#negativefession

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i despise being in such heavy shitfs to the extent i can't stop thinking about finding my canonmates. i miss them so fucking much-

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(Rant) I dont want to be UF Pap. Or any kin. But I seemed to of latched onto the idea. I dont like UF Pap at all. Or any character. Their too edgy for no reason. And just awful monsters like no thanks. I want to talk to others like me. I think I have osdd. Can't be too sure.

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why has it gotten to a point where it's more 'valid' to be kin with something than being a system mate born as something? like seriously it's historically a common thing but instead nope I constantly hear system people mention how they pretend their kin with themselves just to be accepted wtf

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I wish I could feel comfortable in spaces where I should technically feel welcome in. But I'm either so disconnected from their usual topics of conversation regarding these sorts of identities, that I never feel right joining in or I just feel like they might get annoyed that I'm not simply restricted to one universe for this kintype and thus don't have a lot of concrete anything.

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I would love it if the community as a whole stopped deciding what is a meme kintype / identity / system mate and what is not. I would like to not be considered if I ask for something from a blog or just existing on my blog how anything to do with me could be a liar or someone just trying to be edgy or whatever other thing happens. I don't want to think about it. I wish I could just hang out and exist like anyone else. I formed for a reason and I just want to live even if my luck seems to suck. K

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you know you're unlucky when you're kin with a beta character design or concept characters

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i hope this is ok to vent but damn do i hate double culture. like the stress and pressure it can cause even between friends can be so damaging. sure was for me at least, reason i wish it didn't exist. no person should have to comfort their friend constantly that 'doubles arent trying to personally attack you' that 'doubles are not doing this just to make you upset and invalidate you' and literally have to lie about my own kintypes to make my xfriend feel allowed to exist and not threaten suicide

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Stop insisting I'm the host. I'm not! I'm nothing like him! Leave me alone and let me exist as my own self and not be trapped in his shadow including projecting his kin on me!