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i aint mad at ya

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this is a video i made ,

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Growing up

omg tomorow im gonna be uhum 25 (33) lmao so for the first time in my life im in peace with the fact , that father’s and mother’s side of the family aint part of it. they never where , and i always was hurt and mad sad, but now im celebrating my bday with people who care for me and know me best. and thats all i need , i was actully wanting to write a whole things about my family, but i deleted it, cause im pretty much done with them, im not perfect i admit that, but im not dissrespectfull and clueless to the people i love, if i love you, i got ya back, im loyal, im old school that way, but anyways, for the first time in years i really dont give a fuck about it, i blocked most of them on social media and phone,  so they cannot bring me drama no more, im done with that, me and my mother have been through  hell and back, and those clueless people’s idea of a problem is having problem not being able to get the newest of the newest crap on the market like an iphone or tv. damn thats fucked up priorities, but fuck them,  i dont need new shit, i need loyalty , love, respect, and they dont know none of them, so exit for them,

i amazed myself by not ever caring this time, like i said usely im mad , sad, this time i truly dont give a fuck, im good. im blessed with my mom, my great aunt (girl friend of my great uncle the man who was like a father to me rip) my good friends ,  and most of all im blessed to be sitting here another day, thank to god, im know i complain and bitch , (who doesn't ) but im starting to love my life again and me , yes i still have shit days , and yes i sometimes look in the mirror and think fuck why is my life this way,  but at the end of the day , the traumatic stuff ive been through made me into the woman thats sitting here typing here,  listning to eminem lose yourself tryna help at least one person with my stories , i wanna help like eminem helpt me,  so i hope i do reach at least one , and if i do, this is my messege to you,  we will make it.. we will rise..  and we will conquer .

Nadiaah

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Is it me or is the world getting weirder and weirder by the day. I still cannot believe we live in this time where this shit is getting more Stanger by the minute. My face is in constant surprise mode lately. Some things shouldn't surprise me...but it does. I'm not gonna name specific things Cause when I did say specific things. Some people felt it was a personal attack. And it totally was NOT. I believe in freedom of speech. And I respect everyone's opinion even though I may not agree . You can say what you want and I can say what I want . Respectfully though. Cause like I said more than ones in my posts. freedom of speech is not a tool to insult anyone. But lately it is getting used for the wrong reasons. We focus on the bizarre and weird. But sometimes we forget the serious things. Because it's like we all are looking at a trainwreck waiting to happen. Cause we can't stop looking at the weird disasters happening. We all do even i. And I need to remind myself that there are more beter things to focus on than that weird ass shit. Xoxo Nadiaah

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I respect others opinions believes and political views. I hope others respect mine.

Cause I don’t see calling someone  an idiot just because they have different views of life a positive attitude not only for the one that hears it but to the one that says it. We can discuss and talk about it. But why yell and scream and cuss each other out. It doesn’t work for you or them. Freedom of speech is ment to be for all that can  say  what they want but with respect and dignity. Freedom of speech is not something to use to spit hate and racism and divide all whole world. Since we came from one place and  feel the same , hurt the same, laugh the same, mourn the same, Live the same.  And with that I mean we all wanna be happy , we all want to live in peace. I do not agree with some people . But I do not wish harm on anyone . Not even the ones that have hurt me so bad in my past. People can call me whatever.. I know who I am. I AM NOT A RACE , I AM NOT A FAITH. I AM NOT MY SEXUALITY. I AM NOT A POLITICAL VIEW. I AM NOT MY MISTAKES. I AM A HUMAN. I AM ME.. I MAY NOT LOOK LIKE YOU. BUT I FEEL LIKE YOU. HURT LIKE YOU.  LAUGH LIKE YOU . BLEED THE SAME RED COLOR LIKE YOU. WE ARE ALL ONE.. how corny this may sound. Yes we all are the  same. Some may not see it but it’s true.

I do not  judge people by the color  of their skin..believes sexual orientation or political views. I judge you by character.

You are not what you believe or look like or are attached to. You are what’s inside you character. Not what people think you are or want you to be.

Sorry long post but I had to share this

P.s It’s okay to see things differently than me. I respect your opinion and I hope you do respect mine.

Xoxox Nadiaah

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Family portrait

My family mine ain’t perfect . (Nobody’s family is perfect. ) We haven’t spoken for a long ass time. For the stupidest reasons. I have been mad of them because they never seemed to care. When my mom and I needed help Nobody was there . Even though some of em said they knew something was going on and had a feeling something bad was going on.

But this doesn’t mean my love for them is gone. I still love them somewhere in my heart. even though there where unforgivable things that happened. People may call me stupid for this reason . but the love doesn’t leave easily..why cause you try to hold on to the view little times that where good. And that’s okay. Just keep on moving forwards and forgive for you ,not for them for you. Cause you will never truly forget, What the people did that hurt you so bad. And I guess I will never forget the things that happened to me and the fact that my family left me and my mom alone in the dark..in a bad situation with Nobody to help us. While in the meantime they Kinda knew something was not going good. . My mom almost died and my dad was doing God knows what. he left me alone . Still Nobody did shit. But even though all of the drama and shit. I still love them..but not enough to want a relationship now. I’m done ..I used to want a family but not like this. Not a family that only talks to you when they need shit from you. I’m not saying they are bad people . I guess they don’t know any better. And that doesn’t make some things right. But I don’t want the toxicity of anger In me anymore. I’m tired..tired of the sadness and anger. I think ….It’s time to really let it all go. And try to find peace in the fact I will never get he answers I want . And that’s okay. Cause I’m not gonna let anyone dictate my life. I’m gonna try to heal ..this time I’m really gonna fight ..cause the anger and sadness may have won the battle but I will win the war . (I hope) P.s I wanna shout out to The small family I got is my 2 sisters my Mom and great aunt. Those are the ones that stuck by me through it all. And I’m thankfull for that. I love ya’ll. XOXO CO NADIAAH

I’m not perfect

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The truth always sounds strange. When you tell it.. But when other refuse to believe. Don't lie to make them believe. It's not your duty to make them believe what they want or not. The thing that matters the most is you know you are speaking the truth. That's all that matters. @iamnadiaah