#my dad

[soiltsunami]

There's smth about being involuntarily bald and being on a scale of somewhat annoying/irritating to being completely insufferable that I'm starting to notice

[purpie-goddess]

why did growing up make it harder for my father to talk to me? sometimes i feel guilty for growing, like maybe I’m not the daughter he wanted me to be, like I left him behind.

[only-knives]

i remember one time when i was a teenager my mom and i were so scared of how my father was treating me that we secretly recorded him screaming at and threatening me. we brought it to therapy and they still didn't do fucking shit to help us.

i know i cant excuse the fact my mom and sister don't believe me about some things because it's really really hurt me but. i also know they genuinely don't remember some things because of the trauma of it all. or they've had to come up with rationales like i did after so many failed interventions. it feels like an impossible situation.

it's just really really sad. it's not fair and i just really hope someday we won't have to live like this as a family. i dont know how to handle it if it never happens but i wont worry about that right now and just. be kinder to myself.

[mossy-of-the-valley]

party au where peter has a snow cone truck and barty is obsessed with watching his YouTube channel and stalking which town hes gonna be at next. hes literally the #1 snow cone fan all because hes so interested in peter

[honeydewdrops333]

I’m sorry to all my moots who have awful fathers, we can share mine. He’s really cool and I love him

[queer-reader-07]

having a good relationship with your father is great and all but watch out you might go tour the gravitational wave observatory and be met with relentless gay jokes about visiting the literal straightest thing in your state

[only-knives]

part of me wants to just tell my dad off for literally everything he's ever done to me and my family and how he has somehow managed to near singlehandedly ruin my entire life

but i know i am not strong enough to do that yet. and i dont know if i ever will be. that man has a grip on a huge part of my brain. the thing is. feels like i can't let go until i've told him the fuck off. i want to have my crash out.

i dont want to spend the rest of my life being afraid to exist in this world at the same time as him. i've been struggling with it for so long. maybe that's the constant psychological discomfort i feel.

it would make sense. it's always where my mind goes back to when it's vulnerable. hm. there's gotta be something i can do to help myself here. something i haven't thought or said or done yet. that would make me feel like. i do have power. and i am allowed to be here.

i can't live in his shadow forever. it fucking sucks. but i guess the fact i really do wanna do it at some point is progress. someone has got to tell that man off completely. i can't stand to see him never be confronted.