#nailaa3loves

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Just watched Four little girls on a whim

shoulda known better than to fuck with a spike lee joint right now

fucking... fuck.

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Every time people are respectful of black women and my identity as a black woman I am very surprised and then touched.

not that this happens often...

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So my American government teacher is a racist old man from Jim Crow Alabama.

Today he tried to bait me into fighting with him.

Like, he was talking about how Israel is a great country for forcing military service and we should do that here in the states. He pronounces I-rack and I-ran, even though I've corrected him hundred times.

A couple classes ago he stated that "Afghanis" are backwards and Uncivilized. They have no real politics or government. That the only thing they can do is keep people from invading. He is a racist old fool, who purposefully says offensive xenophobic shit to try and get me to yell at him. And there are these two derailing white guys in my class who are constantly telling me to calm down and that I should just let it go and never call him on his shit.

He is an oppression apologist who has no fucking place instilling his backwoods, xenophobic thinking into the minds of young white kids who will take it at face value and never think to question it's wrongness. He has no place encouraging them to try and silence my opinions, since he is so adamant about expressing his.

Until now our school has only had southern white management. But the principal this year is a younger, black woman who doesn't take shit from anyone. Tomorrow morning I am going to speak with her about my Government teacher, because this shit has got to stop.

I will not sit through this same class I took in 8th and 10th grade- with a different name- listening to some fucking old man preaching this bull shit all semester.

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in physics being bored to death lol text it~~~~~~~

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the new tumblr app absolutely does not work on my phone...

HALP

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Having male non-black poc friends and knowing their families are wishing and praying that you aren't romantically involved because a black girl is the worst he could do and god forbid you two get married and have dark babies.

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Omg don't watch snow on tha bluff unless you want to cry omg It's rough times right now.

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I'm so frustrated. I can't stand my fucking classmates. Their white bullshit privileged lives and ugh. Their forcing their way into every nook and cranny of culture and society, whether they're wanted or not. Assuming that they matter all the time and having that assumption validated. I am choking on my anger. I want to cry or scream or hit someone. I am not even sane or collected enough to write or articulate the horrible way in which I feel. I am beyond furious that they will never know that they drove me insane. I wish that I could go to sleep and never wake up. I wish there was somewhere in the world that I could go to escape this whiteness that surrounds me and is slowly killing me. The stress of it make my heart beat too fast and my chest tighten. I just don't know what to do.