The Future...is Now!?
I decided to do a rapid fire approach to blogging. Even though I wish to remain anonymous I will admit that these next few blogs I write (whenever I get around to it) will be of a more person manner compared to just my observations. Mostly to get my thoughts centered and focused. Blogging is just a glorified journal after all dear reader.
I will also make a disclaimer that I'm going to be rather forward rather quickly.
My apologies....sort of...
I'm in relationship with an incredible woman whom I love dearly. I can't express that enough. Over the past few days due to a specific scenario I won't mention here we have come across a few pastors from our church. One in particular mentioned how he was stalking us on facebook of all things. He didn't put it in those terms, I did, but still. Anyways, he asked how serious we were and of course we told him we were quite serious and all that and after he was pleased by the answer he went on his merry way.
Today I just heard about another pastor who asked if we were going to get married to a third party. The third party wisely stayed out of it and left the matter to us.
With all that being said, do I want to marry that woman? YES!!!
Can I afford to do that right now? Sadly, no!
Which brings me to my next point. Jobs. I'm searching all over and I'm on the edge of a potential gold mine if they would just let me in. Lord willing I land this job (it should already be mine) will I turn around and propose right off the bat? Nah, not the time yet.
My point in writing all this is to showcase that there comes a point in a man's life when it's time to "grow up" and take life more seriously. I've been there for quite some time now but it wasn't until I realized how much people are paying attention to us. Don't get me wrong, I'm quite flattered but it's real. I'm not dating her just to date. It's for the future. It's for that "someday." Are there ups and downs? Of course, such is life. These past two weeks have been a little rough but that makes us stronger. The moment I told her I loved her I knew it would be forever. That's a love I'll die for if it comes to it. Such is the point when a man knows his life is pointless without someone else in it. I'm such a hopeless romantic at heart despite my gruff exterior. It's sappy, I know.
To this I say: sweetheart I'll pursue you till the Sun itself gives out and I'll search for you even if it takes me to the other side of the globe or to the out most reaches of space itself. (Anyone want to fund my rocket ship design?)
There. That's real folks. That's passion, and life, and worry, and freedom, and even a little silliness all rolled up into one quick blog topic. I wouldn't have it any other way.