Growing up
omg tomorow im gonna be uhum 25 (33) lmao so for the first time in my life im in peace with the fact , that father’s and mother’s side of the family aint part of it. they never where , and i always was hurt and mad sad, but now im celebrating my bday with people who care for me and know me best. and thats all i need , i was actully wanting to write a whole things about my family, but i deleted it, cause im pretty much done with them, im not perfect i admit that, but im not dissrespectfull and clueless to the people i love, if i love you, i got ya back, im loyal, im old school that way, but anyways, for the first time in years i really dont give a fuck about it, i blocked most of them on social media and phone, so they cannot bring me drama no more, im done with that, me and my mother have been through hell and back, and those clueless people’s idea of a problem is having problem not being able to get the newest of the newest crap on the market like an iphone or tv. damn thats fucked up priorities, but fuck them, i dont need new shit, i need loyalty , love, respect, and they dont know none of them, so exit for them,
i amazed myself by not ever caring this time, like i said usely im mad , sad, this time i truly dont give a fuck, im good. im blessed with my mom, my great aunt (girl friend of my great uncle the man who was like a father to me rip) my good friends , and most of all im blessed to be sitting here another day, thank to god, im know i complain and bitch , (who doesn't ) but im starting to love my life again and me , yes i still have shit days , and yes i sometimes look in the mirror and think fuck why is my life this way, but at the end of the day , the traumatic stuff ive been through made me into the woman thats sitting here typing here, listning to eminem lose yourself tryna help at least one person with my stories , i wanna help like eminem helpt me, so i hope i do reach at least one , and if i do, this is my messege to you, we will make it.. we will rise.. and we will conquer .
Nadiaah