#my condition

[allo-frouto]

what is your favourite sex kink?

I wish I could say only one buddy.

[jenniesart]

How I felt last days.

Art by @jenny626 and @jenniesart (both me).

Antar belongs to me.

[dreaminginthedeepsouth]

[from my files] :: my brother at Shepherd Spinal Center]

* * * * 2600 hertz

The twelve things I know about my condition I learned in the waiting room. This is not the arbitration you called. Bring me solution-based problems. The tipping point is either price or marketing but not both, according — Hyperspace is a necessary device in space opera. To get from A to . Or: ships that house a population that will reproduce for generations. Or: don’t read that stuff. Improve yourself, banish genre from all inventory. I feel abysmal. I could use a holiday. I could use the fuck out of a holiday. What they don’t tell you about middle age is that the sun gets brighter, everything’s more vivid. The walls are pulsing like they’re breathing. Nothing is safer than scuba diving. If you tell me in confidence I will blame it on piracy.

A.D. Harper

[2600 hertz (2600 Hz) is a frequency in hertz (cycles per second) that was used in telecommunication signaling in mid-20th century long-distance telephone networks]

[bearpillowmonster]

I hate how contradicting my doctors are because they’ll tell me something like “drink lots of water” and then I’ll look online at my condition and it will say “drink calories, not water.” Which one is it?!

[goddess-of-chaos-and-discord]

Fighting a physical battle right now

Note: This is very tmi so....I dont wanna hear any "eww" or "gross" or "dont talk about that kinda stuff". I really need to share this and I cant do it on fb because of certain people. Personally, I don't think sex is a big deal. I think its just a normal part of life and some people like it, some people dont. Me? I want to have it...some day, but I dont know if I can and heres why. Im positive I have vaginismus. For those who dont know what it is, its when the muscles of your vagina contract and spasm, causing stinging burning pain and makes any form of insertion either sexual or non extremely painful. I didnt know it was a thing and since puberty any insertion is painful. Any and all. Buzzfeed did a video on VVS which is similar if not the same...check it out. Im at this point in my life where im trying to become a positive sexual being. Its not going to be my entire life but its a step in me loving and taking care of myself. This condition...has ruined me physically and emotionally. I sit and cry sometimes feeling broken or less of a woman because I cant control my own sexual organs. It hurts to hear my friends talk about their healthy sexual lives because I dont have one. Its awkward when your friends are sharing "hoe stories" and you sit there like a potato because you have nothing to contribute. Yes it sounds stupid I know. I know I can live without sex. I know its not that big of a deal but....I want to feel normal. I want to feel like if I want to have sex then I can have it as often or not as I choose. It....it fucking hurts. I hate feeling like less of a person, less of a woman, less of.......something..... I want kids in the future, I want to bear my own children...I want to be able to satisfy my partner and have them satisfy me. I want to be able to initiate sexual contact without crying or panicking because the pain is too much to handle. I dont want to cry and scream and break my poor obgyns sweet heart because shes trying to do her job and help me yet has to hear my sobs of pain...HELL I WANT TO SIT DOWN AND NOT BE IN PAIN! Thats how bad it is..... Sure you may wonder why the hell am I posting something so personal......because its a big deal. Many people suffer from this...its breaking them. Its hurting them. They feel the same way that I do yet theyre told to get over it because sex isnt a big deal. For some it is! Theres not enough awareness for this...people want comfort. To feel human and in control of their body. Thats what I want. I just want to feel human.

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[smx-02]

أنا الفترة دي 💀😈