relief.
Last night, I slept at my boyfriends house, I first went out, and normally would stay out till 2 or 3, but last night I had huge stomach pains(damn mother nature!) and had to leave earlier. I grabbed his house keys and went home dying slowly. When he came home later, he wasn't feeling well (stuffed nose) and we both just went straight to bed.
All throughout the night I kept having weird dreams, dealing with different scenarios in my life and kept waking up believing that they actually happened. One was where my boyfriend was screaming at me telling me we couldn't move in together anymore, and I woke up and looked at him and was instantly sad/mad! When he finally woke up I was off, and he just kinda didn't pay attention, as it is the first time he is waking up, and so I nuzzled closely and put on my cute face and said “can we cuddle?” and his response was “my nose, i can't lie still” which of course made me sad and I turned over and away from him. Then he did the most perfect thing any man could do.. he came and cuddled me and just nuzzled into my neck. My heart almost leaped out of my chest. I grabbed his arm and made him just hold me so tight.
Thats when I realized I had accumulated a little pool of liquid that some people call teardrops. And a little ‘click’ happened in my brain.. I had not realized how much I had truly missed him.
Recently, with just how life takes you, we hadn't been hanging out or talking for about a week or so, and I understand that happens in relationships! Just was such a crazy feeling to understand truly what it was like to just want to be in someones presence so badly it hurts. You crave their touch, and long for their lips on yours, just simply just be as one.
What a cool experience.