#myfreakinglife

[allureyourlove]

Wanderlust

Oh the wanders I have not seen And the atmospheres i have not breathed The cultures I have not encountered The oceans I have not dove into The sands that have not exfoliated me And the strangers that i have never been so happy to see I propose this is all my heart is synced to Voyage the world And get deep into The divergent parts that are hidden inside of me Unraveling my spirit Undressing me free All around the world There are millions of different parts of me And i always go home With a key to a different lock A synapse evoked So in awe, i can finally find the words i lacked to spoke What is this? I suppose, it’s the feeling of electricity awakening volts inside my soul An extensive love for people and a country, 2, 500 or more miles away Every city, every way, gave me a smile that will forever stay Eternal happiness from your part of the world So sentimental It feels as though it came from above So let me keep going And returning I will never stop exploring The world is mine And I will keep travelling, and gathering all of me that is out there Out there, where i see all To find the all parts of me That God has gently scattered And I am not even angry, i am more than flattered That God wants to shape me, through the eye of the beholder For me to physically find out That I am everywhere, The world is my playground So let me say now, I am looking forward to the years to come Cause I will keep diving deep like a fish submerge And the journey will never falter, cause everywhere i go i will find my alter the experience of wanderlust is truly divine I will keep living it, aging with it like fine wine Cause there is no reason for me to be stuck here so confined When there is a whole assembly of me out there, waiting to be redefined Oh wanderlust, how you keep me shine.

[allureyourlove]

Cause here’s the tragic truth if you don’t feel the same, my heart would fall apart if someone said your name.

[allureyourlove]

If tomorrow you won’t be mine, won’t you give it to me one last time? Ooh, baby let me love you goodbye!

[allureyourlove]

Lord forgive me

Because I sin

Please let me conquer

What I feel I can not win

Please keep me from fire

Keep me from death

The mess that causes stress

Keep me fresh

On the good runs

That make me rejoice

Please forgive me

I ask for another choice

[allureyourlove]

I had a vision about our breakup a long time ago that I just recalled it was pitch darkness in the dream and there was a few yellow streetlights on all I could see was him and this new girlfriend coming my direction while me and some random guy are coming towards them I googled the significance of darkness in dreams and darkness means a dramatic change or death, I have dramatically been trying to get over someone whose basically dead/should be dead to me darkness also symbolizes physical and moral pain which I am currently experiencing to the highest extent darkness means that you have lost touch with your spiritual endeavor due to your beliefs so you better watch your actions I'm so dumb, I literally had a vision to avoid all of what I'm going through now and I avoided the vision instead. I saw this coming but didn't take it seriously, from now on I'm taking these kinds of thing to heart. I could still have you if I did.

[allureyourlove]

I will never understand two people break up one of them is flourishing in happiness with a new person while the other just loses themselves and everything they knew why does one always have to be miserable? is this ying yang? is this what balances out the world? two people split and it's balanced by misery and happiness? whose the judge of all this? cause it certainly is not fair how is it okay to watch the one you love happy without you there? it's just so wrong to me and I know I'm not the only one out here saying this I'm not the only one seeing this this is the way the world stays balanced the world picks who they want to be happy and who they want to be miserable and the world does not care that misery watches the happy and is agonizing in what feels to be an eternal burning pain so now we the misery gotta get numb we gotta ignore what's in the heart and hope that we will one day be happy too but whose to put that trust in when happiness never worked out for you? who do I trust that can guarantee me that I will one day he happy too? because I haven't been happy so I don't trust a single one of you I can't put it all in God, cause I just am not sure and I certainly can not put it in the universe because what has that done for me besides give me something to read about I just don't understand why I had to be one of the people stuck in the bad this is my destiny the ground would give me more empathy so please just let me die cause I'm sick of wondering why

[allureyourlove]

Taurus Midheaven

There is a taste for extravagance with a Taurus midheaven. Even with financial deprivation, the individual dreams incessantly about the luxuries of a privileged life, tasting cuisines full of spice, wearing designer labels, traveling the seven seas in opulence. The individual may even like to give the impression that she lives a richer and more grandiose life than her bank balance allows. 

There will be a profound delight when the individual can colour pleasure in the public’s eyes. She is the celestial water that soothes a dry cracked earth. A guardian of flowers who blossoms with her calling. She is a vision of love, emerging from the clouds like Aphrodite.

Self-employment is possible for Taurus Midheaven. Ideally, they like to create things for others to appreciate. 

Taurus Midheaven is sure of their beliefs. They don't feel it necessary to force what they believe onto other people. Having their beliefs questions, however, can cause a big rift. Their beliefs are often structured very rigidly. This helps them feel comforted and secure emotionally.

Taurus Midheaven doesn't like change. This goes for both the physical world and the mental one. Ideas can stick with them no matter what until they are finally convinced they should let it go.

They have a real need for understanding from others.

the artsy route, which can actually be quite a popular choice with Taurus Midheaven. But, if it is, you won’t be a starving artist for long, if at all. The idea of starving just isn’t your cup of tea. People with this placement don’t romanticize struggle or hardship at all, which can make success much less of a struggle for you. Unlike other Midheaven signs, you aren’t necessarily out to challenge yourself. Instead, you just want to get out in the world and live on the fat of the land, accumulating all of the opportunities and the riches that you possibly can.

  But, just about everything about your public image is uncomplicated. This is a part of why so many people are attracted to you. There’s something about you showing up that just makes people feel like they can relax and breathe easier. And such a response is great for you, as you do seek to make people feel comfortable.

Most Midheaven in Taurus people are seen as really hot, for some reason or another. Like Marilyn Monroe, you also understand that being sexy can get you ahead. But, this isn’t the sex appeal of your opposite sign, Scorpio Midheaven, which may intimidate as much as it attracts.

[allureyourlove]

Dear Angel

Dear Angel,

I hope you know that all these young girls my age having babies really makes me wish i was enlightened to reconsidering keeping you. At the time, i did not know how to make a decision based on the life of another human being, i probably still can not, but now i would be more open to keeping you. I just can not imagine how life would go with you here, the drama, chaos, and stress it would bring would really be a burden but your life here on earth would have been worth all of that and more. I am sorry I was too selfish to understand that. I miss you and I wish your tiny little feet were resting on me right now, you know how much i loved you, i will never forget the joy you brought me on that Saturday morning, even though it came with sickness, it was indescribable joy.

I really wish your spirit lays with me tonight as i rest asleep so we could cuddle in my dreams. I have not seen you in a while and i wish that you come out of hiding. My Angel, I love you, let your spirit linger on here.