#negative kinda

[ngalitzine]

some things regarding heated rivalry

i feel like my head is spinning because i read the books in the fall and really liked them. best books of all time? no way. tbh rachel reid is a very mid writer BUT hollanov's dynamic is interesting snd she does write dialogue really well imo. her issue is prose. but still! good romance books. average romance books. what makes them standout is no third act break up. which is So rare and lovely.

and then i was excited for the show!! like so excited! and then the show was so good! YAY!

but like.

i feel winded by just how much this has broken containment. it's ridiculous how much weirdness has come from this. especially hudson and connor being treated like babies, sex objects, your best friend, all at once. dude you dont know these men! what are you talking abt. and if u feel anything negative abt anything ur a hater. i'm allowed to get the ick that hudson keeps romanticizing smoking. i'm annoyed when ppl i know do it too. it's not that serious! but now all of this fucking weiedness is tainting the show for me. i hate this i wish everyone would shut up now lowkey

[the-one-who-lambs]

Me: I don't know if my ideas are worth sharing, I'm losing engagement from my readerbase these past few months so I must be doing something wrong, I don't think I've really accomplished anything as a writer.

Some person in my AO3 comments hyped as FUCK for the Risen Lamb/Fallen God rewrite:

[mooity]

I would love for there to be one George stream where people could talk about George without going “dream” “invite dream” “bring dream” “imagine how jealous dream is” “dream is so jealous of ___”. The jokes were funny at first. But now they just kinda annoy me.

My Man is more than just dream.

Edit: for the record, I love dream. I love his content as well as his Dynamic with George but I just wish people could talk about and appreciate one without mentioning the other.

[adreamcalledeternity]

Feeling awful on Valentine's Day is something I feel like I'm going to have to get used to. I don't mean to self pity, but feeling worthless and unlikeable, esp on a day where people show how much they love each other, really stings esp when it's almost daily.

I just needed to mini vent ig. Thank you and I love you to all my friends, esp those who talk and play with me, and remind me that I am a good friend. I swear I owe my sanity to you guys, and I genuinely appreciate the love you show me ♥

[lesbianb]

[foxships]

I just woke up feeling weirdly sad and a little uncomfortable and I'm getting those dumb "i'm not loveable' thoughts so uhhhh I'm just gonna try to think about my more clingy f/os, who would latch onto me and cuddle me and kiss me and say super cute and loving things to me

[rnaryjune]

mitski was so right when she said i’ve been big and small and big and small and big and small again and still nobody wants me

[preyedwolf-a-blog]

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for me writing smut is more abt writing feelings than the actual actions so it appeals to me but honestly idk if my writing is just wangsty when i prattle on about feelings lol

i mean i honestly dont mind if my writings goofy, i just do it for fun but w smut im weary cuz bad smut is a lot worse than bad. standing around talking 😂