#mydiary

[rezkid]

babe are u ok i saw u rb "things will be ok" hopecore onto your sports sideblog

[hustlerose]

so i compulsively seek out reviews both before and after i experience a piece of art. before i listen to an album, watch a movie or read a novel, i like to know its reputation first. i think this stems from an anxiety about wasting my time. i'm afraid i'll spend 25 hours reading a book, only to realize i don't like it

the problem is, as i've found, you can't always trust critics or internet randos or even close friends to tell you how you're gonna feel about a work of art before you experience it. positive reviews across all those sources usually mean you'll have a good time, but not always. more importantly, works with middling or negative reviews are sometimes transcendentally great

in fact, i think it's hugely important to find your personal favorites outside of the general consensus. it's a sign of a healthy art diet to have your album or movie or whatever. something obscure, odd, and generally regarded by those aware of it, as a perfect 5/10.

falling in love with a work like that marks you as a real human being, who has developed a complex palette and a deep understanding of the genre and medium. everyone knows lord of the rings is a masterpiece. it takes an individual, dare i say a connoisseur, to claim that nine princes in amber deserves the same description

more, it gives you a connection to the artist. making art takes a lot of love, and a lot of work. you need to really believe in what you're making. you hope that someone else believes, too

the sieve of time filters out the overwhelming majority of art from any given era. that means if you like something right now, and it exists outside the purview of either pop culture or universal critical acclaim, odds are it'll be forgotten pretty fast. it's up to you to love those obscurities

i'm already hitting the age when i can look back on high school and realize most of the weird alt subcultures i lived in as a teenager are basically gone. the tiny indie bands i loved, the music scenes i was a part of, the short stories my friends wrote, are in the past now. who else, what critic, will love those things as much as i did, and still do?

when present-day teens look back on my era, how will they find those indie bands, those music scenes, those stories? maybe there are young folks right now who are missing that stuff, and don't even know it. maybe if i do my part and keep the flame alive, they can fall in love with my obscure mid favs, too

[snowdrop-milk]

2026.04.01 - diary entry #7 ꒰ ♡ ꒱

·˚ ༘ yesterday today was april fool's day in snowdrop! ·˚

the town was filled with clownery in the air. everywhere i went my villagers would be telling me big lies. all day.

.　 ۫ · i was excited to meet blanca today since it was my first proper april fools' in acnl. after talking to blanca, they disappeared. at first, i was perplexed since they vanished out of thin air, but turns out they go into the villagers houses for the pranks!

₊˚⊹ the first victim villager was etoile. i've never seen her so mad like this before (lol). i got her picture! (yay)

˖°. the next villager was rudy. the motto for rudy in japanese threw me off and unfortunately, i didn't get his photo :( (boohoo)

it took some time waiting for the other villagers though, but luckily i got everyone's photo... well.. except for rudy (｡ᵕ ◞ _◟)

it was fun seeing them wipe their faces (or at least blanca that is) idk why hopkins looks goofy here from behind ꉂ (´∀｀) haha (his face screams goofy. i love him)

๋࣭ ⭑ here's wade giving me his photo and saying "eheheh~ this is my photo~" shyly. (how adorable♡)

.˚₊ ⊹ ruby was the last villager for the day. after blanca left, she was like "oh yeah, there's a rumor that next year blanca will come back again?! but you know that could also be just a rumor~"

i have a feeling that one's not going to be a lie.

[morisumm3r]

[balaclava-trismegistus]

Christ man I've had an awful day. Worst symptoms in months. Super fucking dizzy and wobbly all goddamn day. Vision problems. Circulation issues in my arm and hand. Super irritable. My dad essentially admitted he's always used me as a punching bag, and sees no difference between having negative feelings and behaving in abusive ways. Said something about how he feels like he has nothing to show for the last 30 years of his life. Thus, has a lot of negative feelings, which he sees as justification for acting abusively. I tried talking to him about it, he started playing the fucking games immediately. Trying to turn it around on me, started lying about the sequence of events, all that shit. Arguing over every single thing I say.

This is a pretty fucked up position. I've been saying the same shit every night for at least five years, more like fifteen years. Can't get my feet under me because I'm sick. Can't get anyone to care about me being sick. Can't get anyone to do anything to make me not sick. Can't get any kind of accommodations to make being sick easier. Because I've always been sick, and because I have no family to speak of, and no ability to support myself, I'm just sort of stuck in the drowning machine. Just get kicked in the head 24/7.

Before I left for Washington, I was in a good direction. I really wanted to get into a trade. Then my health went to hell. Now I'm worse off than I've ever been.

I got a lot of questions about my imaging. Last time I asked the neuro about it, he told me he doesn't really know about interpreting imaging enough to address my questions. Maybe I'll shoot him another message saying I had a really shit day and I've noticed a couple things I got questions about. But the circulatory shit is also freaking me out. My PCP doesn't really care a ton about that. Come to think of it, I described an episode to my PCP a while ago where my bp dropped and it got really hard to think and I got unbelievably agitated, along some other symptoms like a pressure in my head and shit. He didn't really care. I think I need a new PCP. I think I need to go to fucking Mayo, but I've already tried twice and they won't see me.

Just can't really make anyone give much of a shit.

[sergiocanavero]

sometimes I imagine ilya wearing shane as a skin suit in a sexy way while I jerk off

[mystery0028]

FRIEREN!!

Finally got around to watching/reading Frieren:Beyond Journey's End (Sousou no Frieren/Frieren the Slayer). And It's so! Good!

Female protagonist!!! Without romance involved!! Thats so rare! (Yes I know Himmel is supposed to be her love interest but like he's dead! It's not a traditional romance!)

The character writing is done so well too! Sterotypical personalities but they aren't pushed into the sterotype? There's realistic character growth? They learn from their mistakes and change accordingly?

The action animation should not be this good for a Slice-Of-Life Fantasy anime. Stark's fight scene with the solar dragon looked so good!

Slowburn Romance between Stark and Fern. And it's not a priority! Its not romance for romance's sake! Its 2 individually realized characters with their own story arc that happen to fall in love, not a character and their one-dimensional love interest!

Stark! He's a 'coward' but he's not snively and annoying in the way most cowards are written. His fear is real! It makes sense in the context, and its also addressed and overcome!

Fern! That's it! Fern!

The way Frieren is portrayed is so good too ! She seems aloof and uncaring, but she's not. They've balanced the caring side of her with the part that doesn't really understand humans and their urgency and sense of time.

Himmel is shown to be so kind and helpful, but also shown to be quite vain, and caring about his image and how people will see and remember him. But that's never shown as a bad thing. But rather as something that just is. There are negatives (the waste of time when he's choosing a pose for his statue) but also positives (he says one of the reasons he makes sure there are so many statues of him is so that Frieren won't have to feel alone in the future).

The story is the embodiment of the phrase- The Journey is more important than the Destination. Sure they're going to Aureole in the present, and they went to slay the demon king in the past. But the big moments aren't really treated like that. It's the smaller moments- the character interactions - the errands and side quests that are elaborated on. There are practically no extreme fights at the start since Frieren is so OP. Low stakes most of the time - whether that me in action or the romance

Hieter and Eisen and how they love and care for their childeren and Frieren in the same regards.

It's not a life-changing or intese anime, but its quite relatable in the emotions. - the fear, the loss, the nostalgia, the happiness. The loss isn't seen as tragic however - it is as a natural part of life, is accepted and learned from. The only main thing that seems to be regretable is not getting to know your loved ones enough. And that's what the whole story is about. Frieren trying to undersatnd her former party members by recollectiong their adventures and also through experiencing new ones with Fern and Stark.

-30.9.2024

[dulcerbbns]