#myblackwaters

[thegreatukauka]

myblackwaters replied to your post: Aaaww yeaah I got e-mail from my geology teacher...

You can do it all, have a great day!

Well I just realized that I DON'T have to call to Työkkäri and that I can do all that stuff on my computer. Whooo yeaaa >D Also good breakfast with some red dead motherfucking redemption. AND THE SUN IS SHINING AND I'VE ALREADY READ ALMOST 60 PAGES OF MY RELIGION BOOK.

You have a great day too, Mr. Great Hair UvU

[hello-spaceb0y]

Talk about... 24!

24: Talk about something someone told you that meant a lot.

It was a brief, fleeting thing that one of my friends in Potsdam said in passing. We were at a drinking session, and she was searching her handbag for some rolling papers but was unsuccessful, and I offered her mine. She told me that I am 'Always so nice and hospitable'.

I really appreciate when people notice my efforts to be kind and helpful, even if it's just something small like offering a lighter to a stranger. It makes me feel happy, because someone has affirmed that I have done something right.

[hello-spaceb0y]

myblackwaters replied to your photo: Another old selfie from 10 days ago I’m not sure...

HOW PRETTY, how handsome

Oh doctah, you do flatter me so~

I thank you

[hello-spaceb0y]

myblackwaters replied to your post: so disappointed i leave the house to go for a...

holy shit that looks like a party

4 cans of very potent energy pop and a family size bag of prawn cocktail flavoured corn snacks, 2 ciders and some milky sweets

I love Irish corner shops sometimes. I'm going to have a teddy bear picnic and eat all of this myself BWAHAHAHAHA I'm so alone

[littleziisa]

myblackwaters replied to your post: Answer this with ten facts about yourself, then pass it on to your ten favorite followers :)

the anime never leaves you, I THOUGHT SO TOO YA KNOW

It's like ookay I've had enough, I bet I've seen every cliche and twist already, nothing can surprise me, ugh these are annoyi- hey look there's a new series maybe I'll just watch the first episode and oH MY GOD THESE CHARACTERS ARE MY BABIES DON'T YOU DARE TO HURT THEM AUGH WHERE IS THE NEWEST EPISODE IT SHOULD'VE BEEN HERE YESTERDAY

[frobishounen]

You are a real trans*-person, you are you, you are who you identify as - and that should be it. It pisses me off that for some people it's so fucking difficult to be decent.

Thank you, dearest. (would hug if were in the same space) I can't even be pissed off anymore, I'm just like ???? and well, earlier today I was actually really upset because I didn't feel like a real person because I sometimes feel like that anyway and Mum just kind of triggers that in me almost every time we speak because of her point of view is so... She's basically saying that I SIMPLY CAN'T BE what I say I am because she doesn't get that kind of ~vibes~. Well, I am sorry if I'm not what you look for in a man, I really wish I could be convenient for you and make your life easy but guess what, there's very little I can do about it. I did suggest not talking about these things at all and just sort of... Not being in touch all that much? but no, she wouldn't take that either. 

[frobishounen]

oh my god, she makes it sound as if you are “doing” this just to piss others off

She does. She just wants me to do nothing and live my life like always, however it makes me feel and whatever consequences there might be in terms of my social and personal life.

She completely ignores all the signs that were there and exaggerates every single "girly" thing that I have ever done in my life. She gives me false statistics (I had to check when she said there were 14 ftms treated in the UK since 2009) and keeps telling me that every single person of my kind has "always been like boys" (whatever that means) and that it's been "clearly obvious to everyone around them that they are like boys" and because she doesn't think I fit in that box, she uses this to make me feel like I've just randomly decided that hey dude guess what I want to be a guy hell yeah guys are cool. And since I've obviously decided that this is the case, I should decide back and live my life as a girl and become a wife and a mother and what not. Or at least someone who could potentially be one of those.

This doesn't work, obviously, but it does make me feel like I'm not entitled to call myself anything. It's getting more and more difficult to see myself as a real person. I know I'm not a woman but no one will see me as a guy and I'm not inbetween and I can't even say that I'm transitioning because I'm only in the beginning of the whole bloody process and well I'm not even a real trans* person whatsoever. I don't necessarily need a label but I do need an identity and now that I've finally had it, it's being taken away from me bit by bit. 

The only things that keep me alive are you few people that I call friends and love, and my home in England where I can be away from these few beings who keep harming me. 

[frobishounen]

myblackwaters replied to your photo

??????????????????????? MIKSI NAURAN

^ sama reaktio