#allureyourlove

[allureyourlove]

Wanderlust

Oh the wanders I have not seen And the atmospheres i have not breathed The cultures I have not encountered The oceans I have not dove into The sands that have not exfoliated me And the strangers that i have never been so happy to see I propose this is all my heart is synced to Voyage the world And get deep into The divergent parts that are hidden inside of me Unraveling my spirit Undressing me free All around the world There are millions of different parts of me And i always go home With a key to a different lock A synapse evoked So in awe, i can finally find the words i lacked to spoke What is this? I suppose, it’s the feeling of electricity awakening volts inside my soul An extensive love for people and a country, 2, 500 or more miles away Every city, every way, gave me a smile that will forever stay Eternal happiness from your part of the world So sentimental It feels as though it came from above So let me keep going And returning I will never stop exploring The world is mine And I will keep travelling, and gathering all of me that is out there Out there, where i see all To find the all parts of me That God has gently scattered And I am not even angry, i am more than flattered That God wants to shape me, through the eye of the beholder For me to physically find out That I am everywhere, The world is my playground So let me say now, I am looking forward to the years to come Cause I will keep diving deep like a fish submerge And the journey will never falter, cause everywhere i go i will find my alter the experience of wanderlust is truly divine I will keep living it, aging with it like fine wine Cause there is no reason for me to be stuck here so confined When there is a whole assembly of me out there, waiting to be redefined Oh wanderlust, how you keep me shine.

[allureyourlove]

Lukas </3

When I first met you, we were burning, boiling

Lava hot

That is why I can not comprehend why that stopped

You stole my eyes for a whole entire night

And stole my heart maybe a whole entire life

So handsome and tall

Foreign and intelligent

I thought you had it all

But i voice my opinions with salt and pepper

Social media would think wow she’s a go getter

Gettin all these guys

But you saw my ways, and thought it looked like a crime

It was just a stunt to flex and shine

But it scared you away

And now you won’t write me back

I know it is cause you think i am unstable

The times i became emotional

Because you were being unable

I just wanted to continue to like you and burn with that passion

For someone overseas, 500,000 million miles away from me

But i guess i am too weird, American and sad

Cause someone like you knows how to hold his gag

Two different cultures and i am from the bad, i wish i was foreign so you could be mine, all mine

All America has taught me is that mental illness, does too much talking

And even when i want to express the uttermost beauty

I can not because depression is on full time duty

So why can you not see? That I am just a wonderful girl with a lot of demons hidden inside of me

I am normal i swear, i am, but i have a war in my head, that sometimes cuts my hands

I just wanted to keep burning with you lava hot

Conversations about constellations, moving up, and achieving a spot

Maybe one day even seeing each other again

But you are too self centered to see that i come from a place where trouble

Trouble is always on its way

Not calm and humble like Germany and Europe

I come from a place full of screw ups

I wish you could understand

Then we could see eye to eye

And then maybe then you would reply?

I told you the sex was good

And it shifted your mood

I guess where you come from, you leave that all in the room

And never mention it again

But where I am from, we sing it like a song

We think of it before bed

A moment so good, how could it remain unsaid

So i am sorry, i expressed something to you

That might be forbidden at your end of the spectrum

I thought i was complimenting you, i thought you would say you’re welcome

But that was silly of me

Maybe we have different customs, and we will never agree

I just thought you saw some sort of light inside of me

That’s why you kissed me so hard and heavily

Was i just a fuck and run

You said no?

But if the answer is no, why won’t you be my friend?

Cause i am having moments about you where i wish i left many things unsaid

Emotional sayings, statuses, and praying

I realize i am nothing to you, and my heart is heavy weighing

I was naive, to let you come up inside of me

Your appearance grasped me by the eyes

And that accent, the way you spoke, took me by delight

And all that came together

When you came to my hotel

And gullible me, believed, this is some passion that is gonna last forever

How could i believe that you would take care of my heart?

You did not even like the way i was pulled all apart

I swear, in my eyes you are still a work of art

But in my heart, you are nothing but a conniving little lie

That i just wish i would have denied.

[allureyourlove]

Consoling myself

Affirming abundance

In forms of eloquence

Chivalry and excellence.

Tears dropping like combustions

Eyes heavy with star matter

Blurry in sonder.

Living with yearn

Straining the gratitude

Seeking much more that is bigger

Than small town parks

And burgers

Not looking to pickle my liver

Gen z, millennial

That’s the poison

I’m left in an isolation

Only seeing kindred spirits through the screen

I’m all the way across the world

I just wanna scream

I want to be in the scene

I want to be in sync

With big things

Live like big dreams

Not just dream dreams

Walk the talk

Be the show

I’m dropping tears

Cause this isn’t where I belong.

[allureyourlove]

I just learned that Tumblr has reply posts nowadays 😭. It’s been ages, wow.

[allureyourlove]

Cause here’s the tragic truth if you don’t feel the same, my heart would fall apart if someone said your name.

[allureyourlove]

Lord forgive me

Because I sin

Please let me conquer

What I feel I can not win

Please keep me from fire

Keep me from death

The mess that causes stress

Keep me fresh

On the good runs

That make me rejoice

Please forgive me

I ask for another choice

[allureyourlove]

Drunk, Fake Sad, Break Ups & Unleashing the Real Me, finally.

It’s 11:24 and i am getting drunk, i am fake sad about this breakup. I actually feel relieved that I left him, and i feel so much better knowing that real happiness is truly about to sweep me off my feet. I always thought i was happy with Brandon but i would only think i was happy, it was always a front, and happiness is so easy to fake that the fake feels like real happiness. I am happy I left you brandon, i do not need you, i do not want you, you are nothing to me now. I am so glad i broke the barriers and set myself free, I’ve never breathed like I have today, right now.