I'm worried about what I will become.
My mother, who is my guardian at the moment, is a very irresponsible person. To the point of where I remember my grandmother and later my father raising me while she was too busy or something, before she divorced and took me and my sister.
To give you an example, she had a pain lately, and I had to convince her with her bf to go to the doctor. And I had to give her the money I planned to spend on Christmas gifts for her to go there. We are not extremely short on cash, no more than the average person, but she can't handle her money. And my sister had to give her her money too, she's 10.
All the kids in my age are not caring about money, or about their parents' doctor appointments, like I do (and she even tried to get me into doing this with my father as well, even though he is responsible enough to take care of himself). The average 17yo gal in here is just either studying or fucking or drinking. And I'm babysitting my mother like I'm 30.
So, what the fuck will I do when I get 30, if I already do those things now? And when will I do the fucking and drinking I'm not doing right now?