Clearly, it must be me. I have never met someone so selfish in my life. It's my fault because I have gotten countless warnings as to why this relationship isn't going to work. When someone cares about your feelings they take heed to what makes you happy. They UNDERSTAND & acknowledge your worth. He does not do that. he feels as if he is exempt from doing what needs to be done in order to have a healthy MATURE relationship. Now he is younger. Yes! But does that excuse him for his actions?! NO! I have never been one to accept excuses for why a person can't get their shit together. Especially when what the person is doing effects others. I'm not here for it. How do you have someone continuously tell you that they are hurt or feeling neglected and you laugh if off and send lyrics to "Naggin" by ying yang twins. I'm just baffled, & what pisses me off more is for some reason I care, for some reason I feel like shit because he just doesn't get it. I'm mad at myself for hoping he talks to me. I'm waiting for him TO TALK TO ME! is this fucking REAL?! I get disrespected but yet I AM THE ONE being ignored and hoping for a fucking reply. Saying it out loud and reading it makes me want to kick my own ass. We all know our worth, we all know what we should put up with. but yet we accept less than that because, shit I really don't know. I'm 100 percent sure I can find another guy. I'm 200% sure that ill be just fine without him. But, for some reason my heart wants to fight with my brain. This Is Bull Shit. Fuck Him. Fuck his feelings. Fuck my dumb ass make me feel like a complete idiot feelings & fuck waiting for his verdict.
