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Hey man, welcome to my still in progress and probably will be for a couple of weeks INDEPENDENT, PRIVATE MULTIMUSE. Formerly known as chxoticmuses. My name is Clarissa, I’m 23, and this blog is strictly 18 plus. I’m terrible at introductions so enough of me talking, here are some important links for right now: 

RULES/MUSES

INTEREST FORM

Musings side-blog: @dyingcfthirst

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Im about to go in the corner and start crying, shitting, and throwing up because I think the blog I moved over to got deleted or something ☹️

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Nvm tumblr gave it back bc they do love me after all 🥳🥳🥳 @artcfpeerpressure

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Also while we’re at it, like this if you’d like to possibly thread something on Disc.ord

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Im about to go in the corner and start crying, shitting, and throwing up because I think the blog I moved over to got deleted or something ☹️

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@tcpimpabutterfly ➡️ @artcfpeerpressure

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@tcpimpabutterfly ➡️ @artcfpeerpressure

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@tcpimpabutterfly ➡️ @artcfpeerpressure

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@tcpimpabutterfly ➡️ @artcfpeerpressure

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@tcpimpabutterfly ➡️ @artcfpeerpressure

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@tcpimpabutterfly ➡️ @artcfpeerpressure

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@tcpimpabutterfly ➡️ @artcfpeerpressure

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@tcpimpabutterfly ➡️ @artcfpeerpressure

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Also while we’re at it, like this if you’d like to possibly thread something on Disc.ord

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Also while we’re at it, like this if you’d like to possibly thread something on Disc.ord

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deeper sentence starters

“  where do you get your hope?  what keeps you going during all this?  ”

“  you know,  sometimes you don’t have to find the answers.  i think it can be enough to just admit you’re lost.  for now.  ”

“  sometimes,  i don’t feel like i’m real.  not unless i’m hurting in some way.  it’s not like i want to be in pain,  but i’m just so used to it.  i dunno what to do without it anymore.  ”

“  i just keep hoping that one day i’ll have something else motivating me— something more than stubbornness or spite. i wanna feel like i’m living.  ”

“  i learned the only thing i can believe in is me.  i have faith in myself.  that’s how i survived.  ”

“  i hope you know i’m proud of you.  i’ve seen how hard you’ve been fighting to get where you are.  you might feel stuck,  but you’re not.  you’ve come so far.  ”  

“   when i told you i loved you,  you know i meant that right?  i’m not talking just about all those warm feelings.  i’m talking about putting in the work.  i’m here to stay for the hard parts,  not just the pretty ones.  ”

“   you don’t have to find the perfect words,  just tell me what you’re feeling.  i’m here to listen.  ”  

“  you don’t have to carry it all.  humans aren’t made to be solitary creatures.  i want to help.  all you have to do is ask.  ”  

 “  i know i haven’t always been there in the past,  but i’m here now.  i’m trying.  please,  just let me in.  ”

“  i still care about you,  you know.  i could never stop caring about you.  but we were both drowning.  and one of us had to get out eventually.  ” 

“  i think you’re still my person.  and i’m hoping maybe one day,  i can be yours again too.  ”

“  i’ll still be here when you need me.  that will never change.  ”  

“  i love you.  but i can’t keep watching you destroy yourself.  i can’t sit here and watch that anymore.  it hurts too much.  ”  

“  i already forgave you.  so why can’t you forgive yourself?  ” 

“  it’s not about what you think you do or don’t deserve.  i get to choose who to love.  i’m an adult.  and i can make that decision.  so i’m here to stay.  i’m in this.  ”  

 “  if we’re going to do this again,  you have to promise it will be different.  you have to show me that you’re ready this time.  ” 

“   i don’t know how to make you believe that i can make us work again.  but i’m not going to give up.  i did that once and—  well,  i’m standing here again because it was the wrong choice.  give us another chance.  ” 

“  i’m lost without you.  and i’m not asking you to fix me or be something you’re not.  i’m just asking you to keep being the lighthouse you are just by being you.   and let me be guide myself by it.  ”  

 “   i’ve never been very good at letting go.  and now i feel like there’s too many burdens i’m holding on to and i don’t know how to get rid of them anymore.  ”  

“  why do you feel like you need to punish yourself so much?  ”

“  why do you keep saying that?  you’re not alone.  i’m standing right here.  ”

“  what are you so afraid of?  why won’t you let me in?  ”

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THE KINDNESS OF STRANGERS

Status: Accepting

@leopardos​ said: “ I love the sound of trains, don’t you? ” Ysmael / Monica

          The option to be rude, turn up the music that was softly playing in her ears even, and ignore the man trying to make conversation with her completely was always an option, but the coldness required for such an act was something Monica didn’t quite have in her. As nonchalant and uninterested as the woman came off as half of the time, there was more compassion in her heart then she’d like to admit; her career as a nurse wouldn’t have been able to survive otherwise. “I’ve lived in New York my whole life, so I really had no choice but to love it. Or rather get used to it.” She finally speaks up. “Not too pleasant when it shakes your whole apartment up when passing by, but it’s a custom out here at this point. Nothing screams New York more than trains and subways.”

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CRIME THEMED SENTENCE STARTERS

Status: Accepting

@leopardos​ said: “So you’re a drug runner or a drug dealer?” lauren / elián

           “It’s complicated.” And she came to the conclusion that it would remain complicated for at least a couple more months or maybe even a year because of her vague experience in the field, taking whatever jobs that came her way if the pay was good, whether it was drug running or dealing. Desperation called for hard times and she was stuck dead in the middle of it. “I guess you can say I promote myself as a drug runner, but every now and then someone will ask me to sale for them.” As uncomplicated as she could put it. “I try to stay clear of selling, its much more risky.”