A darkness of hope, a ray of despair
Warning tags: Negative perspective, dark themes, death themed, implications of death.
Trigger warning: This write is based on the implications of death/suicide. It remotely speaks about these two topics throughout.
Inspiration: Dazai Osamu. A fictional character from the anime called bungou stray dogs (bsd).
A/n: Ummm the thought for this one came to me while thinking about why Dazai always fails in his attempt to die. Since the theme for this is death, I'd like to warn those who are uncomfortable with reading things based on such topics to proceed with caution.
If the world was a pitch dark room, you would be that tiny spark of light reaching for me from the other side of this seemingly endless chamber. Stretching out your long arms to embrace me in your comforting ambience, calming my tensed up nerves as they find solace in you. I don't deny your gentle clasp, but I can't seem to accept it either.
Is this really what I want? Is this really what I call home? Where I'm willing to sell my soul? Where I crave for a better place?... Is this the better place?
A sudden rush of warmth hits the flesh red organ pounding in my chest interrupting my train of thought. I stop myself, pull myself away from the peace I find in you, pull myself back into the darkness, waiting for another, brighter, godlike light to reach out to me...
I open my eyes to find myself still alive in this darkness. It's cold. Harsh. Frightening and lonely. But, still alive... waiting.
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