𝐣𝐚𝐢𝐦𝐞 𝐬𝐜𝐨𝐟𝐟𝐬. remembers the blood mingling with muck as his face hit the dirt. swimming in it. not unlike now, in a way. a lannister. the cloths he uses to wipe his ass, were once & are once more embroidered with proud lions. he’s been struck from his horse, stripped of his limbs & his pride. surrounded by his own shit, & stuck in the same clothes for a year. like a trained swine. but none of that compared to the realization that his eldest son was going to die.
brows slightly narrowed, lips slightly part in remembrance. a breath pushing at an unarmoured chest. the haunt still remains in his lannister green eyes, & thin lips. his face so rich with the silent grief of a man living a lie. like you could tell the reel was still replaying the moment. nothing more degrading than being able to do nothing for the woman you love, & the son you made both. & right now, cersei wants nothing to do with him. not to mention his brother is in the dungeons.
“a few days ago, my own son told me that i was old, & useless.” he starts. chin slightly lowered, as he stares at his golden hand - studying the details. though eyes trail up soon enough, to regard her face. “& the day before yesterday - he proved himself right.” confiding in her... he needed someone, surely, & what better than someone impartial? someone he’s grown to trust, over the time he’s been back at the keep. “what kind of father can’t protect his own son?” he wonders. brows narrowing in disbelief. “maybe my father’s right. maybe, i should take the rock before he changes his mind.”