#my confessions

[cuteslutdiary]

I love it love it when men decide. When they decide what porn i watch, what language i use, what positions i go in. Its just soooo easy for me to not decide. I dont have enough brain power for thatt

[natsuki208]

You know… I think it’s about time I come clean about this before the year’s end.

Now before anyone freaks out, let me point out a few things. This does not come from hate for Buzz X Jessie because I still love them and they deserve more respect after the trainwreck fourth film.

Speaking of which, this one basically started as a weird coping mechanism after TS4’s god awful ending (their hug was the only thing I liked). But overtime, I began to realise that “Huh, they are actually kinda cute together.”

Plus I’m a sucker for the ‘friends to lovers’ trope lol.

[asian-4-fun]

Taking a survey. What do you think was the first object I ever used to pleasure myself? Leave your guess in the comments and at 50 comments I’ll tell everyone the answer. 🍑❤️🥵😘

Was it

1) hair brush handle

2) carrot

3) electric toothbrush

4) moms vibrator

5) sharpie marker

[draxiie]

I love ptarmigans

That’s it that’s the scoop

[kosmicpowers]

When I was a child I saw a Fourth Doctor episode rerun on TV without knowing what Doctor Who was but I thought he was fucking awesome so I made him into my imaginary friend who I called Jack Star (really) drawing a bunch of fanart and I thought "wow I wish I was funny curly haired British man" all the time. I dreamt about the Donut Steel version of the Doctor. I talked to him. I heard his voice in my head during a mental breakdown. It wasn't until I started watching DW that I actually remembered "oh shit this is like based off a real thing yeah not some dream I had"

[kumiiiiiiii031026]

Pink natsuki stimboard!!!!!

[makeyoumine69]

Hello dear people in my beloved American Psycho fandom! I couldn't force myself to write this post because I didn't know how to do it, but I think now is the right time. I promised myself not to bring personal stuff into my writing, but since one thing affects another, I think I should finally speak up.

This year started pretty bad for me, I was suffering from a huge apathy and my mental health was probably in the worst state in the last few years. I had to cut ties with a lot of people and distance myself, and I'm really sorry for doing that, but I had no choice because I was literally dying from the inside. When I came back to Tumblr in 2022, I was absolutely alone and I had no friends, no followers and in some ways I felt calm and peaceful. I always thought and probably still think that I should be alone and isolated from everyone, like a soulless writing machine just producing fanfictions for people to consume. Maybe this is not a bad thing, because interacting with people always carries the risk of getting bruised?

Anyway, the thing that broke me completely was the news I received in the last days of January that I would be fired in February because my company decided to close the project I was working on due to the high inflation and bad economic situation in Russia. So now I have to find a job within February because I have a lot of financial responsobilities like paying for the medical treatment my family is getting. My grandmother was diagnosed with kidney cancer and her surgery was paid for by me and my fiancé, but the medicine costs a lot, so… after I told my mom about my news, she blamed me for everything. I was not really surprised though, considering that I have been having fights with my whole family for the past few months over different topics, but mostly they hate me for my political opinions. Whenever I say that I am tired of the war, sanctions and all the other stuff that 2022 has brought, they call me a fucking traitor. My family is ready to cancel me just because I told them I was tired of living in isolation, that I had even forgotten what my life was like before the war. My fiancé is literally the only person in my family who supports me, and even though I'm going to lose my job, he told me he would do anything for me, for us, but I don't want to be a burden. I'm really scared about the future, I think I really am now.

So, I'm sorry for not finishing the Christmas fics I promised to post, I'll try to finish them soon. Also, I'm sorry for not being active with fulfilling the requests and replying to your asks. I'm really sorry. And I know some of you might think that why I keep writing new series and working on different stuff while I have WIPs I need to finish—I'm just trying to follow my muse and I can say that it's really unstable these days, but I'm really trying to do my best and deliver something good for all of you!

I also want to thank all of you who have supported me with your donations! It means the world to me! Unfortunately, my account on the platform I was using for donations has been suspended because of… DOLLARS! They think I'm a scammer or something because the dollar is such a cursed currency in Russia right now, so I don't know if they'll unban my account, I hope they will.

Okay, that was longer than I thought it would be. To end this crazy rant, I just want to thank you guys for sticking with me no matter how fucked up I might be! I believe that one day I will find my way back to myself so that I can come back strong and refreshed!