#paranoid.

[contessajellyfish]

someone texted me “hey is this contessa?” and i don’t recognize the number. my brain is very paranoid.

[waywardtriumphbeliever]

[carnivigorous]

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                               He’d be the type to, at random intervals, stop what he’s doing and stare at his webcam or laptop then turn any camera facing him away. Or in bathrooms get really close to the mirrors, cup his eyes so it’s dark and see if it’s a two way mirror. If he is being spied on, he would at least much rather have whoever’s watching him have a sense of ‘i know you’re there’ from him. It wouldn’t do him any good, but it adds a sense of rest amidst the constant belief that anyone could be watching at any time. He likes to think that it would keep whoever’s watching him on their toes.

[maximilliansilbert]

[thinkingoutloud4thesoul]

paranoid.

You know what gets me? Is how you can be in a relationship with someone and they just refuse to answer your texts after what feels like a year! To me a relationship is with someone who you want to be around always. So mostly you are always thinking of them too. For me, its the first thing I think about, my man, and I immediately grab my phone and text him. Thats just who I am! And I thought majority of people thought that way too! 

Its nice knowing you are thought of, especially in the morning, and also the last thing at night. 

But yet today, (Saturday) I had work! So I didn't go sleep over at my boyfriends house because it would have been too much of a hassle with my dog the next morning, so I stayed home alone. He is out for the evening working until 2 am on the weekends, and normally he calls when he is on his way home. Last night I did not receive a call nor text. So to my surprise this morning, I texted him and knew I would not get a response till later anyways, so off to work I went! Around 11 I tried texting him again as he is normally waking up around this time, and still no response. Got me wondering..

4 pm rolls around and I’m off work! Yes! But now when I look down at my phone, still no response, then finally decide 20 minutes later that I will call and leave a voicemail if he didn't pick up. And guess who left a voicemail? Me!

Finally he calls me back after 20 minutes, and acts like nothing is wrong, and is just distant, so I let him go back to hanging out with his buddy and then I get a whole bunch of texts from him, and now I’m thinking like “guess I woke up the bear, finally he can answer” 

And now its just awkward because I’m clearly upset, and he is just trying to act like nothing is wrong, and really there isn't, it just seems the little things don't happen anymore.

And really that just brings it back to my first point, shouldn't he have already said something to me, as he woke up and thought about me? Does that mean he isn't thinking about me as much anymore? Or simply that he forgot? 

-thinking out loud

[nonbinaryrobot]

I may go to bed early again.

I’m not really feeling like myself anymore (i havent been for awhile) and i’m getting paranoid of the smallest things once again and just

i have been slowly progressing back to the point where i’ve probably once again fucked up big time and everyone hates me or doesn’t give a shit about me anymore but i cant tell if that’s true or i’m seriously just extremely fucked up to the point of no return

and i dont want say stuff about it even tho im talking about it rn because like i feel like i’m being super clingy and just emotional abusing people i consider my friends and i don’t want to do that or come off that way at all 

im pretty sure i’ve hit rock bottom again i don’t even know to climb back out at this point.

[zoewashburne]

fanbingbings replied to your post: if leo fitz doesn’t make it out alive ...

why would you say that WHAT MAKES YOU THINK THAT HE IS GONNA DIE

LITERALLY NOTHING EXCEPT MY (IRRATIONAL?) FEAR OF LOSING A FAVE it just ~happens~ and then i get restless

and the worst thing is i’ve had these feelings before about characters that died WHICH IS WHY I GET SO ANXIOUS

[throneborn-blog]

each murder has to be answered for with another murder until we are out of people who can d i e.