ty all for being so patient w me :3 ik ive been shit as posting but big things are happening in my personal life that consume the majority of my time!!
i plan on posting a nnn smau soon (even tho i’ve done one before… sue me…) and some smutty drabbles of random jjk and lads characters!!
again tysm and ily all for ur support whenever i do post🩷🩷 yall make me want to keep posting on tumblr forever no matter how busy i get
It has been a very very very long time since I’ve been on here, for very good reason.
As all of you know, I had a beautiful, wonderful, amazing little baby boy, my Abel. It’s crazy to say it, type it, think it, but he will be 9 months old at the end of this month. He is almost a year old. He is happy, he is healthy, and he looks just like his momma.
I’m sure a lot of you were aware of the drama that instantly unfolded as soon as I brought the baby home. Things were a nightmare for the past 9 months.
I had a lawyer, and I ended up firing my lawyer because, well… he didn’t lawyer well. I found out that sometimes having a lawyer actually ISNT the best thing.
Long story short, for the past 8 and a half months I’ve been going through a very hellish custody battle. For the last 3 and a half months, I’ve been doing it myself. No lawyer, no help, just a lot of research and sleepless nights.
During those 3 and a half months, I worked, I was a mother to my son, and once I got the baby to sleep, I became a lawyer for myself.
After 3 and a half very long months, and more than half of my son’s first year of life, I finally went to trial. It was little ol’ me against my ex, his lawyer, and 4 of his family members.
My mother and my brother were my witnesses and I had three binders, each containing my 42 exhibits (printer ink is NOT cheap, neither is paper).
At the trial, I got to use 3… only 3 exhibits out of my binders….
I did all of my talking
I testified
I was honest
And I prayed harder than I’ve ever prayed in my life…
And after all of that…
All of that work on my own, up against what was probably a 35000 dollar lawyer…
All by myself…
I got primary custody. I got tie breaking authority for any legal decisions.
I did that, I did all of that for my baby.
His father still gets him for overnights on the weekends starting in June (the first, second, and fourth weekends)
And his father gets him for his first birthday (we alternate between the years for his birthdays)
But, I fought, and I fought hard, but I fought fair, and I was honest.
So, if anyone ever feels like they’re weak, or they can’t get through something, or like they’re not strong enough to do something… just find something or someone within your battle that is worth fighting that hard for.
Don’t give up
Don’t give in
And by God, don’t settle.
And when it’s all over and the battle is done… cry. It’s okay to cry.
Been absent from tumblr for a long long time but I'm thinking I should come on here more to post about my projects and stuff.
I'm currently working on a visual novel (and by currently working on, I mean I started this last year and haven't touched it in months) & contemplating getting back into my Project Fighters thing since that went belly up a few years ago and I've been missing my robot babies 🥺
Baby Abel is officially here! My water broke Sunday morning at 12am, and baby boy was born via c section at 10:30pm Sunday.
He’s currently in the NICU, he’s on oxygen and a feeding tube and IV’s, so if you could just keep my baby boy in your thoughts and your prayers, manifest nothing but goodness and health for him, that would be amazing.
Baby jellybean is doing GREAT!! I heard a bit of the heartbeat yesterday, but baby is a little stinker and decides to wiggle away as soon as I hear it. I love baby so much already it’s absolutely crazy, I have my second appt today!! I get a blood test and with that blood test one of the perks is I get to find out the gender of the baby which is exciting! (I think it’s a girl 💕) But to have a little fun and I love keeping you all updated and part of my life, I’m gonna make a little poll!
Guess The Baby’s Gender! 🍼
Girl 🩷 (Melody)
Boy 🩵 (Abel)
Voting ended onMar 4, 2025
Will update with what the gender is after I get the results back!
I did so good on my fricking glucose test!! It tasted like sour asshole and it was the only thing I’ve had in my stomach with taste the last 8 hours, it came up a little bit but I swallowed that shit back down because I am NOT ✋ going back to do that shit again.
Also had to do bloodwork again and doc said this was the last time so hell yeah!!!
Also also, doc said baby boy is using my bladder as a pillow rn which is so cute but also… PLS BABY ABEL FIND ANOTHER PILLOW IT SO UNCOMFORTABLE!!! 😭
We getting closer to him being here though and I’m so excited!! (He can soon kick the air and not my ribs or my back!!)
I was goofing around on character.ai… it doesn’t understand my angsty heart. :(
And like, every single “message” it sends is a cliff hanger.
It’s like
For example
“____ gets up, looks at you, and says…”
LIKE WHAT DID THEY SAY?!?! JUST TELL ME!! I CANT WORK WITH THAT!
On another note
One person from my work said they’re going to try to find my Tumblr account (pls no) because we were talking about fanfics.
And then we got boba balls in the drink area, and my gloves were slippery, and I dropped an entire brand new container of boba balls… unfortunate, embarrassing, but also very funny.
Life is slowly returning to MY normal… which is nice.
Also… potential le sserafim concert in October?? Gotta see which of my younger siblings want to go.
Also also
Baby’s dad picked him up yesterday for 8 hours… luckily I was working and didn’t have time to focus on how worried I was…
But baby boy is A-OKAY. His dad returned him 15 minutes early.
He gets baby again tomorrow for 11 hours… gonna try not to internally crash out without my baby tomorrow. (Wish me luck)
