has it really been 4 days since our Nation's 48th Birthday? time certainly did fly fast.
i remember why i joined NDP'13- to be the Contingent Commander for RCY. perhaps i was inspired by the CC from RCYNDP'09, she was my VI, my senior.
looking pass at all my other seniors doing so well in HQ Ops, and here i am.. a lowly Unit VI. i know there will never come the day that i will stand in the same ranks as my senior. neither will i ever surpass my senior, so i thought that at least by being the CC would make my seniors & juniors proud of me too (once again, see that shallow need to be noticed)
that aside, i love Singapore and i really wanted a chance to represent the UG i love on the Floating Platform during National Day itself. i clearly remember in NDP'09 when i was just a First Aider, during one of its NEshow, it rained heavily during the National Anthem. we stood there, saluting together with all the Army personnels under the rain. THAT PRIDE- could not be explained. and i knew that i want to feel that pride once more before i end my journey with RCY.
though this year, this opportunity was given to someone else... there is not one time i wished that it was me instead. as i stood there at the highest point of the seating gallery. i closed my eyes, and tried to feel the ambience of the Nation's pride. i nearly cried.
not to mention that i also wished at that point of time that i had the honour of leading the RCY Contingent.
with all these being said, i had to stop myself from going overboard. to top it all off, one of my dearest NBSRCY cadets was not inside the main contingent due to her attendance.. and i really felt sad for her as she had to watch her other 5 batchmates march onto the Floating Platform while she stayed inside.
all these while, i was looking forward towards the end of this tiresome NDP'13 journey. i was glad that there were a group of cadets whom i really am proud to call them my clique during this journey - they encouraged me, helping me to pull through each training, waking up early, and fasting with them too. though they do not know it, but they were truly my source of strength. thank you kids.
not to mention that i'm super proud of my NBSRCY kids for persevering and finally to be able to march in the contingent. proud of you kids.
and now i wonder.. will i ever be given the chance of to feel that pride and lead that contingent?
perhaps not in RCY? but i do want it so badly to participate as a CC, oh that pride to be in.. perhaps in SPF? (:
but in all honesty, i'm glad that it's finally over.
