The arc with Argonaut Keene over the last two episodes really captures the cycle of anxiety and aggression I've felt as a result of social anxiety (albeit in a more intense way)
But it's just, the feeling of loving your friends so much that you'd do anything for them, but always feeling like a burden or that you don't deserve them and it leads to slight feelings of jealousy and resentment
And eventually you get so fed up with every joke or phrase that your brain uses as evidence that they "hate you'" that you start to get angry at the pain of it all and cry or lash out or isolate
And then you're just left by yourself again feeling guilty because of what you've done and you feel like you can't separate those thoughts from yourself anymore
And it takes reminding yourself that other people love you, that the thoughts aren't based on anything, and learning your value to break out.
