It’s #NEDAawarenessweek 💜 Me in the left picture: depressed, anxious, scared, starving, desperate for help. I hated myself. I hated my body, my life, I hated everything. I was pretending I was fine and never imagined being able to live without my eating disorder. I was overwhelmed by not only food, but everything in life. I was just miserably existing. Now, I’m the me in the right picture. Healthier, happier, enjoying school and work, and finally actually living life. Of corse it’s still hard sometimes and I still struggle with my body image, but I never ever thought I could make it this far in recovery. I never thought I’d be able to eat all my old fear foods (which by the end turned into basically every food), or to drink a Starbucks drink as made- instead of a nonfat sugar free lowest-calorie-possible drink. It sounds silly but I’m proud of that venti sugar filled caramel macchiato in my hand! It’s so crazy how much happier I’ve become, I truly never thought it was possible and I’m so proud of myself for choosing recovery over and over again even during the toughest times. Six long, hard months and about 20 pounds later, I’m still learning how to love and accept myself, but I’m in a much better place than I was before and I’m very thankful for that. #edrecovery #NEDA #NEDAawareness #recoveryisworthit
