~Mystically Broken Au - Chapter 6~
This chapter is very short, sorry-!
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Warning: Heavy ANGST, thoughts about suicide, parent deaths, etc.
What is wrong with me? Why is this happening in the first place? We separate for YEARS and the only time I get back, Donnie gets taken away? I didn't even know that was possible. It was because of them, THEM.
But, doesn't this always make it my fault? I was the one who let him get taken away. Even argued with him.. let his lab get robbed! How could I? I should've died the day I ran out of food. I looked for help. But no one cared to even glance at me.
When I saw some filthy guy scam that old lady. I was about to get all the food I could ever need.. poor guy. He died a jerk. Oh well.
I can't help but think of Dad. Everytime I decide to take a life, I see my dad in the corner of my eye, looking at me with disgust and sadness. As well as guilt.
That scammer got what was coming to him. I wipe the blood off my odachi as I take a bite out of a piece of fruit.
I see my dad in the corner of my eye. But his gaze wasn't filled with love.
"Is this what you wanted? Don't look at me like that. I had to do it. I hate you. You're just a shell of a man. A HUSK! You have no right to judge me, splinter."
"You're not my son. My son would never hurt another person wheth it be for his survival or not. From this point forward, I have no son with the name 'leonardo'. "
He looked so ashamed. Like I was disgrace. He slowly walked back into the shadows.
"Pops.. I didn't mean it. I didn't mean it. I'm sorry! Dad! ..."
I felt so small, I found myself in an empty room.. looking for him, just like I did when I was little, when I was scared.
"Dad..? Please come back..!".
I didn't realize the tears that stained my cheeks. "pathetic" I murmur to myself. I'm sure my father- No. Splinter, would agree.
I turn my head to see them, looking at me.
I didn't mean to say it so coldly.
When I went to apologize to Leo, I heard him screaming and apologizing, who was he apologize to? I try to get closer to hear. But he saw me, he wiped his tears and looked at me.
It's like he wanted help. Should I help him? What if he pushed me away further? No, I can't let that happen.
"Any progress on finding Donnie?"
"You Don't get to call him that."
"Donatello, did you find his whereabouts?"
"No. Not yet. You should leave, we don't need you getting into other people's business. So go home."
"No. I promised I'd help you and I will."
"If you really wanted to help, you'd know what's good for you and leave."
You were about to fight back when you looked at his face, was he pleading..?
You replied as you shut the door behind you.
He knew he made a mistake, but what's one more mistake to his already mistaken life? He was a mistake. He knew that. But you.. you still persisted. He admired it.
I got some of the ideas from my friend: