Regina G. Santaella

Instagram: reginagsant

[regina-sant]

Sometimes when I talk about myself the word “we” slips out instead of “I” because I’ve got like 3 personalities and 6 different voices in my head. . . #portrait #portraiture #portraitphotography #neurodiversity

[fuwaprince]

US Helplines:

Depression Hotline: [phone]

Suicide Hotline: [phone]

LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255

Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386

Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743

Eating Disorders Hotline: [phone]

Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673

Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272

Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000

Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253

Child Abuse: 1-800-422-4453

UK Helplines:

Samaritans (for any problem): 08457909090 e-mail [email protected]

Childline (for anyone under 18 with any problem): 08001111

Mind infoline (mental health information): 0300 123 3393 e-mail: [email protected]

Mind legal advice (for people who need mental-health related legal advice): 0300 466 6463 [email protected]

b-eat eating disorder support: 0845 634 14 14 (only open Mon-Fri 10.30am-8.30pm and Saturday 1pm-4.30pm) e-mail: [email protected]

b-eat youthline (for under 25’s with eating disorders): 08456347650 (open Mon-Fri 4.30pm - 8.30pm, Saturday 1pm-4.30pm)

Cruse Bereavement Care: 08444779400 e-mail: [email protected]

Frank (information and advice on drugs): 0800776600

Drinkline: 0800 9178282

Rape Crisis England & Wales: 0808 802 9999 1(open 2 - 2.30pm 7 - 9.30pm) e-mail [email protected]

Rape Crisis Scotland: 08088 01 03 02 every day, 6pm to midnight

India Self Harm Hotline: [phone]

India Suicide Helpline: 022-27546669

Kids Help Phone (Canada): 1-800-668-6868

FREE 24/7 suicide hotlines:

Argentina: 54-0223-493-0430

Australia: 13-11-14

Austria: 01-713-3374

Barbados: 429-9999

Belgium: 106

Botswana: 391-1270

Brazil: 21-233-9191

China: 852-2382-0000

(Hong Kong: 2389-2222)

Costa Rica: 606-253-5439

Croatia: 01-4833-888

Cyprus: 357-77-77-72-67

Czech Republic: 222-580-697, 476-701-908

Denmark: 70-201-201

Egypt: 762-1602

Estonia: 6-558-088

Finland: 040-5032199

France: 01-45-39-4000

Germany: 0800-181-0721

Greece: 1018

Guatemala: 502-234-1239

Holland: 0900-0767

Honduras: 504-237-3623

Hungary: 06-80-820-111

Iceland: 44-0-8457-90-90-90

Israel: 09-8892333

Italy: 06-705-4444

Japan: 3-5286-9090

Latvia: 6722-2922, 2772-2292

Malaysia: 03-756-8144

(Singapore: 1-800-221-4444)

Mexico: 525-510-2550

Netherlands: 0900-0767

New Zealand: 4-473-9739

New Guinea: 675-326-0011

Nicaragua: 505-268-6171

Norway: 47-815-33-300

Philippines: 02-896-9191

Poland: 52-70-000

Portugal: 239-72-10-10

Russia: 8-20-222-82-10

Spain: 91-459-00-50

South Africa: 0861-322-322

South Korea: 2-715-8600

Sweden: 031-711-2400

Switzerland: 143

Taiwan: 0800-788-995

Thailand: 02-249-9977

Trinidad and Tobago: 868-645-2800

Ukraine: 0487-327715

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ALWAYS REBLOG WHEN YOU SEE SOMETHING LIKE THIS PLEASE; ITS SO MUCH MORE THAN IMPORTANT TO PEOPLE. IT MEANS EVERYTHING TO SOMEBODY AND EVEN THOUGH YOU MIGHT NOT SEE THIS IN THE SAME LIGHT, SOMEONE MIGHT. INFACT YOU REBLOGGING THIS COULD STOP SOMEONE TAKING THEIR LIFE TONIGHT.

[sxcietyfeels]

💔.

[minus-the-negative]

You don’t have to earn your support.

minusthenegative.com

[regina-sant]

When @laurenbsag told me about coming up with my definition of mental health for @liberomagazine ‘s #RedefiningMH campaign for #MentalHealthMonth I freaked out a bit because I wanted to come up with this super smart and meaningful quote. As soon as I started feeling this pressure I always put on myself, it hit me: for me, mental health is about letting myself be. I’ve wasted too many years trying to change the “wrong” in me, beating myself up for my chemically flawed brain. Let me tell you, faking mental stability is EXHAUSTING and it only makes things worse. So yes, perhaps my list of disorders does make me a human roller coaster, but that’s okay. Sometimes I’ll still have to close my eyes, hold on in terror and scream bloody murder; but other times I’ll get to raise my hands up in the air and enjoy the ride, because having spent so much time in the darkness really does make the light all the more beautiful. . Feel free to participate using the #RedefiningMH hashtag 🤸🏻‍♀️ . . #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawarenessmonth #mentalillness #portraiture #recovery

[regina-sant]

I died at 24. Very few of you know how much of a miracle it is that I’m here today. So much happened last year, I honestly, genuinely thought I wouldn’t make it past 24. You see, I reached new and unknown levels of hell that taught me what “rock bottom” REALLY means. I was preparing to say my goodbyes. The very few times I’ve opened up about what really happened, I’ve said “I almost died”, because my heart did literally almost stop beating. However, I’m now realising I did die in a way, and this isn’t necessarily a bad thing, because I was forced to be “born” again. I’m still the same sarcastic person who dances in the middle of supermarkets, but this destruction and “rebirth” hurt like a motherfucker and, well, massive amounts of pain can change someone. Truth is, if we haven’t had real contact in the last year, you don’t really know me anymore. I was raised to be modest and humble, I don’t brag, so trust me when I say what I did is downright BADASS. I dragged my own ass away from my dark little dance with death and I did it literally all by myself; no friends, no family, no professionals (this is not ideal, if you do have access to any kind of help please go for it!). I had to be my one and only support system. Turns out, I have the strength of a thousand suns and I’m so fucking proud of myself because I’M STILL ALIVE AND I MADE IT TO 25 BITCHES YAAAASSSS!!!! (at Barcelona, Spain)

[urbanthropologie]

ways to start feeling again

sit in the sun without anything to do, feel the heat of the rays hit your skin, realize that this sunlight has travelled a very long way to reach you

walk around barefoot and try to feel as much of the ground under your feet as you can, notice every rock and blade of grass

sit quietly for a while and notice the touch of breath in your nostrils, feel how the air gets cooler as you inhale and warmer as you exhale

drive around aimlessly and blast some of your favorite songs, scream/sing along to them and feel the vibrations of your favorite lyrics as they change the air in your throat and around you, feel that the music is healing you from the inside out

stay away from alcohol or drugs for a few days, try to be as aware and present as you can in every moment, stop trying to numb or dull your senses

eat a few meals without any distractions, notice every bite and taste every flavor that covers your tongue, be grateful for it all

look up at the stars and the moon, understand how small we all are and how immense the universe is, realize what a miracle everything is, let your heart swell with amazement and admiration for life itself

[nuclearvampire]

You know something we don’t get taught often?  Why bodies with uteri often have a slight pouche. You wanna know why? Because the uterus leans against the outside wall of the abdominal cavity. The uterus is literally making that little pouche, the belly that we call fat all the fucking time, and that’s why it’s so fucking hard to get a absolutely flat belly! And thank fuck for having a female anatomy professor who is old enough and feminist enough to not give a damn and cheerfully tell us all the details that a male professor might have thought unimportant.  Cause fuck this society that ignores organs in order to fat-shame us.

[rairii]

I had no idea. Like, absolutely no idea.

[roachpatrol]

i did not know this at all

[pyreo]

I have known for a long time but ONLY BECAUSE!! of this drawing guide for Lilo and Stitch that specifically directs the artists to draw the lil uterus bulge. I saw it many years ago and I think about it every time I look at myself and feel bad for not seeing a straight line.

[regina-sant]

“I must be a mermaid. I have no fear of depths and a great fear of shallow living.” - Anaïs Nin . . . . . . . . #cancun #beach #beachlife #mexicolors #mextagram #vitaminsea #tropical #caribbean #endlesssummer (at Cancún México)

[regina-sant]

“I have several mental disorders, I’ve been suicidal, I’ve been raped, I’ve self-harmed, and still it is my Anorexia that has brought me the most agonizing pain.” - I found this in my recovery journal and I honestly wasn’t planning on sharing it because it’s harsh, but hiding so many secrets about my struggles since I was a child literally almost killed me so I’m done. Today is the last day of @neda ‘s #EatingDisorderAwarenessWeek and I know I haven’t been all rainbows and butterflies about how magical life without an ED is, because this time I needed to focus on making ignorant people aware of how absolutely fucking devastating these illnesses are. Like I’ve said before, for those who are struggling, “Eating Disorder Week” doesn’t come to an end, because every week is Eating Disorder week, hell, every single day is Eating Disorder day. Every meal is a battle. So, if my constant oversharing is too intense and making you uncomfortable, I’m not sorry at all. . . . . . . . . #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #mentalhealth #mentalillness #mentalhealthawareness #recovery #prorecovery #edsoldiers

[embracingwild]

The middle of recovery is awful. It does not feel good. There are moments where it will be clear why you are doing this, ones that will take your breath away. But a majority of the time you will question everything, your thoughts will be racing so much that you will feel like you can’t breathe. You will spend countless days wondering why things can’t be quiet, wondering why you are bothering to work so hard when not fighting would be effortless. Recovery does not feel good. If you are looking around you and are ashamed because you are not in love with this process, please, listen to me. Take a deep breath- It’s okay. It’s okay to hate it. It’s okay to say it sucks. It’s okay to want to give up, to struggle immensely, to be angry, to be uncomfortable (you should be!). and it’s okay to not understand why your smile still feels empty when your stomach is full again. Recovery does not feel good. For goodness sake, I hate it!!! Do not mistake my positivity for perfection. I am not walking through this fire gracefully. I burn and fall and become ashes. And every morning I rise and face the flames over and over again.

So please, do not beat yourself up if you are feeling like a failure for not being happy and perfect. Healing is not linear. And you are still brave.

[howilearnedtocope]

This was true for me too, but recovery was still the best thing I ever did. Hang in there, it’s worth it <3

[regina-sant]

I follow the palm trees like Dorothy follows the yellow brick road 🤸🏻‍♀️🌴☀️ . . . . . . . . #beachlife #barcelona #spain #travel #nature #beachplease (at Rambla del Raval, Barcelona)

[regina-sant]

#Dissociation is fun because you never know what you’re going to get. Will I make an abstract painting out of the sound of an ambulance? Will my mind leave this planet while my body is crossing the street, causing an ambulance to run me over? It’s a surprise 🤗 . . . . . . . . #beachlife #mexico #beach #tropical #caribbean #bikini #beachbum #neurodiversity (at Playa Maroma, Mexico)

[regina-sant]

I heard funny noises when I saw these little rocks and I spent like an hour picking up the ones that chose me so I know they mean something to me but I still don’t know what. Side note: I just read what I wrote and I know it doesn’t make any sense but it makes a lot of sense to me, does that make sense? . . . . . . . . #beachlife #closeup #beach #barcelona #travel #nature #pattern #beachbum (at Platja de la Barceloneta)

[johnnyjoestarrelatable]

oh this is my goldfish his name is wet little bitch

[johnnyjoestarrelatable]

this is the funniest thing i’ve read in my entire whole life

[eatingdisorderconfession]

28807) Today is my 3 year recovery anniversary. I'm not fully better, but I'm not where I started either. Recovery is fucking hard and takes a damn long time. But it's life changing. Here's to those of us stuck in the middle. One day we will push through the ground and sprout up through the dirt.

Holy shit this gave me chills

[regina-sant]

“ONE DAY WE WILL PUSH THROUGH THE GROUND AND SPROUT UP THROUGH THE DIRT.”

[eatingdisorderconfession]

“Climb the mountains. Do not carry them.”

— j.m.n (via jlivingwell)