ended.

[merrickwood]

                           merrick’s journal - top secret

                                                                 date: friday, august 9th ( or is it saturday, august                                                                             10th if it’s after midnight? i guess it’s technically that. ) 

i fucked up.

i couldn’t keep it from logan any longer - i mean, it was only a few days, but i don’t know how people cheat on their boyfriends ( and really cheat, like we have an open relationship what even constitutes cheating??? ) and don’t tell them right away. i spent two days with my stomach gnawing itself from the inside out. i’ve barely even eaten and my sad 90s playlist is all i’ve been able to listen to. 

and i knew there was a reason i shouldn’t have done it. i mean, there’s a hundred reasons i shouldn’t have done it. he’s lulu’s brother. her only brother, the only one who really looks out for her besides me. and i can only do so much - i mean, i try and help them where i can and they’re good about not letting their pride get the best of them but i can only do so much ? especially when mom hates them because they aren’t ‘good enough’ for us, like that means anything. as if our money came from hard work and not the slave trade 200 years ago. 

whatever. that’s an annoyance for a different day.

i didn’t expect logan to get it. i mean, okay, i kind of did. because he has bradley, who i know he has real feelings for. and he has amelia and he takes her on dates even though she’s supposed to be a fuck buddy and she loves him and now that i’ve fucked up he’ll probably love her too and i’ll be left here without him.

( i deserve it. i was living on borrowed time, really. it only makes sense. i took him from holly, and now i fucked it up. ) 

and i know that i won’t be like, alone alone. no matter what i do, i’ll have ethan. and i’ll have frankie. and i might even really love ethan like i love logan but 

                     what do you do when the boy you’ve loved for 10 years walks away from you? 

he said he still loved me, but if he did, he certainly didn’t show it. he didn’t chase me down, he didn’t comfort me, he didn’t even fucking fight with me. i expected a fight ! but if this is what happens the first time something big happens between us ? 

we wouldn’t have made it through his freshman year at college anyways.

maybe it’s better this way. maybe now he’ll look at schools besides ug so he can go somewhere big, get into something amazing. maybe he’ll go on and live his grand old life and i’ll stay here in riverside and do 

something.

nothing ? 

i never wanted to do anything anyways. except fall in love and have that happily ever after. and i tried to be a realist and say it wouldn’t happen for me and logan but - 

oh god, i’m realizing how bad i thought we would. i’m realizing how badly i was hoping for that in the long run. because i would have gone anywhere for him, done anything for him and instead he just stood there

is that all

and now i don’t have him

because he might not have broken up with me ‘officially’ but it certainly feels like we aren’t together anymore 

and it certainly feels like we can’t come back from this like i thought we could

so what’s the fucking point

if all i got

was a broken heart anyways

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[wedlockrp]

Quais os personagens mais requeridos? queria mandar minha ficha, mas não sei para qual char

Gostaríamos de completar as famílias reais da África do Sul, Angola, Coreia, Áustria e Japão. São os países que mais sinto falta de ver por aqui. Para completar casais, gostaríamos de:

Príncipe herdeiro da África do Sul, príncipe herdeiro da Angola, princesas da Coreia e do Japão, príncipe do Egito, príncipes do Brasil, príncipe de Portugal e do Estados Unidos.

[factumhq-blog]

mw deusas, plss

Como você não especificou o panteão vou fazer dos quatro, então se demorei para te responder foi por isso, me perdoa! Eu coloquei o top 8 deusas de cada panteão, mas se você não gostar de nenhuma das sugeridas é só vir aqui de novo que eu aumento meu radar!

PANTEÃO EGÍPCIO

Amonet, Anput, Bat, Bastet, Ísis, Maat, Sátis,Sekhmet.

PANTEÃO GREGO

Ártemis, Atena, Deméter, Despina, Hebe, Hera, Macária, Melinoe.

PANTEÃO JAPONÊS

Amaterasu, Am-No-Tanabata-Hime, Benten,Haniyasu-Hime,Izanami, Kaminari, Kishi-Bojin, Kishijoten.

PANTEÃO NÓRDICO

Freia, Frigg, Lofn, Ran, Signy, Skadi, Thrudi, Nótt.

[harborshq]

mwm? and most wanted type of character?

Hi dear! I have a couple of most wanted males here and here but to add to those, I’d love to see Cole Sprouse, Dave Franco, Joseph Morgan, Shiloh Fernandez, Matthew Gray Gubler, Jeffrey Dean Morgan, Chris Pine, Chris Pratt, Sam Claflin, Charlie Hunnam,  and Tom Hardy. 

As for the type of characters, I’d love to see ones who were ex-convicts or people who have good paying jobs but they’re staying in Harbor Homes because they’re basically drowning in debt? I’d also love to see struggling musicians, who basically play on the streets for some tips but they’re also ambitious despite their current state (aka living in a place like the apartment). It’d be nice to see characters who are actually involved in illegal activities like drug trade/dealing (disclaimer: we’re not, in any way, intending on glamorizing these sort of “jobs”. they’re merely for the purpose of broadening/varying the range of each characters’ backstories) and they’re either on the run (maybe they’re wanted in some other part of the uk or other country) or the police can’t identify them because they’re pretty skilled with what they do. I think it’d also be interesting to see characters who are scared of commitment because of a reason (reason depends on the player) and also, characters who were ex-military but for some reasons, their life went downhill? I hope this helps you in some way, dear! If you need more suggestions, don’t hesitate to send in another message and I’ll help you the best that I can!