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φ - RP insecurities
Biggest one - other people RPing the same character as me. I normally have quite obscure characters, from quite obscure series (like Saguru here is originally from Magic Kaito and only appears twice in the Detective Conan manga which means he is easily forgotten and my other muse Elmer from Baccano!, a character who is most prominent in the light novels which means that even people who have actually watched the anime are not likely to remember him very well). I have however tried finding another person RPing the same character as me, and I was immediately hit by feelings of being very inferior. I'm not that confident in my own writing and my portrayal of the characters, so a thing like that can throw me off a lot.
Then there's romance. I'm having a hard time understanding romance, which makes it hart for me to portray as well. Smut is absolutely out of the question. I don't write it, I don't read it, I don't watch it and I prefer to keep it that way, so I guess that can also count as an insecurity, because I would be damned awkward having to write out a smut scene.
I also feel insecure when looking back at my old posts, sometimes even those I have just written. English is my second language, so after writing a reply I often spot a lot of grammatical mistakes that I didn't even notice when writing the reply and that makes me feel bad because if I spot them my RP partner is also likely to do so, and then start judging me. (I generally don't really have a lot of confidence in myself and my own skills basically >_>'')
