For five years, I stayed by your side. Even when others told me to leave, we have two beautiful children together that I now raise on my own. For five years, I was loyal. Even when others said you didn't deserve me, and you said I didn't deserve you. For five years I gave you my friendship, as you gaslighted me, told me no one would love me with two children (that are yours), that I was fat. For 2 years I waited, waited for you to come home, knowing you weren't where you said you were, knowing the lies on your face because I was after all, your best friend. Playing stupid, being mistreated because after all that time I started to believe what you said. Til' the final breaking point, and leaving your toxic narcissistic self. Who knows what other lies you've told, as you are currently on opium and lying at an all time high. I think the worst part is even though you treated me so shitty, and did everything you did I still feel bad for you. At first I felt bad for our kids, but than I realized it's not their loss, it's yours. I'm sure you'll find some way to blame me for the reason you chose to half ass be in their life. Like you always do on any other situation. But it's honestly a shame, because for 5 years I never felt good enough, you told me I wasn't worthy. I finally realize that wasn't what you actually thought out me. It was what you were projecting of yourself on to me.