#nanaspeaks

[jazzering]

Will coming out just before doomsday is wild and I love him for that

[nanasmusic]

hey nana…….

[zoruble]

Dungeon meshi single-handedly improving my outlook on food (and sexuality if you would believe it) was one of the highlights of this year

[witch3aly]

oh fuck me never thought i’d want to be a water bottle but here we are

[nanastudies]

anyone wanna add me on duolingo? my username is @jegheternana 

[jazzering]

Quidditch '76 - Jily - word count: 455

James had seen many girls in his life, and he always found a trait he liked in each of them. Some were cute like Mary, or charming like Dorcas, even as dashing as Marls was—but none of them could ever compare to this moment.

Because across from him was Lily Evans.

With her scarlet red hair dancing around her like flames as she soared across the Quidditch pitch, her robes flying wildly against the wind like the world was trying to catch up to her.

James felt stuck in his spot, he was supposed to be in the air—practicing for his game against Ravenclaw next week, but he couldn't—Merlin, he couldn't.

Not with her here. Not with Lily—sweet Lily—playing a casual game with her friends, just across the pitch.

She flew up and over, wobbling around. She was absolutely abysmal at flying, but she was smiling as bright as the sun. James recalled a myth he heard from Remus, about a boy named Icarus.

Right now—he felt like Icarus. And Lily Evans was his perfect, beautiful sun.

His chest felt tight seeing her, like he'd just run the whole perimeter of Hogwarts twice.

He always thought Lily was pretty, but pretty couldn't possibly describe what he was seeing. Pretty was a word he said when he wanted to flatter someone. Lily was alive. Everything about her danced.

She was wild, careless even. She was confident, strong, and so beautiful. James could be smacked in the head by a Bludger right now and he wouldn't care. Wouldn't even notice. Because his eyes were fixed looking at her.

She was smiling. Laughing! What was she laughing at? He wanted to be the reason she was laughing. To see her eyes crinkle, to watch her smile spread across her face and ruin him completely.

And then—Merlin, what was he thinking? His stomach lurched. This was Lily Evans. Evans. The girl who hated him. The girl whom Snivellus was friends with.

He should not—he could not—be feeling this way. It wasn’t just ridiculous, it was dangerous. But even as he told himself that, his heart only beat faster, traitorously thrilled that it was her.

Just then, Lily met his eyes and he felt the world screech in its tracks. All he saw was her, and her eyes, and how she was looking back at him. His mind raced, chanting her name like a spell—Lily, Lily, Lily—

”Oi, Potter!” she called. Oh, sweetheart, what do you need? His name sounded perfect leaving her lips, just like how everything about her was perfect.

“Watch out, Prongs!” He heard Sirius exclaim loudly, and before he could turn to him, his vision was completely smashed by a rogue bludger. So much for not noticing.

[zoruble]

Its honestly fascinating how, despite being a cis woman i end up relating to trans women more?? Theres almost an awkward disconnect when i talk to cis women

Now i know this is probably weird and i usually dont talk abt stuff like this on here

I believe it has to do with the fact i never felt i was allowed to be feminine bc of my insecurities, and to top it off the people bullying me treated me like i wasnt a real woman anyway bc of my body/facial hair and masculine facial structure.

To bigots i will never be woman enough anyway!

Hearing my gf talk abt the stuff she went through made me kinda realise this stuff. Add my therian-ness to that and you get a 12yr old girl who wants to run away and be a wolfgirl (although at that time it was zoroark)

Its hard for me to explore my gender identity this way, bc i still feel weird, but i think being a “performing lesbian” (having a gf) makes me happy to be a woman.

If i had to put it in a timeline, my gender expression would go something like this:

Ages 0-10: i am a girl i like girly things (not exclusive btw i played with hot wheels as much as my unicorn toys)

10-18~: its weird if i enjoy feminine things bc i am not worthy of being a girl also i look ugly in anything girly, i get called a man mockingly alot(this and the bullying made me the most annoying pick me girl in the early years)

18- now???: i dont need to perform femininity to be a woman, haters can fuck themselves ?? (Still in progress i guess idk)

I felt rlly bad for a while bc I thought it was weird of me to think all this stuff and I thought i was invading trans spaces, i thought even being attracted to my gf was like being a chaser bc shes trans, but shes since helped me get over the guilt.

Sorry if this is incoherent i wrote this on the train ride to my gf’s and im sleep deprived and the only thing in me is a loca moca monster so my brain has been thinking more than its ever thunk so i just wanted to write them down somewhere

Anyway fuck i love my gf, fuck transphobes

[zoruble]

I GOT THIS GUY YIPPEEE (in 419 eggs)

You don’t understand this pokemon is my fave of all time i would die for him